Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Holy Grail

I look back on my life and see that I was on a quest all this time to understand and define unconditional love. It was my proverbial holy grail. It has shaped and defined my life like no other thing or person has, and has made and broken my relationships. In the end I see it as the thing that has taught me the most about life and love, I would not change any of it. I understand more about a lot of life than most others do; but most of all I live it and have found peace in the practice of this path of love.
All people have the desire to learn this but it lays dormant because they do not know how to follow this primal urge or they do not trust it.  I am happy I did not give up, I now know the skills that can help many in this time of transition in the world.
Sometimes I see myself as a spoiled child over not having this love in my life, I have ignored and left to the wayside all the love that I did have in favor of having all of what I did not have. I know this is part of the quest. To know the knowledge and live it, to serve others with this information. I am sure that I had to go through all this to come out with the compassion and patience to teach and energetically help others.
There has entered into my life an acceptance I have never known; I am sure that I could not be an effective teacher without it. The past weeks I have felt an impatience to transform my life; yet I have wanted to trade that feeling for peace. I know that the peace is the only thing that can make me an effective teacher in this life. I am amazed, as usual, at how energy itself transforms my life. Just when I think there is no hope; in come's the transformation that I need to go through the next step in my life.
I know there is no real holy grail; yet I see that our thinking and peace with our inner self is the real holy grail of this life. All this takes is effort and devotion to your inner self.

Friday, May 27, 2011


I admit I grew up being told to work first and enjoy later. This has been my motto and work ethic all my life. In my younger days it worked. I had time to enjoy at the end of the day. Now that I am older there is always something else to do and I have children that have an endless supply of requests that stream through there mouths. I do for them because on a cosmic level we are all here to serve one another. At the end of the day I see I did not enjoy. I zoned out, trying to get to the enjoy part.
It has recently come to my attention, through revelation, that I am missing all the "enjoy" parts of life. I came to see that the enjoy is in the thoughts we have as we do all the rest of life. I clean a lot of poop, laundry, dishes and dinner, all with little or no help, with requests for my attention all the while. I started to realize it was the gratitude in all this mess. I was missing, and that came to me a few days ago.
I started to see the true miracle, or preciousness of it all. That these people, places and situations would not be in my life if it weren't for the grace or miracle that holds them there. Think of it! All the energy that is expended in connecting and correlating all of life! That energy has to hold together tiny cells and help us breath, digest, move, walk, talk and help the flowers grow, the sun to come up, the rain and it does all this for all the world. What a true feet of organizing power and cooperation.
I started to understand that I will not be able to enjoy life that same way ever again, yet I can enjoy it on a whole other level. I can see the miracle in it all and understand that the live around me is a true blessing. It is held in place for the true joy in life and it is a true joy to see it now. I will enjoy life more now that ever because I do not have to wait for the end to appreciate it.

Thursday, May 26, 2011


Sometimes we say that someone hasn't suffered enough. This is a selfish kind of thinking that says,"we should be the judge of others pain and suffering." We are not able to judge anyone else's pain. We just can not know all the factors involved in someones else's grief or learning processes.
The kind of suffering I am talking about is the kind that comes through in the related and future dealing with the people and situation that we learn from. I am talking about when we make others suffer injustly over our own short commings and then expect them to know we learned from the action and consequence.
When we suffer we can learn. It is in the sufffering with our inner energy that we learn the true meanings for our choices and the results are that we approach the people with a sense of humility. I am not talking about humility that says that we are sorry and that we know our place in the pecking order because of our actions. I am talking about humbelness that says, "I know I have treated you unfairly and I am sorry, but I am an equal person and have learned." This kind of energy does not have to be spoken. This kind of energy is revealed in the patience of the learned person. This sort of humility has a space that allows the others around you to see that you have changed before they have to deal with you in an unprotected way. The energy speaks for itself. Energy always conveys to others your true motives.
Your inner energy wants you to allow it to suffer with it, this is the healing process that helps the energy itself to purify your choices so you learn from them. This kind of inner relationship and suffering is not about why we have to suffer it is about knowing how we make others suffer. It is a relationship that the energy itself uses the time to show you how you have hurt others and helps you feel whole and humble in the future dealings with all people. Suffering with your inner energy is a healing to make your life peaceful and whole.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

What You Want

As I have gone along I have realized that if I want something I have to think about it. This is a backwards way of thinking because I was taught to think of what I did not want; in hopes of eradicating it. I am sure that a lot of people were taught this about life and I can see that it has brought a lot of pain to my life too. So what I came to understand was, you do not have to, not think of the other things, this would be imposable and not allow change; but to be happy with what you do like. Now as most of us go there is a lot we do not like! That is the key, or path though, to retrain you thoughts to look at the things you like. I have started to do this in a comical way, I press the virtual "like" button, it seems to have a space in my mind that creates what I need to think different so I can recreate my life.
I have come to understand that I also reflect the things I like, or want to keep in my life by spending time and thoughts on them, or the thought of them. All this has given me a fear deeper sense of gratitude and enjoyment than before. There is a depth of love that I feel flowing from me to all the people and things I "like". Some how I have come to know this as my emotional currency that keep what I want in place and does not hold it hostage. It is a great feeling to love and keep things this way, there is no pain involved in the coming and going of the return energy. I feel infinitely rewarded in this kind of love. I also know it is the only way to build a life that can't be taken from me again.
I have tried in many ways to be happy with the world as it was taught to me... and failed. I also see all others failing a those methods too. I want to create a world out of something real and solid that will not pain me so much. I have found that my inner energy is the only path to create a world that I want, out of love.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


When we feel ourselves as anything other than our energy within; we are just a body heading for death. There are studies, you can read some of Depak Chopra's work, when you think of anything other that the spirit, you are accelerating you aging process. Depak Chopra writes beautifully about this in; Reinventing the Body, Resurrection the Soul, one of this latest books that describes the testing science has done on meditation and the aging process.
Your purposeful attention to your inner self brings the vastness of the universe into your cells through out the day, separating and giving air; or spirit to your body and aging. Thinking of your inner guide is not only great for your mind; creating openness of thought and options, but good for your body also. The access of the spirit into and through your mind helps spirit to come in to your being and keep your body healthy and rejuvenated through out the day.
On the other hand, thinking of the physical world is a narrow path. These thoughts only allow inner energy to enter through the work you have on your mind. If you are thinking about the latest argument you had or problem at work, you have virtually cut off access to your body health. If you are sick, or in pour health you are thinking of the pain or spreading disease. This way of thinking only accelerates the growth of you illness or problem. Sending the full power of your inner energy to a problem is a dangerous solution; it is sure to keep the problem in place or accelerate the growth of it.
Know you are a whole being living in this world with the other things around you. All the things, people and situations are fear to be a part of your experience and growth; spiritually. Do not consider them a choice in the thoughts you think, they are here to show you a way into you inner self. Think of all those people and things around you as energy props, the ones you want to stay around you, be grateful the others look past them.
The choice to think only of you inner energy self is the only path to a long, healthy and peaceful life.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Right Action

You can start the guided path to happiness and peace by right action. This is a conscious effort to think of giving in all of your actions. Training your brain to think in right action is easy, one interaction at a time. Every time you act, talk or react, stop and think "is this a positive action on my part?"
Every thought, and then action, creates karma, or an energy response. So know that you are consciously creating a positive world by censoring your thoughts first. Make the choice to give in all actions. When you give you are using the law of giving, this is a fast way to joy with your inner energy. When you go to the store, everyone you look at, think "Thank you for being in this space with me." You are creating a world of gratitude and love. If the time is right, say something, feel what is right in the moment.
Right action is in the moment, and keeps you centered in the moment, purposely creating positive energy or karma.
Even if you are at the point that you can not understand how this works, try it. At the end of the day you will look back and see that it helped your day go more smoothly. It may even create a great sense of joy when you do it. It does for me. The true trick is to integrate it into the actions between yourself and family or close people. This is the true place of karma.
The true benefit of right action is that over time you develop a true, solid sense of self esteem. This self esteem is built on your inner self and can not be taken, removed, or cut down by any others. You inner guide will show you that you are a beautiful being and a peace, through right action.

Friday, May 20, 2011

The Wall

We all have things to change in life. When life backs us into a corner and forces the change we sometimes feel blocked by the pain of it all, feeling as if the problems are insurmountable. These times can feel like a wall of pain. What I realized was that my wall was not the pain I thought it was,  it was what the goal represented. If you are stuck with the worry of the pain, yet feel like you have over come those lessons, look deeper.
I was with like minded people last night and we were all talking and I got some insight into my real fears. What I realized was that I was not worried about not being peaceful, that is what we were talking about. I have peace when I sit, and in the quiet times; it is in the times of everyday activity that I need peace. My greatest fear was not having it, or not being able to sustain it; as is the case. It hit me last night that I was at peace and that I needed to allow it to fill the active times in my life.
I was beginning to see the lack of peace as a wall of impossible proportions, forgetting all together that I am peaceful inside of the pain that has transpired in my life.
Peace is something I have valued for quiet some time and it has slowly taken over the majority of my fears. What I want in the end is to allow it to take over my life so I can be a clear vessel of healing love for those around me. I know that I need it in order to obtain these level of healing and heal my life too.
My experience last night was the opening that allowed me to see around my wall of fear. Now I feel at peace with allowing my life to unfold. If you are stuck, look for the things that your fear represents. It could create a window in your wall too.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Cry For Me

Have you ever started to think of someone or something and just had an overwhelming feeling of wanting to start crying? Do you just cry, without thought, without judgment? Or do you think that they need your help? Do you think of the last bad interaction that you had with them and cry for how it turned out, or how they have hurt you? Energy itself will ask you to cry for those that have hurt you. When you consciously ask to heal those that have hurt you, you are instantly healed yourself. Energy does this as the fastest way to heal you. The only problem is that we do not want to help those that we think have hurt us, so it takes longer to heal.

Did you now that you can cry for someone else? Did you know that that could heal their pain and that, in turn,  heals the collective energy pain? That is the highest form of healing; to know that you were overwhelmed by the pain of humanity, and that your tears were shed for the healing of the whole.

I have a little bird that has survived in my care. In the quiet times, I feel the magic that is contained in its existence. I am in awe that it is alive, but on one occasion I felt a deep pain for the mother that lost it. I have seen how birds and animals look and stand over there dead babies. There is a collective energy that is present in all living things that is as powerful as creation itself. To sit quietly and witness it and feel it brings awe into our world.

When I felt the pain of this little bird and the pain of its mother, I had an overwhelming sense of wanting to start crying. I knew that I could cry for them. This is no small task, You have to be able to go in and feel the pain, to allow the tears to heal and to walk away with the knowledge that you have just healed a small part of the collective pain that is growing in all the world.

There is much pain between mother and child for many of millennium and it is this that can help make others pain bearable enough to live another day.

Knowing we are here to let this energy pass through us and heal it on the way is a gift that will transform the world. It is the outlet that the energy itself uses to make life bearable for the people that are not able to be conscious in this life. So, cry. Do not judge.  Just know that you are whole and that you are making the world a better place for it.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Letting Go

One of the things I learned in the beginning of my book learning was that we choose other things that are against what our guide tells us. This is a core error that makes our lives miserable. I, of course, did not know how to stop this error from occurring, but wanted to only follow my inner energy. I was full of hope six years ago when I found out about this choice. What I did not know was how long it would take for my inner guide to refine my thoughts so that I could hear my inner energy. There was a process of learning all the ways in which I have blocked my intuition. Then a process of learning all the reasons that I will not listen to my guidance, or ignore it for my own choice. Now I have become conscious of all my behavior. That is the name of this game, to become conscious, or it is not choice. Choice only comes from the knowing of all the options and the knowledge of the true motives behind our actions.

Here I am at the crossroads of letting go of my agenda, wants, wishes, whatever you call it. In the end we let go in favor of the choice to follow the inner energy in all we do regardless of our own agendas. I am in a spot now that I am making a life choice and do not want to put myself in the hands of my smaller thinking self. I want to cut ties of all I know in this world and let the remainder of my life choices be guided by my inner energy. We all have our comfort zones in our lifetimes, yet I know now that I am just an energy being that is here to live out the energy that runs through me, creating a better world for the whole. All is a gift to us and I have to treat it as such, now that I know this in my heart. Every decision is meant to help the whole, not just me. I am happy about all of this. It brings joy to my heart to help the world.

I guess I am saying that my new comfort needs to come from the feeling that I get from following my inner guide, not anything that I knew or had in this lifetime. I have been here many times before and my inner guide has helped me through all my little letting-gos, but now I am at the point that I have to let go of all the things that I thought would give me comfort and peace. I do have a sense of peace and comfort from my relationship with my inner energy, I just am letting go of all the physical things that I thought would bring me joy. They do not bring me any joy anymore,so I am letting go of the thought that it will. I have a joy in knowing that I am interacting with energy that is deeper than anything I find here.

The Guided Path

Energy send you all the tools you need to advance on the path of understanding it. Energy is only good and we want and need to see the energy, or good in all things. I have been asking for help in this area of my thinking for some time now. Yesterday, I got the answer.
I went to an Autism Awareness meeting and talked to a behavior analyst. She reminded me of something a had learned a long time ago; to only talk when you appreciate something. I knew this and had done it for a few years when my kids were little and over the years, and through a harsh divorce, I had forgotten how wonderful this thinking is. Now that I have the mindset I see that I am being guided to finish my thinking by practicing what it takes to become the energy being I need to be. I am so grateful to have come around full circle. It is the reasoning I needed to have to save my sanity in this life.
Many people say "what about bad behavior?" Well, you do not have to tolerate it, you just do not have to discuss it either. We make the correction in a non-judgmental way and promptly tell the other person that we are happy they are doing a good job the minute they change what they are doing. You have to learn to compliment all that others do that is good, even the littlest things, and quietly correct the rest.
So simple, we all correct others with every move or word, whether we admit it or not, we do. So why not correct or reward others in a conscious way?
What I have found and what I knew before is that I feel so much more love in my heart when I am looking for the good in others to compliment them. I feel good that I am choosing this path and that I am helping them to see the good in themselves. I am so grateful that the path is guided along the way. It is so nice to know I am not alone.

Monday, May 16, 2011

A Little Bird

A little bird came to grace our home yesterday. As all these birds that we get in the spring, I had little hope that it would make it through the night. I have a ten year old that loves animals, and every spring we have a tossed out wild bird that we care for.
I did not have my usual worries about theses things when I went to bed. I was thinking of all the rest we had in the past, and I said a little prayer. Something along the lines that it will be, "ok"either way and that if it was meant to be, let it live. Some how, I knew that that prayer was the power that was going to bring life to it.
I had forgotten about it in the morning and when I came down I heard a little peeping! There was a quiet happiness in my heart, and little thought went in to its survival, and morning feeding. As I was walking the dog, I felt strong this morning.  I realized that the background fear had left me, in some way. My mind is clear and I feel left with the gratitude I have been praying so much for the past few weeks.
I am in a spot of change again in my life, everything is a little unknown at this time. I knew for a few days now I needed something to fill my thoughts so my inner energy could do its magic. It seems, I have been sent my blessing; the energy, in form of a bird, to get me through this time.
I am so grateful and in awe of how life really works when you really start to understand it. Somehow as delicate as a hairless bird and as magical as miracles can be.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Hurt people; Hurt People

This rings in my mind as a truth. When someone is lashing out it is hard to remember they are lashing out from a point of pain. Their anger covers their vulnerability, yet if you dig deep enough, and asked why long enough, you would uncover that someplace in time they are stuck in a pain pattern and are overcompensating for the pain they have experienced.
We all live in these pain patterns, and do not even see them as the lens that we view the world through. They have the ability to twist our perceptions and bring down our families and friends. Yet all they are is phantom memories. They are an emotional trace that we could not process at the time of the experience and over the years these memories have gained interest at the rate of destroying our interpersonal lives. If we could see how we punish others for our perceived injustices; based on our past experience, we would implode with pain.
We can all recover from this pain, once we get a glance at the concept that we are pushing our own neurotic pain on others. This awakening is the opening that inner energy needs to correct your pain and refine the best in you. It can be over come just with the knowledge that you do not want to hurt others anymore. You do not have to spend years in therapy digging up the countless pain spots that added to and trigger the pain episodes that make you lash out.
After the hurt subsides, from an argument, see the pain in others. Have compassion for the worries and fears that rule there lives. We do not have to allow others to continue to hurt us, yet we can have compassion and distance ourselves from there pain. Some people live in a constant low grade pain they can not even recognize and they even think this is happiness, in some cases. I know people that live with this kind of pain and pass it on to generation after generation, they have lived like this and think it is happy, or the best they can get; I am not sure which.
I do not recommend you point this out to anyone, just keep it in your heart of knowledge  and live a better life for it. Knowing that others will hurt you based on there fears and worries takes out the pain of the wound they are trying to inflict. So, next time you are lashed out at; remember hurt people, hurt people.

Friday, May 13, 2011

Touch Our Lives

The people and situations of our lives are supposed to touch our lives. There is an energy that is here to transform us, it is in the details of our lives. We are not meant to effect others and walk away, although that can touch your life too. Yet the family we have is the hardest to learn form; those are the details that touch us the most.
I live with my mom, and she does not want to be effected by my life. She is set in keeping me at a distance. So I will not make changes in her life. This is nice, yet we never grow this way. We never come into our fullest potential. The only way be become the best is if  we learn new ways, and others are the carriers of that new ways.
When you hold others away from you, you are energetically saying they are not worthy of emotional investment. You are wanting them to see you as the best, because they have not succeeded in anything worthy of learning. Now you may think this, yet it is very untrue. Energy collides our lives to learn, it is in perpetual motion to better itself, i.e. us, the energy beings. If you refuse to learn, it brings on disease and premature death, you are blocking energy, by refusing to grow. This block slows down the energy frequency of your cells and then causes illness.
Others are not supposed to think you are the best; you are supposed to think they are the best. Life is supposed to be a mutual admiration society, with humility injected to keep us humble about the gifts we bring to the world. The next time someone upsets you, ask your inner energy how you are supposed to see the situation. What about the exchange should transform you?

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Discipline Where You Are

Discipline is what it takes to be successful at what you are doing. We may have success, yet discipline will push you over the edge to being the best. I am not talking about doing an extreme make over on your life. I am saying to start with your life as it is.
I am a mom I wanted to be a great mom. I also believe in peace and love, as in the way Jesus, Buddha, Dali Lama,and many others teach it. I believe that living this way is the only way we are going to effect change in the world; ie to bring peace the the world. So I started there. I say the times that I got mad at the kids for not behaving; I forced myself to correct, or state how would be a better way to behave, and I let it go. I saw the times when I let my anger fester about the way the kids did not do what I asked, and I forced myself to be happy. I have lived with the same adversities that many moms do these days and saw myself being a low grade upset. I forced myself to be happy in all situations. I want to teach my kids the value of happiness during adversity; after all they will have plenty of adversity in there lifetimes, why be unhappy? Adversity always changes, but your choice or chance to be happy does not.
I started discipline with what I had to work with, you can too.We all have beliefs that we have and do not live by; we all have lives that can be improved. Discipline is deciding to make what you believe and how you act work as one in this world of seductive options. Not all things are options when it comes to your discipline, but in the end you will be a better person for starting were you are and using self discipline to become a true mind, body, spiritual success.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Spiritual Rule #1

The laws governing the spiritual world are as concrete as the physical rules of gravity. The first one is to stay in the present time. It is an easy concept, yet extremely hard to do. I will admit that you have to have an iron will, and extreme self discipline. All of this is helped along by your inner guide. Many say that I am very militant in my thinking. I know that that is what it takes to be good at something; discipline. Ask anyone that runs marathons, makes millions and those that obtain self consciousness; it takes discipline.
I have spent most of my life being undisciplined, and have had a rough life for it. I also know that as I have become more disciplined my mind, body and spirit have become more congruent. By congruent, I mean that they all work together. This has brought peace and a sense of knowledge that transcends all that I have learned.
The deeper you come to becoming congruent, the more you realize that you have to give up all thoughts that keep you from your present moment. What we realize is that we spend a lot of time correcting others and situations in our minds. What these thoughts are are a form of vengeance on others and the world. A reduced form of background, mind warfare we have grown to love because of our need to be right and prove this to others.
Complaining and wishing anything is other than it is will keep you form living in the moment. We have grown up to believe that what we see, feel and touch; or prove we are right, is of more value than our authentic selves. When we live in this world we are always subject to humiliation and pain, from retaliation of those we have overpowered in this level.
Being in the moment is our only true power. You can affect change from here and live a peaceful life. So use your will power to be in service to the present moment, you will have the power of the universe backing you.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Two Meanings

Everything in this world can be taken from two different perspectives. Well it could have more, but generally two; the worst or the best. Other people will read what you are doing from the perspective that they would live by. You can not be responsible for how they feel, or perceive.
I have been in a friendship with someone for four years now, this relationship does not progress very far because when it starts to pick up; the other person gets mad that it is not progressing. I find myself always hopeful that things will go along smoothly, then they do not. Sometimes it amazes me how innocently I see the world, I am sure others think this same way; at least I have been told this. Yet I do not think of my life this way, as I am chugging along. I also want everyone to feel loved, so I haven't tainted myself with thinking the worst; for the most part.
I realized tonight that I am being seen in a way that is not in my ability to behave. I could not take advantage of another, I would feel so bad that I had hypocritically gone against what I have been learning and practicing. Yet this person has been telling me I have been taking advantage of him, for years. In the past I had defended myself and told my side of the story, to show that I did not think this way. Yet tonight I felt this intuition and moved in a different way, not relying on him. My heart goes out to him; that he thinks this of me. I had no such thoughts or feelings. I have always seen him as a friend and ally. With not many alternatives to turn to, I have been excited that he was such a friend.
My intuition guided me tonight to stay clear of this situation, because of the double meaning of the situation. Knowing this, I realized that I just wanted to be grateful and find someone else to help me. Finishing a relationship out of love is new to me, but I am so grateful that I am. I will admit that I have not handled any other relationship in such a gentle way.
I realize that the way I see my actions may never be seen or understood by others. What matters to me is that I deal with the world out of the Grace within me, guided by my inner spirit.

Sunday, May 8, 2011


I am so tired of defending myself. Those around me do not think of life like I do and they do not see the way I act and behave as a whole picture, as I do. Did you ever get to the point that you know it is not in anyone's better interest to continue to state the truths in your life? I am here. Those around me ask why I do what I do, and they want an answer; but they want me to defend my point of view because they do not want to see things as I do.
People want you to explain; they want you to state your point so they can tell you why you are wrong. They ask why, yet there are so many reasons why, and we can not go into them all. The truth is that the world runs on many threads and they are not all explainable in one setting. As a whole we are doing the best for the people around us. Well some do better that others, but still, why debate? We are still doing the best we can for the level of understanding that we are at.
I have someone that is always looking for an explanation for my behavior. Then they use it to tell me I am not doing justice for them. I understand they feel that way, and in there eyes I am not. So why keep debating this subject? If you do not get what you want either change your mind, understand you can decide to want something different, or move on to find what you want. But why continue to rehash your points over the years and cause drama in your own and others lives.
I do live by what I teach and write here, my heart is at peace with my life; for the first time in my life. I do not write about it until I have learned the lesson, or I could not articulate it so well. So I think, in the bigger picture, I am a good person at heart. I also realize that I am no longer going to argue or defend myself. I will state the way I feel and how I felt at the time; and let others have there interpretations for themselves. Others will always see things the way they want because they are doing there best to process there lives to. No more arguing for me, I want to just be.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Guidance Appropriate

You will get guidance according to your level of understanding. As your levels change so does your guidance. Energy works with you, so you can follow it, but it does require the best of you. That means that what it asks you to do may be just out of the realm of what you think possible; or that it is an automatic response to help another, something that if you gave it thought, you would not ordinarily do.
At different levels of your understanding you will be open to different options that you could not do before you understood more. The higher you ascend in you relationship with your inner guide; the clearer your peace with your guidance will be.
So when you start this path, you may want to be a help to others in some way; then as you learn that path you realize you would be better at a specialty, just outside of what you thought. Now you learn more and become more personal with your inner guide; you will realize you want to help in a deeper way. All this is learning specific, it is according to your level of emotional maturity. It is also according to a clearer level of relationship with your inner energy.
This evolution of your needs and service to your inner energy is a path that ever refines the quality of service you can provide to the world.
Most of us start out wanting some form of recognition for our efforts and as we progress we realize that it is the quality of service that matters most. I always wanted to help others in my life. Recently, I realized that I do. I just help, quietly, those around me to be the best that they can be. My inner guide has taught me a lot and I know that I have not had a lot of time to help others the conventional way, in the public work place. Yet I see the continuity that has developed in what I have learned and what I want has transformed. At one time I wanted to be appreciated and well known for all that I know about spirit and psychology. Now, I want to practice quietly and heal those in spiritual crisis. I also see now that I am doing that in some form and that it is a true gift to the world, even if it is not recognized as such.
Hang in there and know that as you become a better energy being, you will have better things to bring to the world. You will evolve and move in a better direction. So, do not be frightened of your changes. Your guidance will always give you challenges that are appropriate for your level of gifts to the world.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


We have a deep need to reason, but reason is not in our best interest. We seem to think that we can reason; the reality is that we can not. Reasoning takes our energy and we need it to heal our lives. We also can't reason because we do not have all the information we need to see the whole of the world and how our circumstances fit into it. Our small thinking in a vast universe is not enough information to lead us to a satisfying conclusion. We also need to remember we are reasoning on a different level than the circumstances develop and happen. We are trying to fit our logic, based on how we logic, on to a universal logic that is able to make things happen for the better of the whole.
Now I do believe that for a brief time we should look back to understand how we added to or attracted the problems in our lives; but never try to reason. Let go of the need to reason on this level. It is like asking your inner energy why is the world doing this to me? The energy can not answer that; it is a selfish question that implies that the world does things just for you; it does not. You are part of a whole that helps all those around you; even to the point of smiling at a clerk in the store, or not. You effect people just driving in your car, because your thoughts are the energy that they feel, as they drive.
Reason should be reduced to help you move in the direction that will help you understand we are connected to the energy within all of us. It should be the logic that helps you methodically reason a thread in your thinking that connects all you do to the energy within you; this is your power. Tell yourself that everything happens for the best; you may not believe it at first. You inner energy will show you how it is so. What you cling to as a thought, even if you do not believe it at first will work its way through your energy system until you know it. That is how you learned all the things you know now, even if they are not true, you believe them. Re-train your brain to think of things that conserve your energy and help you use its power to the fullest.
Reason is not a place to waste our energy, it is a dead-end road when it comes to energy. If you want to take advantage of your highest potential, use reason as a tool to unify your thinking. Energy will have a clear path to healing the world, and you, if you use your reasoning skills in behalf of the whole.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Shadow Side

The shadow side of your life is when you act out of your ego's need for control. We all do this, I would venture to say, on a regular basis. It is when we have a little disagreement, or big one, and we need to prove to the other we are right or that they are as bad as we were, if we did something wrong. It is when we bring up all the things that the other person has unjustly acted out on us. A shadow is the dark side of the real you; it is unforgiving, angry and explosive. It is also the other end of the best of you.
Our negative behavior is the opening to the best of us. Each of us is an energy system that has fears that run our lives and make problems in our lives until we start to see those patterns and question, "why am I fearful in this area of my life?" When we start to question, we either stick with the answer, believing in our current limitations, or we grow our inner self and rise to the occasion.
Here is an example. Pride, or humiliation, is one of the biggest reasons to argue on the planet. Many of us get offended and hurt at the drop of a hat with this one. Pride can make us go after another like a rabid dog, to defend and speak our side of the story. We hold on to offenses and even pass then on to other generations in order to punish and get back at those that we see as hurting us. Pride separates us from others so that we can justify our worst behavior, and allows us to focus that behavior on who we think hurt us.
Now the light side of pride is reverence, reverence unites us in the wholly truth that all is one. Reverence is the best of our potential in this world, it allows us to serve humanity, and all of life with a gentle kindness that emanates equality, which the opposite of humiliation. Reverence is the quiet unification within our minds that we are all one and should all be treated with love and kindness.
Shadows are the way we act out our lives until we are grow emotionally and move into our light. Shadows create the most destruction in our lives, breaking down relationships, families, and nations.
We can overcome our shadows if we look to our inner energy for unification of our lives, bringing our spiritual side to the front of our being.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Love/Trap 2 and Ramblings

I need to add another layer to this blog, if you are following your inner guide, it is a guarantee that you will succeed. What I am trying to say is that, all of your life's endeavors are an energy pattern. This means that the pattern ends with the completed form of your inspiration.
The truth is that when we live from the place of peace that we are intimately connected with the energy within us, we know we have the power of the universe behind us. The worry of the physical world is what makes the things we want, or need take so long to materialize. It is the thought of all the worries that block or weigh down the energy that makes energy stop or slow down. This place of peace, that we feel has to be felt more that 80% of the time we are awake. This is the tipping point of energy, 80%. So thinking of all the things that can go wrong, or re-planning how you are going to do it, or wondering if you are right; are blocking the reality that you want to happen in your life.
The place of peace is felt, it is in the times we sit still and feel the energy within us that is the clear power that is working in us to transform the world. You do not have to sit for this to work, start thinking it is working in your life even when you are cooking, acting with kids, family and friends; feel it at times you are active, it will respond. When we have our own agendas, that is what we feel is the best for us, and maybe not the best for the universe, we can do the change but it may take longer. It is in letting go of how we think things should go that is the speed needed for quantum leaps of energy.
I have to say from experience that that place of peace comes with a not caring, and I do not mean, not caring about life; but a not caring about others opinions. You start to see that others opinions are based on their perceptions, and not reality; reality being the clear feeling of peace. This peace leaves you with the understanding that others can not see you as you are, they can only see you through the lens of how they think. Others will not see you with the beauty that is radiated from you, at times some will feel it and respond, but those close to you will miss it. They are busy seeing the problems of the past and how they see the moment, through a cloud of old thoughts. There is no longer a need to correct them for their misperceptions, the feelings within you will work out the details that are needed to maneuver you into the place you need to be free of those perceptions. You live from the knowledge that their perceptions can not hurt or effect you any longer.
Your inner guide will bring you the peace that you need to transform your world. It is the reason we are here and the power to create we all seek. It has always been here and will always be, and all we have to do is relax and feel it working. Remove yourself from your ordinary fears.