Two Meanings

Everything in this world can be taken from two different perspectives. Well it could have more, but generally two; the worst or the best. Other people will read what you are doing from the perspective that they would live by. You can not be responsible for how they feel, or perceive.
   
I have been in a friendship with someone for four years now, this relationship does not progress very far because when it starts to pick up; the other person gets mad that it is not progressing. I find myself always hopeful that things will go along smoothly, then they do not. Sometimes it amazes me how innocently I see the world, I am sure others think this same way; at least I have been told this. Yet I do not think of my life this way, as I am chugging along. I also want everyone to feel loved, so I haven't tainted myself with thinking the worst; for the most part.
   
I realized tonight that I am being seen in a way that is not in my ability to behave. I could not take advantage of another, I would feel so bad that I had hypocritically gone against what I have been learning and practicing. Yet this person has been telling me I have been taking advantage of him, for years. In the past I had defended myself and told my side of the story, to show that I did not think this way. Yet tonight I felt this intuition and moved in a different way, not relying on him. My heart goes out to him; that he thinks this of me. I had no such thoughts or feelings. I have always seen him as a friend and ally. With not many alternatives to turn to, I have been excited that he was such a friend.
   
My intuition guided me tonight to stay clear of this situation, because of the double meaning of the situation. Knowing this, I realized that I just wanted to be grateful and find someone else to help me. Finishing a relationship out of love is new to me, but I am so grateful that I am. I will admit that I have not handled any other relationship in such a gentle way.
     
I realize that the way I see my actions may never be seen or understood by others. What matters to me is that I deal with the world out of the Grace within me, guided by my inner spirit.

Tired

I am so tired of defending myself. Those around me do not think of life like I do and they do not see the way I act and behave as a whole picture, as I do. Did you ever get to the point that you know it is not in anyone's better interest to continue to state the truths in your life? I am here. Those around me ask why I do what I do, and they want an answer; but they want me to defend my point of view because they do not want to see things as I do.
   
People want you to explain; they want you to state your point so they can tell you why you are wrong. They ask why, yet there are so many reasons why, and we can not go into them all. The truth is that the world runs on many threads and they are not all explainable in one setting. As a whole we are doing the best for the people around us. Well some do better that others, but still, why debate? We are still doing the best we can for the level of understanding that we are at.
   
I have someone that is always looking for an explanation for my behavior. Then they use it to tell me I am not doing justice for them. I understand they feel that way, and in there eyes I am not. So why keep debating this subject? If you do not get what you want either change your mind, understand you can decide to want something different, or move on to find what you want. But why continue to rehash your points over the years and cause drama in your own and others lives.
     
I do live by what I teach and write here, my heart is at peace with my life; for the first time in my life. I do not write about it until I have learned the lesson, or I could not articulate it so well. So I think, in the bigger picture, I am a good person at heart. I also realize that I am no longer going to argue or defend myself. I will state the way I feel and how I felt at the time; and let others have there interpretations for themselves. Others will always see things the way they want because they are doing there best to process there lives to. No more arguing for me, I want to just be.

Guidance Appropriate

You will get guidance according to your level of understanding. As your levels change so does your guidance. Energy works with you, so you can follow it, but it does require the best of you. That means that what it asks you to do may be just out of the realm of what you think possible; or that it is an automatic response to help another, something that if you gave it thought, you would not ordinarily do.
     
At different levels of your understanding you will be open to different options that you could not do before you understood more. The higher you ascend in you relationship with your inner guide; the clearer your peace with your guidance will be.
     
So when you start this path, you may want to be a help to others in some way; then as you learn that path you realize you would be better at a specialty, just outside of what you thought. Now you learn more and become more personal with your inner guide; you will realize you want to help in a deeper way. All this is learning specific, it is according to your level of emotional maturity. It is also according to a clearer level of relationship with your inner energy.
     
This evolution of your needs and service to your inner energy is a path that ever refines the quality of service you can provide to the world.
     
Most of us start out wanting some form of recognition for our efforts and as we progress we realize that it is the quality of service that matters most. I always wanted to help others in my life. Recently, I realized that I do. I just help, quietly, those around me to be the best that they can be. My inner guide has taught me a lot and I know that I have not had a lot of time to help others the conventional way, in the public work place. Yet I see the continuity that has developed in what I have learned and what I want has transformed. At one time I wanted to be appreciated and well known for all that I know about spirit and psychology. Now, I want to practice quietly and heal those in spiritual crisis. I also see now that I am doing that in some form and that it is a true gift to the world, even if it is not recognized as such.
     
Hang in there and know that as you become a better energy being, you will have better things to bring to the world. You will evolve and move in a better direction. So, do not be frightened of your changes. Your guidance will always give you challenges that are appropriate for your level of gifts to the world.

Reason

We have a deep need to reason, but reason is not in our best interest. We seem to think that we can reason; the reality is that we can not. Reasoning takes our energy and we need it to heal our lives. We also can't reason because we do not have all the information we need to see the whole of the world and how our circumstances fit into it. Our small thinking in a vast universe is not enough information to lead us to a satisfying conclusion. We also need to remember we are reasoning on a different level than the circumstances develop and happen. We are trying to fit our logic, based on how we logic, on to a universal logic that is able to make things happen for the better of the whole.
           
Now I do believe that for a brief time we should look back to understand how we added to or attracted the problems in our lives; but never try to reason. Let go of the need to reason on this level. It is like asking your inner energy why is the world doing this to me? The energy can not answer that; it is a selfish question that implies that the world does things just for you; it does not. You are part of a whole that helps all those around you; even to the point of smiling at a clerk in the store, or not. You effect people just driving in your car, because your thoughts are the energy that they feel, as they drive.
           
Reason should be reduced to help you move in the direction that will help you understand we are connected to the energy within all of us. It should be the logic that helps you methodically reason a thread in your thinking that connects all you do to the energy within you; this is your power. Tell yourself that everything happens for the best; you may not believe it at first. You inner energy will show you how it is so. What you cling to as a thought, even if you do not believe it at first will work its way through your energy system until you know it. That is how you learned all the things you know now, even if they are not true, you believe them. Re-train your brain to think of things that conserve your energy and help you use its power to the fullest.
           
Reason is not a place to waste our energy, it is a dead-end road when it comes to energy. If you want to take advantage of your highest potential, use reason as a tool to unify your thinking. Energy will have a clear path to healing the world, and you, if you use your reasoning skills in behalf of the whole.

Shadow Side

The shadow side of your life is when you act out of your ego's need for control. We all do this, I would venture to say, on a regular basis. It is when we have a little disagreement, or big one, and we need to prove to the other we are right or that they are as bad as we were, if we did something wrong. It is when we bring up all the things that the other person has unjustly acted out on us. A shadow is the dark side of the real you; it is unforgiving, angry and explosive. It is also the other end of the best of you.
   
Our negative behavior is the opening to the best of us. Each of us is an energy system that has fears that run our lives and make problems in our lives until we start to see those patterns and question, "why am I fearful in this area of my life?" When we start to question, we either stick with the answer, believing in our current limitations, or we grow our inner self and rise to the occasion.
 
Here is an example. Pride, or humiliation, is one of the biggest reasons to argue on the planet. Many of us get offended and hurt at the drop of a hat with this one. Pride can make us go after another like a rabid dog, to defend and speak our side of the story. We hold on to offenses and even pass then on to other generations in order to punish and get back at those that we see as hurting us. Pride separates us from others so that we can justify our worst behavior, and allows us to focus that behavior on who we think hurt us.
     
Now the light side of pride is reverence, reverence unites us in the wholly truth that all is one. Reverence is the best of our potential in this world, it allows us to serve humanity, and all of life with a gentle kindness that emanates equality, which the opposite of humiliation. Reverence is the quiet unification within our minds that we are all one and should all be treated with love and kindness.
     
Shadows are the way we act out our lives until we are grow emotionally and move into our light. Shadows create the most destruction in our lives, breaking down relationships, families, and nations.
We can overcome our shadows if we look to our inner energy for unification of our lives, bringing our spiritual side to the front of our being.

Love/Trap 2 and Ramblings

I need to add another layer to this blog, if you are following your inner guide, it is a guarantee that you will succeed. What I am trying to say is that, all of your life's endeavors are an energy pattern. This means that the pattern ends with the completed form of your inspiration.
         
The truth is that when we live from the place of peace that we are intimately connected with the energy within us, we know we have the power of the universe behind us. The worry of the physical world is what makes the things we want, or need take so long to materialize. It is the thought of all the worries that block or weigh down the energy that makes energy stop or slow down. This place of peace, that we feel has to be felt more that 80% of the time we are awake. This is the tipping point of energy, 80%. So thinking of all the things that can go wrong, or re-planning how you are going to do it, or wondering if you are right; are blocking the reality that you want to happen in your life.
       
The place of peace is felt, it is in the times we sit still and feel the energy within us that is the clear power that is working in us to transform the world. You do not have to sit for this to work, start thinking it is working in your life even when you are cooking, acting with kids, family and friends; feel it at times you are active, it will respond. When we have our own agendas, that is what we feel is the best for us, and maybe not the best for the universe, we can do the change but it may take longer. It is in letting go of how we think things should go that is the speed needed for quantum leaps of energy.
     
I have to say from experience that that place of peace comes with a not caring, and I do not mean, not caring about life; but a not caring about others opinions. You start to see that others opinions are based on their perceptions, and not reality; reality being the clear feeling of peace. This peace leaves you with the understanding that others can not see you as you are, they can only see you through the lens of how they think. Others will not see you with the beauty that is radiated from you, at times some will feel it and respond, but those close to you will miss it. They are busy seeing the problems of the past and how they see the moment, through a cloud of old thoughts. There is no longer a need to correct them for their misperceptions, the feelings within you will work out the details that are needed to maneuver you into the place you need to be free of those perceptions. You live from the knowledge that their perceptions can not hurt or effect you any longer.
     
Your inner guide will bring you the peace that you need to transform your world. It is the reason we are here and the power to create we all seek. It has always been here and will always be, and all we have to do is relax and feel it working. Remove yourself from your ordinary fears.

Loved or Trapped?

The way we talk will tell the truth about how we love. Our minds are tricksters, they like to make us think we do things for great reasons; but our language gives away our true motives. I will tell you that when you do realize the reality of the thoughts you think, your motives become pure. Energy runs through you, bringing life to all you do, and you. Yet we as humans have the free will to do what we want with that energy.
       
We all start out on a low level of understanding about love, we are taught this kids, to love our family. This small way is a physical way the tribe, or family keeps us under wraps. They teach us to love back even if love hurts, this is the physical way of keeping the tribe alive. Now understand this is energy, and we act it out with out even knowing about it. Anyway, energy comes into us and we say we are doing things out of love, yet we are really trying to get others to think we are the best, and change them so they will conform to what we want.
       
Now the truth can be found in what we say, or what we get upset about. I also want to say again that what we do is pure; but if you do not understand it, it is not pure love. This is the definition of consciousness. OR maybe you have added the weight of the physical world and made it a trap.
         
Here is the example, I have a friend, ok, ex-husband that has always wanted me to come back to him. We have remained friends and he helps me out a lot, both monetarily and companionship wise. Now, he has chosen, for four years to work on his own, not get a steady job. He has gone through four different company startups and dissolutions. All this was his choice to make a company and make it rich, so he could provide for us as a family. Now, along the way he has not been a steady provider and we have been in poverty all along. Now I left him for other reasons too, and money is only one of them. Well his choice to say that he was going to provide and then not do so. I can respect a person that knows there limits and says they can't provide, that is honest, honesty is respectable. Holding someone captive until you get it together is not admirable. Back to the subject, Language, he continues to be upset with me when I am not happy with him, or am not happy to see him. His argument is, "I have never worked so hard, why can't you be happy".  I have been trying to explain that we need a break, I see the energy as he wants to fill the energy place that provides the money for me as a family. I also know that if he is honest and says that he cant provide The energy will flow from some other place, energy flows were there is a need. If I do not rely on him to fill the need, energy itself has to find another out let. I also knowthat the time apart will heal us as individuals