Thursday, June 30, 2011

Full Measure

Life is a full measure, you need to feel it and live through the feeling. This feeling engages you, it takes your thoughts in a direct way. This means you think about life, not just react to what you see.
The feeling that I am talking about is the feeling that you get when you are someplace and start to feel someone looking at you; if that person is looking at you, you feel good. If that person is looking at you with anger you feel bad; or fearful. Either way this is the feeling of heightened energy. Most of the time it we notice it when we are feeling attracted to someone, the problem with this is that we reduce it to a sexual feeling. That means that we engage with another based on out true being; seeing their inner spirit, feeling it and then reduce them and ourselves to a sexual being. We as humans experience our inner self first in this way, as sexual beings; this is the first step in feeling our inner energy. The problem is that his world does not have a true understanding that the first feeling is a sensual feeling. Sensual is the essence of our true being. Falling in love is the first days of relating through our true inner being; that is why it is so powerful. The problem is that we have assigned this feeling to sexuality and then we start to see the other person through the physical; because sexuality is physical.
We do not have a language in this world yet for this feeling, or a true understand of how to live through this process of our inner energy. There are many of us that have started to live it and want to help others to live a full life, the only path is to experience this feeling, on a more that half bases.
As you start to practice this feeling and bring it into you life, it teaches you all the ways you used to see are wrong. The way you used to relate to it are hurtful and destructive.
When you live through it you become it, and willingly let it live through you. Life then becomes the full measure of the experience of feeling, being the true you.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011


In all we do, we can see energy at work. Even when we do not see the direct results of our work; we can see the the world is connected through a mutual energy that runs through us all. Living through this energy is the spiritual law that, "all is one" and we are effect everything in or lives.
Seeing this energy is not about seeing with your eyes it is about a combination of feeling and knowing. It is the development of you inner self that guides you in a most wondrous life. To know in your heart that you have the ability to life someones life in even the smallest way is so powerful. That in its self can make all of life a glorious place to be.
No matter how down and out we are there is always someone, something to make better. Even if it is a prayer, a smile, or a silent devotion of love. Life can become a miracle in motion.
I love this thought, even the thought brings my heart in to a joyous state of being. When we are in a sad place we can go to the store and smile at another. We can pray for one another. We can open our hearts and feel the energy of all those around us and see them with the eyes of our inner spirit.
This same energy 'sees' us, and so provides the very thing we need to make our lives a better place. It is in our choice to help another, making there life a better place, that the energy makes our lives a better place too. Seeing is a intimate part of our lives, we can not avoid it. My thought is to use it to make this world the best place it can be.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

The Path

The worst things in your life are meant to send you on a path of higher living. Each of us has things that happen and we say, "Why me?".  The truth is that they are the things that are supposed to set us on a course to living a life on the inside. We will never be able to understand the events of our lives according to  our logic in this world, but tragedy is set up to make us vulnerable enough we remember how it feels to feel bad. Then from an inner energy perspective we need to use that knowledge to relate to others.
This world is about learning to serve others, in some way that helps the world be a better place. Even when we can't get out of a lower kind of giving we can hone our inner self to giving on this level with kindness and respect. All of us have something we are good at, to learn to give with a blessing in our hearts is to change the world.
At some point this leads to understand in that what ever we give has the power to transform the world no matter what it looks like on the outside. Even if the other person can not say thank you or does not even understand how there life has changed; you know that it has made a difference. This is the true path if living through your inner energy. It is the ability to know that in all we do there is the power to help others.
The reality is that all we do either helps another or hurts them; in the end we all have the ability to learn from the pain, or love, others inflict. Yet it is in your path that the transformation needs to take place; so it should be you that is in the knowing that all is transformed through you. Our highest potential in life is living through this knowledge, and your own path is the only one that can change the world you live in.

So as my daughter loves to say, and Nike; just do it!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Lasting Relationships

I recently met a beautiful couple that was so in love, even after years of life trauma. It is so rare to see people that have grown together in life; one is always touched by them. I have thought about them so much over the past few weeks. I also have wanted nothing more that to have such a relationship in my life; even though I will not ever have that. I am twice divorced. it got me thinking though, what makes you the kind of person that would not just live together, but thrive together.
Faith is the deciding factor. I am not talking about ordinary faith; but the kind that says, 'no matter what transpires; I love you, and you love me'. This life does not have a lot of room for that kind of unwavering faith. You as a person have to have you on the energy of the love above all else in this world. Through years of ups and downs, hurt feelings, death and ordinary disappointments; faith in the love that binds them.
You have to have the ability to empower each other at what might seem you own expense. You have to overlook a lot of what others take offence to. But in the end you come out with this perfectly nurtured love. I will tell you these too shine with this love! You can see that it has been what nurtured them through all of life together. They nurturing the love and the love nurturing them back. Amazing how the circle of love, or energy of life, works for us.
I know I have seen this love only two times in my life. Once as a child, and I strive to understand it and wanted to learn to live it. I know I am living it and teaching it to my kids; and that I may not have it with a partner, but I know I have it with my kids. I see that my efforts to understand have paid off in that the next generation will be better off for my faith in this love; because of my efforts in building lasting relationships with my kids.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011


We all come to endings in our lives. Some of us do not like to end because it is change, we resist this and then the end has to come in a cloud of pain over some tragedy we created because we resisted the change in the first place. I guess if you learn to follow your intuition and see how it directs you to change, change is still a time of uncomfortableness, but you look at the good in it. This knowledge is the comfort you are doing the right thing, and it allows you to look at the possibilities that are open to you in the ending of something.
As you know I am moving and have had to tell my mom that I need to go. It is a time of uncomfortableness. I know she does not approve, because she does not think things have changed for me. On one level they haven't. yet if they haven't changed I would not be going. I would still be here frightened and scared for my survival and the needs of my kids. This announcement has helped my mom be kinder to me, strangely enough. but there is now a deeper, energy of resentment.
This past year I have rapidly gone through my spiritual evolution. My mom has not approved of me from the time I got here and after I got over the hurt I started to notice that she behaves this way with all people, It was never me she was disappointed of, it is her way of relating. Yet I have to say that has been an emotional, spiritual, guide that I do not belong were I am not supported.
I know that in my heart it is the right thing to move on, for everyone that I live with and around. I see that my decision effects all those that touch my lives too, even all those that touch my children's lives. I have also seen how we, all those people have grown too.
So my ending is filled with beginnings, and I know that I will never again be the person I was when I came here. I do not mind that one bit, for I have become, in the process the person I had wanted to be all my life. I am grateful for this ending. If I had faced all my endings with the larger view that all is right in the world, my life would had transformed sooner. I am grateful to be here now!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Generosity / Charity

I am glad the world is getting back to generosity. It is in generosity that we touch the true spirit of others and transform our spiritual lives in the process. I see that for a while we have been doing charity, and charity is nice but at the end of the day, you do not grow. Charity is the stuff that makes you feel good because you have helped another and you look and feel good for the exchange. It is something that you go to bed at night, saying I am glad I did a good deed, and now I can get on with my life.
Generosity is the act of extending your self in a way that you transform another, not at the expense of yourself, but at the sacrifice of part of you. This part of you can be your thoughts, it can be giving something you have, or time. Yet it requires an emotional investment and the possibility of a risk of some kind. The risk I refer to is that we may have to endure it lasting longer, or being harder than we think. Most of these opportunities of generosity are ways we grow the most, in learning our boundaries and the depth that we can touch an others lives, they are the transformational choices we make the help others see there own value.
We are in awe of those that do great generous acts, yet we some who think we cant preform them ourselves. We do not have the money or time. That is, we have the underlying belief that if we help others we will loose something we need; time or money. The truth is that people that serve others in this way know that they get back all invested, yet they are humble enough to know the true message of servitude is in emanating to the person you are helping a sense of equality. It this underlying intention we all stay humble, and honer that energy that all is one. That same energy is what brings back, or replaces what you gave, in abundance of what we gave in the first place. Your intention is the energy of magnetic attraction. To use it and practice it through generosity is what helps our spirits grow so rapidly.
Generosity is, or can be preformed in all you do. You can be generous in pouring a cup of tea, coffee, or making a meal. It comes in the morning routine with your family, the choice to overlook and show the people you live with that the small things don't make them bad people. Your choice for generosity is something you can do without money, time or any resources. It is in the choice to transform your thinking, to focusing on your ability, to make a difference in every moment of your day.
You can be as big at heart as any you see on TV, all you have to do is start with one thought at a time. You inner energy will do the rest, soon your life will be as big and as important as the lives of the people you see on TV..

Friday, June 17, 2011


Resurrection is an energy pattern that we all go through during our lives. We do not feel it on most levels though. It happens every time we learn something new and this reality replaces our old thinking. This reality can be felt acutely when you disconnect from a collective belief pattern, like getting mad at someone and moving away from them. Seeing another perception and understanding them for what they are and then understanding that reality is not who you are; changes you thoughts on who you were. This lets in a new reality of yourself and then you are resurrected as a new person. Energy then comes in and grows your cells and spiritual body so that you become the new perception.
I have been learning and studying all my life about the world spiritual masters, this energy has shaped and overrode all the decisions that I have made in my life. It has been the primary way I related with all people and how I have raised my family. I was given the gift in my life to be rejected by almost all the people in my life, family and friends. This was a painful process as I lived through it, yet it has repeatedly left me with the need to look to my inner energy for a self sustaining relationship.
Resurrection energy in the end brings all that back, it transforms your perception to leave you with the truth that you are that energy and then all those people can return. They just return free of any feelings of resistance. I have had that prevailing feeling in the past few days. An open feeling of grace, and love. Despite the friction in my current home I know that in the end all this will fade. My mom will melt into the love I have for her. The reality that my inner self has created, is the one I have been training for and striving for all my life, an so I feel reborn.
I feel as though I've been reborn, as I no longer see the events in my life as I used to. My reaction to those events have also changed. I welcome the light of my inner energy as it guides me down the path of conciousness.

Thursday, June 16, 2011


When you think of something it starts the seed of reality. Talking about it and then having someone else believe in it makes it grow. This is how the world starts and finishes anything. If you talk about it and then it fades away, others, and your self have 'turned the other cheek,' as they say, and it dies. The reality of it fades. 
My daughter texted me in the night last night, she was in a panic and angry that some of her old friends were bulling her. When this happens, and any other thing that is in just, remember were you are. People do theses kinds of things to get attention and if you are feeling like it is true, but it was in just they others talk about you; it becomes real. You are the second person that makes what was said a reality, or you can drop it and it dies. These girls said she was a charity case, and this may have weighed on my daughter because of our recent hardship. Yet the reality is that she is not from a poor family, we have experienced a poor life this year, but over all we have had a great life. All parents say no to there kids, I have said yes a lot more that some parents; with a lot less to give. She has not and is not a child of a poor family. This is a reality that she can easily over look and know that she is a strong person inside and does have a great group of friends beyond these other girls. I reminded her of this. She is with her friends and is safely away from theses other girls and there reality; she saw the truth in this and moved on. That reality then died the death it deserved.
There is also another reality here, these girls were shunned on a level and did not like my daughter moving on. She had unfriended them on Face book. I will say that there are people in this world that test the reality of our decisions, or our dedication to them. When you energetically move on there will be others that challenge that. Others do not like it when we move on, moving on is a threat to there ego. They will energetically find ways to undermined our decisions, this is were our persecution and resolve set in. We have a choice at this point to follow our inner self direction or believe in the reality that others create for us. Energy itself does not care what you choose, if you are strong in your inner energy you will believe in your own direction and then live in the happiness of that. If you are not sure of that inner relationship you will create, again with the people that are persecuting you. You will go back to there reality and have to learn the lesson until you can disconnect from that reality setting.
All these energy patterns are here to help you develop your inner self. They are nothing but patterns, that the other people are acting out. The patterns test us and teach us to grow spiritually. Sitting with you inner self and felling that relationship will grow the patience you need to see these patterns and learn from them, instead of being offended by them. So create your reality with your inner self and know with all your heart that as it develops in this world others will see it and know it as truth. Leave the others behind, they are here to test your relationship with reality. What you think is your only reality.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011


I moved to this part of the world to be with family, one assumes that family is the connection that you learn from and grow, and that helps you out of love. What I did not for see is that love is defined by others and many other ways. Let me expound on that. Family is what we grow with and they have the same value systems; now I will admit my mom has a different value system. Yet over the years I have talked to her and she has agreed with my thoughts and been supportive and loving, so I assumed that would continue when I move to her home. What I did not bargain for was that her value system would prevent her from being the loving person that she was the other 22 years that I was learning a new value system.
In the end I can say, that I would shout it from the mountain tops, I love you mom! I am grateful for her love, the way she can show it, has been limiting and painful, yet I have grown so much from that small love. You see energy gives you what you need not what you want, I needed to see that love, as limiting and as painful as it was on some levels as love from the energy world. I had to see and feel that as enough to open my heart to loving all, excepting all as it is in the bigger plan. With out this lesson I could not love to this capacity, or see the world as the loving place it truly is, a gift from the energy that keeps us all breathing and alive.
So sit with the pain that family dishes out, it is the miracle that heals us all. I am happy to report that I am moving on and I feel that same energy is me; that I have come to par with my calling in life. My life will now be the vision that I have strived for and wished it to be. I will have the same ups and downs, yet I will act different, and even appreciate the world for the true miracle it is.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Acquiring Energy

We are energy beings first, that means that we need energy to survive, grow and thrive. So we must acquire energy as our primary nutrients. Now I will say that this world does not teach you how to do that, it is part of growing and learning. You do it through your relationship with your inner energy. This primary relationship is the way we live, and if we neglect it we are abusive, yes that is a strong thing to say but it is true.  Abusive people keep the patterns of abuse alive and well through there way of acquiring energy. They teach this form of acquiring energy through there abuse.
Now let me explain, we all have to have energy, it repairer's and keeps all our cells and functions of every aspect in our lives going. As children we learn that we share energy, through energy plays with the members of our tribes (family). Now as we grow we are supposed to learn that we start to form a relationship with our inner self; this relationship will take us away from our family, if we do it right. Now most families do not want us to leave, out grow, or become smarter that them; so they do not encourage this.
       Yet you will get smarter with your inner self, and this relationship helps you grow patience and  inner peace that teaches compassion and respect for others. It is in that relationship that you gain energy to survive and feed your energy body (essential self). Little by little you will have less need to create chaos, or anger episodes that feed you energy body. You see anger in any form is what it is to get energy from a physical point, meaning you have not acquired the skills to gain it for yourself, through inner work. Anger can feed you for days, because when others think of the episode they are relinquishing there energy in the form of thought filled emotions, to you.
I know people that are still working in this mode, ok, a lot of people. But I see that I have grown through it and no longer feed them with my thoughts. Many of these people use the excuse that they black out or can not control there actions, and they can't. This pattern is so ingrained that it happens at such a pace they do not see the reality of there actions. Now I must say that people that know they hurt others and continue to do it are, energetically asking to be left. This is the energy the universe is calling all of us to deny, or to look elsewhere so it can transform form the abusers pain of abandonment. Pain of your actions is what the inner energy uses to heal you, and it is a conscious persons responsibility to gently and lovingly leave these people to there life until they learn new patters of relating to us. I am not saying to be angry with them, that is the same form of emotional abuse they use. I am saying that you can check on them and say I love you, then go. When they try to be angry, say I love you and walk away. they will soon see that you are not going to stand there and listen to them. You will soon become calm through these processes also.
The strongest point I can make is to develop your inner relationship, it will give you the patience to handle these and all situations in life. It will open your eyes to how you add to the situations and prevent you from doing the same to others. The best part is that we come to acquire our own energy the way we should acquire it; through our own self, that is real and lasting energy that can change the world.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Love is a Verb

I have a t-shirt that says this. I always understood that it is an action that we all have to choose to take. Yet, the depths that we need to take it to in order to transform our lives goes well beyond a cute t-shirt.
We all come in this world with energy that is meant to transform the world, and us. Love is this energy. Love is not the self centered way we feel about someone in our lives. It is that deep profound energy that runs through us and creates life itself. Love itself can come in the form of acceptance, quiet contemplation, devotion, and a great joy. The truth is that it is you. We all come here not realizing that we are that energy and that our lives contain the acting out that is supposed to reveal this to us.
This whole process takes quiet dedication, and is measured in every little act we preform, or every thought that causes the action. As you weave the treads of dedication of intention to love, you start to feel yourself as that love. Love being an action is the energy that creates and sustains the world. We act this out in everything we do; I mean everything! From breathing to sleeping, to our blood flowing; our bodies are replicating something in the world or universe that is modeled on our little existence.
When we give up the need, want and desire to control our lives, we see that we are that love, acting out the bigger world that needs love. We become that love, emanating, healing and devoted to all that passes through our lives and mind.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Follow Your Heart

I have to say that many times the information we get from energy, or intuition is sometimes over looked. Follow your heart, even if it is the hardest thing to do, you are creating an energy that will make you stronger. Many times we justify and put our thoughts on the information we get, and this changes our motives and intention. What I am saying here is to follow your heart with out these thoughts that justify your intuition.
Staying silent about your progress and intentions is a powerful thing. It keeps the energy working within your own field and helps you not justify to others. When we feel obligated to justify to others we tell them the ideas that they want to hear so we will have approval. This is energy that is talking and you need only its approval and that will show up in the calm peace over the decisions you make about life.
In the end, after the energy of life maneuvers your life, you will gain people that respect you and except your decisions without making you justify them according to there perceptions. We all make decisions that do not look like the best ones, but they are part of the process that helps us grow and become whole. So from a different perspective they were the right decisions, because we learned from them.
Following your heart is always the right thing to do when you are on a path to know your inner self. Because it always serves the whole of humanity to evolve and grow.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Spoken Word

My favorite radio station is doing a "say 5 nice things, about someone" day. I like this idea. It is in keeping with the energy that all things grow. What you think and then say is always the stuff that grows.
Being or becoming mindful of the thing's that we say is so important in the energy world. There was a time that I would talk endlessly about the injustices in my life. Looking back, it only brought me and the people listening down. All words have energetic power, and if you speak them they are going into the air and all those around you, and to those that you are talking  about! Energy is some thing we feel but do not acknowledge because we would have to behave differently if we lived by it.
It is very real though and it is what creates the world we live in. Every thing we say has the power to help something or hurt it. There is no in between. Life, energy is moving at all times and the only thing that does not change is this energy. All the things we talk about have the ability to change, because they are of this world. Energy does not change so use the unchangeable to change what can!
It is a long road to living by this concept, unless you have a spontaneous awakening, but you will be a better person for the path of understanding. Slowing down to understand how energy feels before we talk is one of the steps to success. So think and say five nice things about everyone you know today, it will create happiness for the day.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011


We all have to transform our lives to be an effective teacher. Even if you are a school teacher you need to go to school and this process take you through a transformation. What we learn in a life time is how we act and how we act is teaching at all times.
All good and effective teachers know that they learn as they go. Life and teaching is a moving and energetic process and has to be open to energy so it can teach what is needed in the moment. If you do not learn from all of life you become a pom pass , egotistical teacher. All this does is make you an out cast. Knowing that you learn from all of life keeps you humble.
Humility is a sign of a great teacher, and if you are privileged to find a teacher on this path, look for humility. Or should I say sit and feel there humility, that is the true test of ones abilities, to feel there energy sincerity. All of what I teach or write is not something you can learn in books; it is something that you have to live, practice and exude.
Look for teachers that will live in the moment and teach you what you need to learn, not what they have decided you need to know. We are all human and have our own agendas; but some of us can sit and feel what is right to say in that moment. In the moment is what needs to be heard and learned.