New Friends

I have moved back to the place I belong, and instantly made a new friend. Cosmic; that I was in one place for a year and could not make one friend, then move and make one in two weeks. There is the energy of belonging in that.  
     
My thoughts are about rooting; or feeling of being and doing the right thing. My friend moves a lot, they travel in a camper and go were there is work. Kinda like a modern day Gypsy, but that is sweet; that she chooses to support her spouse and travel with him. The energy of true love, and it is returned in his actions too, he genuinely likes her company and is devoted to her.
     
Well the story is about rooting; she is some times restless to settle down and have a community to be involved in and family around. They connected at a church in their home town before they left and miss it very much. The reality of this is that what you do in a home town is what you will do on the road. Most people do not see this because they are looking for it to look a certain way; but they are living the love they learned at church. That very energy sends them people to commune with and care for in the same manor that they would at home.
       
They both are very generous people and give to others. She has offered to help me and that offer is the energy of love you learn about in a church and want to practice. Just her quiet manor of affection and devotion to those around her is the truth that you learn and read about.
       
Understanding how and were God works in your life is part of intention that makes your life filled with the meaning that we all crave. We do not have to go some place or do what others do to be a great citizens and show our devotion to God thought those choices.  I say they are great people and that the energy of there life is that it is a unique opportunity to show others the love of God through there personal relationship and how they interact with the new people that they meet. That is the great gift they have been given to witness there devotion to God. The energy that runs through us is the gift that God wants us to live out; being a witness to Himself; or the energy of creation itself.
       
So thank you for being my friend, acting out the affection that God has for me. Thank you for choosing to be that energy for this world, you are a great person. I am blessed for the time you have and will be in my life and that is all that God wants for us all.

Healing

Healing happens in all we do; Yet you have to have grace to open your heart in the moment and be able to see the other in a new, or whole way.
     
To day my dad came into my life for the first time in 12 years, but he wanted to see my mom. He has not seen my mom in 30 years. Yet he came with the intention of making amends. What a lot of people do not see is that you can make amends and have the other person say yes on one level, but on another still not see you as a whole person worthy of forgiveness, the healing comes when both grow and heal in the interaction and become whole.
     
I could sense that it was a moment of time that my father needed to validate that he was not as bad as he himself felt, over all that had gone by. This is an energy of calling back your soul and forgiving yourself for the pain you caused others. I am not sure if my mom could see the transformation I saw in her but I know it healed her too.
     
My mom has had a feeling of unworthiness in her life time that she has never addressed, yet it over shadowed all she does. Still to this day she talks of how she was not treated fairly by her father. I am sure that other than me, no one else has apologized to her. I also know she dismissed  that as due to her, in all my wrongness. I was so happy to see the healing in both of them, something I did not think of before.
   
Many times we change and look for confirmation in those we love, or those around us, as a barometer. Much of the time others are busy keeping us in the box of our old behavior. So we never forgive ourselves fully. This is an energy exchange that keeps people down or in the case of forgiveness, empowers us. When we know that we are forgiving, the energy can be released and we no longer carry the burden of that experience.
   
All we do has the power to heal others, and I now see that it heals us too. The law of intention, when you intend to heal, help, see the world whole; it becomes whole, and all those in it.

Endings

We all come to endings in our lives. Some of us do not like to end because it is change, we resist this and then the end has to come in a cloud of pain over some tragedy we created because we resisted the change in the first place. I guess if you learn to follow your intuition and see how it directs you to change, change is still a time of uncomfortableness, but you look at the good in it. This knowledge is the comfort you are doing the right thing, and it allows you to look at the possibilities that are open to you in the ending of something.
     
As you know I am moving and have had to tell my mom that I need to go. It is a time of uncomfortableness. I know she does not approve, because she does not think things have changed for me. On one level they haven't. yet if they haven't changed I would not be going. I would still be here frightened and scared for my survival and the needs of my kids. This announcement has helped my mom be kinder to me, strangely enough. but there is now a deeper, energy of resentment.
   
This past year I have rapidly gone through my spiritual evolution. My mom has not approved of me from the time I got here and after I got over the hurt I started to notice that she behaves this way with all people, It was never me she was disappointed of, it is her way of relating. Yet I have to say that has been an emotional, spiritual, guide that I do not belong were I am not supported.
     
I know that in my heart it is the right thing to move on, for everyone that I live with and around. I see that my decision effects all those that touch my lives too, even all those that touch my children's lives. I have also seen how we, all those people have grown too.
 
So my ending is filled with beginnings, and I know that I will never again be the person I was when I came here. I do not mind that one bit, for I have become, in the process the person I had wanted to be all my life. I am grateful for this ending. If I had faced all my endings with the larger view that all is right in the world, my life would had transformed sooner. I am grateful to be here now!

Generosity / Charity

I am glad the world is getting back to generosity. It is in generosity that we touch the true spirit of others and transform our spiritual lives in the process. I see that for a while we have been doing charity, and charity is nice but at the end of the day, you do not grow. Charity is the stuff that makes you feel good because you have helped another and you look and feel good for the exchange. It is something that you go to bed at night, saying I am glad I did a good deed, and now I can get on with my life.
       
Generosity is the act of extending your self in a way that you transform another, not at the expense of yourself, but at the sacrifice of part of you. This part of you can be your thoughts, it can be giving something you have, or time. Yet it requires an emotional investment and the possibility of a risk of some kind. The risk I refer to is that we may have to endure it lasting longer, or being harder than we think. Most of these opportunities of generosity are ways we grow the most, in learning our boundaries and the depth that we can touch an others lives, they are the transformational choices we make the help others see there own value.
       
We are in awe of those that do great generous acts, yet we some who think we cant preform them ourselves. We do not have the money or time. That is, we have the underlying belief that if we help others we will loose something we need; time or money. The truth is that people that serve others in this way know that they get back all invested, yet they are humble enough to know the true message of servitude is in emanating to the person you are helping a sense of equality. It this underlying intention we all stay humble, and honer that energy that all is one. That same energy is what brings back, or replaces what you gave, in abundance of what we gave in the first place. Your intention is the energy of magnetic attraction. To use it and practice it through generosity is what helps our spirits grow so rapidly.
       
Generosity is, or can be preformed in all you do. You can be generous in pouring a cup of tea, coffee, or making a meal. It comes in the morning routine with your family, the choice to overlook and show the people you live with that the small things don't make them bad people. Your choice for generosity is something you can do without money, time or any resources. It is in the choice to transform your thinking, to focusing on your ability, to make a difference in every moment of your day.
       
You can be as big at heart as any you see on TV, all you have to do is start with one thought at a time. You inner energy will do the rest, soon your life will be as big and as important as the lives of the people you see on TV..

Family

I moved to this part of the world to be with family, one assumes that family is the connection that you learn from and grow, and that helps you out of love. What I did not for see is that love is defined by others and many other ways. Let me expound on that. Family is what we grow with and they have the same value systems; now I will admit my mom has a different value system. Yet over the years I have talked to her and she has agreed with my thoughts and been supportive and loving, so I assumed that would continue when I move to her home. What I did not bargain for was that her value system would prevent her from being the loving person that she was the other 22 years that I was learning a new value system.
     
In the end I can say, that I would shout it from the mountain tops, I love you mom! I am grateful for her love, the way she can show it, has been limiting and painful, yet I have grown so much from that small love. You see energy gives you what you need not what you want, I needed to see that love, as limiting and as painful as it was on some levels as love from the energy world. I had to see and feel that as enough to open my heart to loving all, excepting all as it is in the bigger plan. With out this lesson I could not love to this capacity, or see the world as the loving place it truly is, a gift from the energy that keeps us all breathing and alive.
   
So sit with the pain that family dishes out, it is the miracle that heals us all. I am happy to report that I am moving on and I feel that same energy is me; that I have come to par with my calling in life. My life will now be the vision that I have strived for and wished it to be. I will have the same ups and downs, yet I will act different, and even appreciate the world for the true miracle it is.

Home Again

Home is a energetic place of Grace, it is the space in time that you feel safe, at peace and loved. At times in life it may be in your mind and other times it is in a physical space. Yet at all times it is the place that you are not judged, condemned or kept down. This is an energy pattern, that we all evolve to learn, as the place of peace within no matter the circumstance of the outer world.
       
I have learned that we do not feel this grace until we learn worthiness. It comes through the constant criticism of others; it is the necessity of coming to the knowledge that we are great beings because we choose a higher form of thought in times of adversity. Others do not see our worthiness it is a silent path of kindness and love, in times that we are persecuted over our choices.
       
Our choices are not necessarily wrong in and of themselves, they are choices that do not allow others to control us. Our choice to think of kindness toward other when they are condemning us is a form or protection. It is the choice for power and not victimization. It keeps the energy of the ability to be strong, in choice, within our power. You see when others condemn you they are making you wrong, and they are energetically taking your energy power because they are right. All this is done unconsciously, yet it is the energy exchange that takes place in this world. this is the pattern that keeps people up or down, or up and down.
       
In the end we learn this pattern through the pain of life and come to love those that try to persecute us. Once you have learned; the persecution is over, you can move on with a love. This love allows you to say, they can have there thoughts and I can still be at home in my skin. Powerful to have made the choices that you have made.
     
When all is said, what I have learned is that home is within. It is the place that I am embraced with love despite my differences. Once we find this place we remove ourselves from those that keep trying to gain power through our choices. We also see that we have been this strong in the past and that it will never be any different in the future. We are home again, eternally at home.