New Friends

I have moved back to the place I belong, and instantly made a new friend. Cosmic; that I was in one place for a year and could not make one friend, then move and make one in two weeks. There is the energy of belonging in that.  
     
My thoughts are about rooting; or feeling of being and doing the right thing. My friend moves a lot, they travel in a camper and go were there is work. Kinda like a modern day Gypsy, but that is sweet; that she chooses to support her spouse and travel with him. The energy of true love, and it is returned in his actions too, he genuinely likes her company and is devoted to her.
     
Well the story is about rooting; she is some times restless to settle down and have a community to be involved in and family around. They connected at a church in their home town before they left and miss it very much. The reality of this is that what you do in a home town is what you will do on the road. Most people do not see this because they are looking for it to look a certain way; but they are living the love they learned at church. That very energy sends them people to commune with and care for in the same manor that they would at home.
       
They both are very generous people and give to others. She has offered to help me and that offer is the energy of love you learn about in a church and want to practice. Just her quiet manor of affection and devotion to those around her is the truth that you learn and read about.
       
Understanding how and were God works in your life is part of intention that makes your life filled with the meaning that we all crave. We do not have to go some place or do what others do to be a great citizens and show our devotion to God thought those choices.  I say they are great people and that the energy of there life is that it is a unique opportunity to show others the love of God through there personal relationship and how they interact with the new people that they meet. That is the great gift they have been given to witness there devotion to God. The energy that runs through us is the gift that God wants us to live out; being a witness to Himself; or the energy of creation itself.
       
So thank you for being my friend, acting out the affection that God has for me. Thank you for choosing to be that energy for this world, you are a great person. I am blessed for the time you have and will be in my life and that is all that God wants for us all.

Full Measure

Life is a full measure, you need to feel it and live through the feeling. This feeling engages you, it takes your thoughts in a direct way. This means you think about life, not just react to what you see.
   
The feeling that I am talking about is the feeling that you get when you are someplace and start to feel someone looking at you; if that person is looking at you, you feel good. If that person is looking at you with anger you feel bad; or fearful. Either way this is the feeling of heightened energy. Most of the time it we notice it when we are feeling attracted to someone, the problem with this is that we reduce it to a sexual feeling. That means that we engage with another based on out true being; seeing their inner spirit, feeling it and then reduce them and ourselves to a sexual being. We as humans experience our inner self first in this way, as sexual beings; this is the first step in feeling our inner energy. The problem is that his world does not have a true understanding that the first feeling is a sensual feeling. Sensual is the essence of our true being. Falling in love is the first days of relating through our true inner being; that is why it is so powerful. The problem is that we have assigned this feeling to sexuality and then we start to see the other person through the physical; because sexuality is physical.
     
We do not have a language in this world yet for this feeling, or a true understand of how to live through this process of our inner energy. There are many of us that have started to live it and want to help others to live a full life, the only path is to experience this feeling, on a more that half bases.
   
As you start to practice this feeling and bring it into you life, it teaches you all the ways you used to see are wrong. The way you used to relate to it are hurtful and destructive.
     
When you live through it you become it, and willingly let it live through you. Life then becomes the full measure of the experience of feeling, being the true you.

Two Meanings

Everything in this world can be taken from two different perspectives. Well it could have more, but generally two; the worst or the best. Other people will read what you are doing from the perspective that they would live by. You can not be responsible for how they feel, or perceive.
   
I have been in a friendship with someone for four years now, this relationship does not progress very far because when it starts to pick up; the other person gets mad that it is not progressing. I find myself always hopeful that things will go along smoothly, then they do not. Sometimes it amazes me how innocently I see the world, I am sure others think this same way; at least I have been told this. Yet I do not think of my life this way, as I am chugging along. I also want everyone to feel loved, so I haven't tainted myself with thinking the worst; for the most part.
   
I realized tonight that I am being seen in a way that is not in my ability to behave. I could not take advantage of another, I would feel so bad that I had hypocritically gone against what I have been learning and practicing. Yet this person has been telling me I have been taking advantage of him, for years. In the past I had defended myself and told my side of the story, to show that I did not think this way. Yet tonight I felt this intuition and moved in a different way, not relying on him. My heart goes out to him; that he thinks this of me. I had no such thoughts or feelings. I have always seen him as a friend and ally. With not many alternatives to turn to, I have been excited that he was such a friend.
   
My intuition guided me tonight to stay clear of this situation, because of the double meaning of the situation. Knowing this, I realized that I just wanted to be grateful and find someone else to help me. Finishing a relationship out of love is new to me, but I am so grateful that I am. I will admit that I have not handled any other relationship in such a gentle way.
     
I realize that the way I see my actions may never be seen or understood by others. What matters to me is that I deal with the world out of the Grace within me, guided by my inner spirit.

Loved or Trapped?

The way we talk will tell the truth about how we love. Our minds are tricksters, they like to make us think we do things for great reasons; but our language gives away our true motives. I will tell you that when you do realize the reality of the thoughts you think, your motives become pure. Energy runs through you, bringing life to all you do, and you. Yet we as humans have the free will to do what we want with that energy.
       
We all start out on a low level of understanding about love, we are taught this kids, to love our family. This small way is a physical way the tribe, or family keeps us under wraps. They teach us to love back even if love hurts, this is the physical way of keeping the tribe alive. Now understand this is energy, and we act it out with out even knowing about it. Anyway, energy comes into us and we say we are doing things out of love, yet we are really trying to get others to think we are the best, and change them so they will conform to what we want.
       
Now the truth can be found in what we say, or what we get upset about. I also want to say again that what we do is pure; but if you do not understand it, it is not pure love. This is the definition of consciousness. OR maybe you have added the weight of the physical world and made it a trap.
         
Here is the example, I have a friend, ok, ex-husband that has always wanted me to come back to him. We have remained friends and he helps me out a lot, both monetarily and companionship wise. Now, he has chosen, for four years to work on his own, not get a steady job. He has gone through four different company startups and dissolutions. All this was his choice to make a company and make it rich, so he could provide for us as a family. Now, along the way he has not been a steady provider and we have been in poverty all along. Now I left him for other reasons too, and money is only one of them. Well his choice to say that he was going to provide and then not do so. I can respect a person that knows there limits and says they can't provide, that is honest, honesty is respectable. Holding someone captive until you get it together is not admirable. Back to the subject, Language, he continues to be upset with me when I am not happy with him, or am not happy to see him. His argument is, "I have never worked so hard, why can't you be happy".  I have been trying to explain that we need a break, I see the energy as he wants to fill the energy place that provides the money for me as a family. I also know that if he is honest and says that he cant provide The energy will flow from some other place, energy flows were there is a need. If I do not rely on him to fill the need, energy itself has to find another out let. I also knowthat the time apart will heal us as individuals

Healing

Healing is a journey of empowering others, situations and places. When you walk along your guided path you start to understand that your highest potential is your healing, and that it is the conscious choice to empower every thing in life.
     
The truth is that you can go to therapy for ever, trying to get over all  that has and is being done to you, but you will not heal from this. You will just become a complainer.
       
Healing begins when you see that your mind has to be in the current moment; and the current moment holds only the energy of your inner being. Your thoughts have to be with the power of the universe to heal you to your highest potential. You are nothing but that same energy; and you have to become what you are to allow the source to heal you.
       
I have a friend that says he does not want a belief system that makes him change his thoughts so far away from the physical world reality. He thinks that it is a form of lying, or denial to see life like this. The reality is that everyone has to deny the whole reality that they are who they are, to believe in the physical world. So which denial is the best? I have experienced them both and can say that to deny my true reality; that I am a energy being, is to embrace a life of constant pain, in some from. I can also say that to be an energy being and embrace this reality is empowering and a true joy.
     
Healing comes from the daily exchange of old thought to the new thoughts, of who we really are. When we believe and act out of our new reality we empower the world and all that is in it. Learning and knowing that every action is an opportunity to help others, situations and places; that is healing to its highest potential.

Repeats

When you repeat behavior it is an opening to look at how you feel. Many times we think situations in our lives are different, but if you look close you will see that they are related. If you have your feelings hurt repeatedly, think about why. Ask yourself how you need to feel and what you really want the other person to be like. Ask many "why" questions. Keep asking why, until you have an answer that is deep in your soul. Use this information to understand reality of expectations.
     
I have an acquaintance that feels left out a lot. When others have an activity planed, if she finds out, she will say they left her out. She also projects this on her kids, saying others have left out her kids. I have another that repeatedly feels unloved. This person needs to hear "I love you" many times a day, and judges the barometer of the relationship on it. A whole world is built around how many or little "I love you's", they get in a given period of time. This same person needs to hear that I want to see them, verbally. It is not enough to feel safe with how well we get along. If "I cant wait to see you", or "I can't wait to hold you", is not muttered, he thinks I do not like him enough. The real energy is that of insecurity, and it is a demanding energy. I have broached the subject, knowing full well that I have no control over admitting the issue. These fears stick deep in our psyches. We disguise our fearful  behaviors in good motives, projecting on to another's our own lack of respect.
 
When I would find myself in these situations of pain, I would sit and think how I may have added to the situations. Many times we, ourselves, can not see the situations clearly because of the cloud of pain we emit. When you sit and ask the inner energy to help, the true reasons are revealed. Somehow that energy  helps us understand our true fears, and our fears reveal our true motives.
 
True motives, our minds cannot handle, they are so painful that we have to hide them from ourselves. But, true motives cause repeats in pain we experience. The way out of the repeated pain is through the inner energy.

Indebtedness

You are never indebted to another. People are inspired to help you. It is a calling from their inner guide. When the thing they are inspired to help you with is done, they can move on, or help more. If they choose to ignore their guidance, they will have to suffer the consequences. All actions of benevolence are of that same inner guidance. It is what we do with it after that may make it sinister.
 
Did you ever have someone that said,"All I have done for you, and you don't act grateful?" You can be grateful, and not agree with the bad behavior that they are trying to indebt you with. Gratitude is something you express in the moment. If you have to keep expressing it, you are catering to someone's need to feel great.
 
One of the things that I learned this summer is that each time I help another it is independent of my own agenda. Sometimes that same energy asks you to help someone you do not like, it is to help you grow. Working with others is a way to emotionally mature, this has to be done with a non-judgmental heart. If you find fault, or have a motive that serves you, it will be a problem of some kind in the end. Your inner energy is pure, and has its own form of protection for you, but you cannot doubt. It is in the very faith that you are following your inner energy that you have the protection.
 
When people try to indebt you to them they are only using the energy of guilt by trying to manipulate you to do what they want. We are all free and have the right to move on at any time. Now, I must say that like all things this also stems from a true sense of spirit. When you follow your inner energy, it does respond to your need's but it does not do so out of debt. It does this to make life, or itself, whole. We, the people, attribute all thoughts to how we see and think of things, so when we need something, we try to make those around us do them.
 
Here is an example. I moved this summer and befriended someone, well they pretended to be my friend. This person did not call me unless they wanted something from me. I was helping them and thought they would reciprocate, but did not reciprocate in a friendship that I needed or wanted at the time. This made me so sad in the beginning. You see, I had an agenda, but I also was talking to my inner energy. I started to see that what I was doing was independent of the friendship I needed. So, I began to help for the sake of helping, then I realized that I was helping that universal energy. I was creating a sense of peace in the world by bearing the burden of what needed to be done. It made the work light and a pure joy. It also brought me the peace I need in my life at that time. The situation started to change in my mind. Another inspiration came in, and I no longer had to help. That is when I moved on to this.
   
You see, your inner energy flows from one thing that is needed to another. You are never tied to your current people, places or things out of guilt. I do recommend to you to talk, and to feel your inner energy. Do this to see if you need to serve the people in your life more deeply. When you serve people you do not like so much you grow to know the inner energy that you are serving. If you are meant to move on you will with no animosity because you are serving the energetic whole, not the person.

Emotional Charity

Charity that you can walk away from and not care about the outcome is the highest form of blessing your inner energy can give. When you realize that you are guided and have a task to do, walking away and being grateful you helped is the best gift to yourself and the world. Most of us are not equipped to do this though. We watch what the other people do. We judge them and say they should have taken our help and done something else with it, or made some other decision. We get mad half way through the process and judge that they are not grateful, don't return our help in the way we want their affection to be returned to us.

The reality is that we may need to help, and all help is a guidance from inner energy. We may need to help someone that is sick, that is the energy that they need to feel whole, but they do not see it that way. All they do is complain about is what they don't have now. All my life I have had an attraction to helping people directly, Sick, elderly, displaced, you name it, I try to rescue them. What I understand now is not that I was helping them in this world. I was, but he important thing is that I was in the spot to help them feel whole again. Of course I was not whole myself, so I did not understand this view point. I just got tired of it all and mad that they did not feel better that I was helping.
  
I recently had to move in with family, they did not have the emotional strength to see it this was either.
I know they have the money to support us, but they do not want to spend it this way. So they wanted me to pay them back buy going to get free food every other week. Well I like good food and I don't like the free stuff, food banks give out, I also know they can afford food along with all the rest.  They also knew I had no way to get other resources, I got mad and felt as if they were abusing the system through me, I did not feel right about taking food we did not need. Most of all I knew it did not make me feel whole when I was sitting in line for food. I did speak up, and I did realize I wanted them to see me as whole. I understood for the first time that giving to someone had to be unconditional, other wise you emotionally wound them.

When someone has the capacity to see you as an essentially whole being even if you are in need, they are working the highest form of emotional charity. This has the capacity to heal you of any lack. We all are whole, it is our pain about life that makes us become less. So, see yourself as whole and understand that all the people in your life are here to fill some need, allowing you to BE whole. Most of all remember you are here to fill spots of lack in there lives also. Give with emotional maturity.

Levels of Reality

There are different levels of reality, they coordinate with your emotional development. One person can believe that it is "OK" for them to do something that another person would never do. This is common, but what you do not see is that it is an emotional intelligence level. That is not to say that you can assume that the person is bad, dumb, or wrong. You can, however, say that they do not understand. This is a big thing. We like justice and being right. We humans will go to great lengths to prove our "rightness." Once you start to learn emotional intelligence though, you see that they are right, and so are you. They are right in accordance with their own emotional development. You can not be mad and help them learn a different way. We all need to learn on our own time. The one thing you can do is accept that they do not know, and walk away. Other people's emotional intelligence is not your responsibility, and it is not up to you to show them how what they do is making others miserable. It is your inner energy's responsibility though, and it will teach that person. If someone is repeatedly making these level mistakes, this is your guidance to move on. The energy inside you is telling you thet you two are not a good fit, and you shoul find someone else.
 
I recently met a potential friend, I was happy because I had just moved to the area. Now this person is working under the belief that it is her responsibility to raise the neighbor kids, because their parents work a lot. Well, when I was younger and had my first child I thought the same thing, that it takes a village to raise a child. I will still agree, this is true on one level. Yet from another level, it is an excuse to vent you anger and point of view on others. I did feel that way then. The energy of the world sets us on a course with the people in our lives because we will learn best from them, not the neighbors. Now I have grown to understand that it is my full responsibility to raise my own kids, I understand a level of intelligence that others do not know. I also understand it is my moral duty to raise my children in this way to create a better world, I do not want others to raise my kids. I do not want a lower level of perception to take root in there young minds. So you see, she is right and I am also right, and that was the parting of ways for me. She can have her life as it is and I want mine, untainted buy her beliefs.
 
So reality is not as cut and dry as we would like to think. You have to protect your reality if you know that it is right and that you are teaching it out of the energy of the universe. If you are teaching your level of reality and it is not in harmony with your inner energy it will feel wrong. You will feel bad about it, or it will cause chaos. You will know the right, or highest level of reality, when you are at peace with the feeling it gives you.

Lies

I am going to venture to say that we insist that people lie to us. This may make some mad, but that is my point. Your anger makes them lie. I have watched human nature all of my life, and if you step back and see it all in a sort of slow motion, you can see the energy at play. Now, when we confront people, we are using our energy to convey that they are wrong. But, with energy in the picture, they may not be.  If we understood energy, it works in a different way.

So lets look at it from an energy perspective. Lets say your mate, friend, or family member starts going out without you. They are acting on an energetic urge to be away from you. Are you going to support this? What if the energy is for the better, if they need to go because you are no longer getting along? What if they are at an emotionally different level than you and can't put it into words that they need to go, or that they are not ready to go because they fear for there safety? Maybe they need to branch out and have some time to themselves, all relationships need space to grow. "Oh," you say, "they owe me an explanation, after all we have been through." Yes on the level of the earth stuff they do, but they can't, because they do not feel safe.   AND, on an energy level, they may need to lie to you so you grow to learn that no one owes you anything. We all have to grow to learn that what we do is done unconditionally, no one is entitled to anything. Anger is a powerful thing, but from an energy level, it deserves a lie, because anger does not honor love, it blocks love. You are with people around you out of love and love forces us to grow, to evolve to its level. We have to grow to that energy level because we are energy beings.

So the next time you condemn someone for their behavior, stop and think of how your behavior effects them. Are you approaching them out of love and empowering them?  Are you willing to support them even if it rocks your world? Are you willing to talk calmly and try to work things out even if it means to work out separating? OR are you going to go on insisting that every one is a liar and not look at how you fit into there lies?

Victim vs. Victimized

Now, you may say that they are the same, that being victimized makes you a victim, but it does not. I too thought like this, and at one time in my life I saw the world differently. On the whole, I thought that people were inherently selfish and thoughtless. I am not sure that I thought they were out to get me, or out to take advantage of me. I certainly thought that they put own welfare before mine, and that may have been true. Yet, I know another truth. That truth is simply that how you feel about how you fit into the world will be what happens to you. At one point I realized I felt like a victim and that I did not want to feel this way. It was at that point that I saw I could choose to do something or continue to feel this way. I can tell you this, even in circumstances  in which you can't move, either emotionally or physically, you can think. Thoughts are your power and when you start using this skill you will maneuver yourself out of any condition. Victims think of themselves as being victimized, and a lot of people are these days. However, being victimized does not make you a victim unless you believe you are worthy of that kind of treatment.  I know, none of us think we are worthy of bad things, but unconsciously we do. That is the power of our unconscious thought. Becoming conscious of not being a victim is very empowering. All of a sudden, the light goes on and you know that you can do something... anything. When you realize you can do anything, even the thought that you do not have to endure the thought itself of what happened, or is happening, is empowering. If it is a lingering thought of the abuse, you can empower yourself with thinking of healing.
 
There are some of us that feel like victims. I say feel because we don't know or see it that way, but we energetically transmit that emotion to others. We are the depressed, emotionally abused, and confused people that can't understand why we have people that pick us, all the time, to take advantage of. Now I have to say we don't understand this or see ourselves from this perspective, but it is going on. Energy flows in frequency's like a radio channel, so we emit that which we think. You can tell someone that does think this by the way they talk. They will talk about how "not nice" other people are and that they are "so nice." Their chatter is about how other people choose to hurt them or others. The energy behind their words is that they are better than the perpetrators.

When you think this way, you see the world through the lens of victim. You will measure everything others do by how it effects you, even if the original intent had nothing to do with you. I had an aquantence that told me she was going to have plans with a friend on Saturday night, so I made plans. I had friends over and three hours into my night that person called and asked what I was doing, I said that I had friends over and would give her a call later. The phone calls ensued that I was leaving her out, I was mean because I had not invited her. Well , this was an example of emotional blackmail, an energetically angry onslaught of how I was wrong. I know I was not wrong, my plans did not include a thought of her so they had no malice. I felt it was "ok" to sever the relationship, this was the energy message I was getting, from my guide, that we were ill-fitted as friends. Emotionally we are not in the same place and we would, or she would, continue to think I was hurting her. So, I released her from this torture. She can now go on like this or begin to grow emotionally, and outgrow this type of thinking.
 
The truly victimized have things that happen to them, but they see it as a difference of development, that the perpetrator is not at an emotional point at which they can behave better. The biggest difference is that we do not take it personally, and that we know we are stronger. We also must be aware that the events that take place become part of a plan, even if it is a plan for the moment, in our heads. We must begin to act upon it. We feel strong enough to move on and do not let the energy of others be a part of who we are as great beings.

Single Parenting

I will admit that it is the worst choice I ever made. Had I been smarter then about what I teach, I would not have gotten a divorce. Now that I know I could use the energy within me to create a new reality, I would have saved my family, and myself, from the heartache. Some of us need to move on though, we get so far into the energetic force of resentment, that we see no way out. I have to add to this, too. When you feel this energy of resentment toward a partner there is also a collective energy that is part of that. As an explanation, we all have our personal energy and there is a collective energy that also fits into our patterns of feeling. So some of what adds to your feelings, makes them overwhelming, is the whole worlds feelings on the same subject.

Single parenting has had that effect on me, but now that I have extended family around, I don't feel the collective oppression that I once did. What I want to say on this subject is that it has grown me, in making me pay attention to my energy. Well, any parenting or relationship can do this, but it has taught me to be what is needed; not who I think I need to be. Some moments I need to be a friend and others I need to be a lover. Yes, to reach out and touch. Other times I need to just be quiet. Seeing my kids as energetic beings and helping them on their own terms has made me grow in all areas of my life. I am grateful in this respect, wiser to have slowed down and listened to my inner energy. I know it has paid off too. We all have the best relationships I have ever seen in a family.

Watering Your Seeds

Many times we get angry and forget our seeds of intention. I have a friend that wants very much to water the seeds of intention for us to get together and have a relationship. His efforts have been rooted in intention, but every time he thinks his efforts are not paying off, he gets angry. As a gardener does, you have to plant the seed in the sun, water it with affection and knowing. This knowing is a form of energy that feeds all things in life. It is the knowledge that life is energy and that if the seed you planted is meant to grow, it will. If you dig your seed up and yell at it; tell it that it is growing in the wrong direction and withhold your love it becomes a stunted plant, or byproduct of your time and effort. Eventually the very thing you are trying to nurture will die, from lack of love. We get angry and feel justified, that we are right and the other is wrong; we lose our initial seed of intention. The seed does not receive our energy or our thoughts. Now we start to water the seed of "needing to be right", rather than the person or thing we love and want to improve on.

Now, we all have things that we want to improve on in life, so don't get upset, I am not belittling this fact. What I am saying is that energy works on different rules than we do. You have to work on its terms. Whatever the problem is, you have to give the opposite to the problem. So, if your partner does not help you around the house, you have to help him, and at the same time water the seed, or thought, of love. Or, you can do the work yourself, but you have to think of it as the help and love you need. Think of the work you are doing as extra energy from the energy pool, that you are getting what you need, and then thank that same energy for your partner. Even when we don't feel loving or happy about our lives, our thoughts are working an energy magic deep in the soil of our lives. So put on your thought blinders and see your garden with rows of what you need. On the days when you can't muster the idea that your garden is growing good things, tell yourself it is anyway.

Puzzle

In a cosmic way, we all fit together as a puzzle. We all have situations in life that we wish would just go away. I call these energetic holding patterns. Some of us work through our preconceived notions of how life is supposed to be in order to let go of these holding patterns. In the end, I think we all struggle with the last question;"Why won't this go away?", or "When will this end?... I have worked through this!" This is true, but the deeper thought is that energetically, we fit together in a puzzle, and your pain fits into others lives also. I must add that it is never just one other person you affect either. There are many, and they need to learn also. There is also a collective whole that is part of your energy system, and if you are oppressed in any way, that is also an outlet for reform on a larger scale. The truth about using energy is that you have to have faith in your every fiber, that you have to use your energy seed to retrain your thoughts to know this energy is helping at all times. There have been many before us that have spent the time in contemplation of this and have lived these truths and had successful lives. Einstein said "There are two ways to look at life; as if it is all a miracle or nothing is a miracle."  He was right, there is no sitting on the fence with this one, you either use your willpower to believe or you don't, but either way it is, and that energy will teach you that perception if you let it. The average person doesn't see that perception, because they just haven't put forth the dedication and devotion to the energy itself. You cannot be without this energy, it is the very life in you and all around you. Energy is what holds all the world together and that in itself is a miracle. When feeling down think of how your puzzle piece fits in to those around you, and be grateful that you are part of the energy that is making the world a better place. Seeing the world like this also brings peace, then your energy relaxes you and then you flow with healing energy. It is so nice to be a puzzle piece that heals the world!

Guided Way

We all are born with energy to bring into this world and have our lifetimes to learn it and understand it. What I mean by this is an energy pattern that is an outlet for the common good. Everything is an energy pattern, this has been proved by quantum physicists. One of my energy patterns is unconditional love, I did not understand this until I was going through my divorce from my husband. Then I understood why I was so unrelenting on the subject of love. We all have these energy patterns, and they work together to form the quality of the energy we are supposed to give to this earth. So unconditional love is the strongest guide in my life, it clouds all of my relationships and guides the quality of responses that I have.

The highest, form of this love is to love itself back, and through that you become a pure vessel of love for all energy of the world. Loving love itself completes the circle. You can find your energy patterns by looking at your behaviors. In the beginning I got in a lot of trouble with love, I loved for the wrong reasons and loved the to the wrong extent. Love fills a need in the moment and moves on. Your energy patterns will have this in common too. They are the places that you have made a mess of life, but the core reason you got involved was from a pure standpoint.

Rescuer energy is the same, in that you burn out fast. All of your energy is focused on helping the cause that you are attracted to. Yet, as you go along helping, you get caught up in the fact that the perpetrator is a problem. Then you start to use your energy for anger toward the perpetrator. Now your energy is moved away from the initial cause, leaving you drained. When you use your energy for anything but the energy pool you lose it, because you are no longer completing the circle. The energy you use for this world disconnects you from the guide and cuts off vital life energy.

Friendship

I look back at my life and see that I only have one true friend. We have not always been friends and it has been an on and off friendship. Friendship is not what I thought it was as a child. I grew up thinking it was what you did for others and what they did for you, because that was the example given to me.  It is so much deeper, and I was not always the best of friends. When this is what you think of it, you start to expect too much in return. True friendship is the energy of the love you put behind what you do, not what you do.

I will admit I married this friend, but never lost site of the friendship. When I divorced him, in 2005, I told our friends that I just wanted my friend back. It was one of the best seeds I planted in my life. Even though we have been through custody issues, I always kept sight of the fact that it was better to treat him with loving friendship than to argue. Even In the times I did not feel very loving, I always signed our letters, texts, and emails with "Love, M." I wanted to honor the underling intention of my care even in adversity. It has been many years now and our lives have mellowed out.  There has developed a wonderful energy behind all our dealings, kind of a mutual admiration society. I am so grateful that my seeds of intention grew and blossomed in this area. I see how it has taught me to be a better person in all ares of my life.

Disaster

Did you ever have your world turn into a disaster? I am watching a barn for a friend. He has allowed me to care for this barn for four and a half months. Now I have reassured him that this is ok, but I have no resources to buy food for the animals. I do call him some times for food but most of the time I have gotten food from friends and borrowed money for feed. I have grown to love these animals and want them to have better homes. They live in poor conditions; even though I clean the stalls, I have no money for bedding. I know that they need more time and money, and I have tried to address this with this man. He does not call me and the only time I talk to him is by texting.

I am sure he does not have the resources to feed them or care for them the way they need to be cared for. Now, my intent was to relieve his energetic pain of this burden during this life crisis. We all have those moments when we bite off more than we can chew and then the energy creates more problems, and our lives shift again and we can't finish what we started. So my intent to help was to provide him the time he needed to stable himself and then move the animals on so they can have the home they need and he can start over again, on a stable foot.

Now here are the different layers of energy: He does not know this is what is going on, that the energy itself is pushing him to let go. He wants something but is not willing to devote to the energy to get it. When you allow the energy within you to bring what you want, you become devoted to the energy and the thing. Your gratitude for the energy bringing the stuff binds it to you. But when your gratitude fades, the time is to move on. Some people that do not know this energy rule will cling to things and create disaster, upsetting all around them. The energy itself is the creator of all things, so it is trying to move the things out of your life. It does it in gentle way or a chaotic way.