Patience

I will tell you that impatience is going to be a huge stumbling block in your ability to create. Patience is not something any of us have or get instantly. It is cultivated and courted. I know that sounds funny but life, as I have learned, is a dance of letting go of my old ways and learning new. This all happens with out knowing what is going on but when I look back, I can see that is how it has gone. I see that each time I have learned something new, I got impatient that it did not create instant change. When I fell in a pile of ordinary human despair, giving up on my desire to have the change, my inner energy would bring me peace. That's when the change would begin. I have seen this cycle all along but never to the extent that I have understood it last night. I have been working on bringing me the ability to support myself. Now I have heard this before but I was reading again last night from Depak Chopra. He was saying that, the dance of what was and what is to come has to balance. I see that now, the energetic spin of the two hold each other in place. If it were not this way, you would implode with the new knowledge, not knowing how it fits into your life. I agree now, and understand this concept. I used to want a spontaneous awaking, but how would I deal with this with all the responsibility in my life? I know that creation gives you what is needed, and I know that I need to show the world that it can be done. You and I can be ordinary people, and live ordinary lives; working toward a higher emotional intelligence, still obtain it, and have the lives we live.
     
So life is a dance of what is and what is to come. Patience is the gentle thread that allows it to happen, knowing that the energy within will do all the work.

Earned Giving

Do you know someone that feels you have to earn there generosity? This conditional giving makes you feel less than a whole person. Energy of this kind does not see you as a whole being. It keeps you proving that you are worthy and that makes you repeat the same mistakes over and over because you never feel good enough. Energetically, energy is what feeds you, the real you. The energy being you are inside, lives and sustains itself on energy itself.  Now, if you are living with or surrounded by people that live with their thoughts in the physical world, you will be drained by the collective thoughts around you. This is were depression comes in. You have to work hard to see and know yourself as whole or the thoughts of others will overcome you. Once you get to the point that you see yourself as whole, their thoughts will not effect you. This is consciousness.
 
We all give conditionally in the beginning. That is what makes giving so hard. We start to learn that giving is in all forms. We can give a home, money, a compliment, or a kind thought. All forms are giving, but if you give conditionally, your thoughts will suck the life out of the very person you are trying to help. Your thoughts behind the interaction are that feeds them or brings them down.
 
I have a teenage daughter. She is a usual teen and has wonderful traits, but some selfish ones too. I do not see this as a problem. But I have a family member that does. This family member gave her some money for what she needed for sports, but it came with a conditional note. She would have pay it back if she did not finish the sport season. I was very proud of her, she refused the money and paid for it herself. She later asked me why it made her so mad, I explained that it was because the money was not given freely and that the energy behind the gift did not honor her as a whole being.
 
The energy behind the giving is that they will fail and that they are not be good enough for generosity. There is another layer that if you have to earn something you are not worthy of it. As a whole being, we are worthy of all that we need. I know this is not how the world works, that is why there is so much lack, but energy works this way. When you feel yourself as an energy being you know you are worthy of all of life, you just have to follow that energy to obtain it. There is a subtle thought shift here, energy is worthy  because it is the things itself. There is a humility to this thought, we work toward getting the thing close to us, but we are worthy of having it. In the physical world, we have done the work to get it, so it looks like we have earned it.
 
There are many layers to life and some people see things from an earthly point and others see them from an energy point. Giving something that the person needs to earn, energetically tells them they are not worth your effort of giving. Please don't give this way, it ruins relationships.

Consciousness

Consciousness is living every moment with the knowledge that we are energy beings before we are human beings. This means that we are to look and feel that energy in all that we do. It is a slower and more humble life. It takes time to see all as a whole and not just from one's own point of view. It also brings out the best in all of the people we deal with. We all want to be seen as beings with the potential of the best the world has to offer.
 
I can tell you a story about how energy keeps us stuck, or frees us for the best. I have a family member that has the money in the family. This person doles it out when we get into a need for it. But, this person's background thought is that we do not learn from our mistakes. Now I can tell you I know my mistakes, but there is an irresistible urge to not give the money back when I have it to give. I know because I am conscious enough to feel this pull and let it play on my thoughts for a day or so when I get money. My thoughts are that I should pay it back, but that I need so much else and that this person will not think better of me if I did pay it back. She would not, you know. People with this mentality need to think ill of others to feel better about themselves. So the energy universe, of which we all are made, gives us the energy to play out this drama every time we have the chance. Others do not see us as whole when they have background thoughts of our not deserving of their charity. They are seeing us as a problem and this energy keeps us as a problem in their lives. Their very thoughts come into our energy field every time they think or talk about us. It is the very energy that they are emitting that keep us acting badly in there eyes. If I was to win the lottery I would pay this person off in behalf of all the family and friends that she is always mentioning that owe her money. I want them to be free of the energy pull that it creates in their lives. I want them to heal, to be whole.

I can not stress this enough. It is this kind of consciousness that we need to free ourselves of the problems in our lives. I also feel so much better to have seen someone for the energy that they are. I am so happy to treat them as a whole being and know that I have added to the healing of the world. Consciousness heals us and that is what heals the world.

Thoughts

Your thoughts are energy, and maybe you have heard that before, but they are the real energy of change. Have you ever done something and your thoughts were so happy, say go to a restaurant: you had a great night, loved it, and were happy with the people. Then another time you are in a bad mood; Friday night you decide to go back with a friend a few weeks later. You and your friend talk about the bad week and end up having a bad night? Your thoughts created the reality of both.

Well here is another aspect of this, I have had money in my life and not. Yet I have always had food. I love food. I love food for how it nurtures us, and so I love it for how I can use it to nurture others. My mom is a TV dinner mom, and in high school I dated an Italian who had great Sunday dinners. I soon saw how food talks to your soul. Something I had not learned as a child, but saw in Sunday dinners at his house. Needless to say, I have always known I loved and nurtured those around me through food. I love to cook and even if I have no money I will feed someone, or share food in some way, knowing it is a way of abundance.

Thinking of loving something, or people through something is an outlet for energy to run through you. How you think of something is how the outcome will turn out. When I cook for others I am happy, I sing, laugh with the kids. It is so joyous and I know people like my food because it is love. I nurture their energy with my intention and devotion, and they linger for friendship.

Now I have seen my mom cook a large family meal; she complains it takes too much work, while she is cooking. She cooks out of cans and then announces at the meal that it only cost her so much money. The food is mediocre, and family leaves early. She makes meals out of obligation and the energy in the food is obligation. No one feels loved and nurtured by the food and it is not a joy.

Know that all your thoughts have an impact, energy is flowing at all times, pay attention to where it is going.

Money...

I could write forever on money. It is a make it or break it deal for most people. Money is the determining factor for most people when it comes to following their intuition. This thing I call energy is coming to you all the time, but we the people haven't learned what it means to the energy world, or how it works in our lives. So when we get the information, we say, "No, I can't do that," or "No, I don't have the money." We do not realize that if we follow this energy, it will provide you with the money, tools, or time you need to complete the task. Now you learn to tell the difference between an ordinary thought and inspiration with practice, but I can tell you that the energy itself will turn an ordinary thought, or self-motivated agenda, into a higher purpose if you allow it. So if you make a mistake, you can transform it.

So here is the story. I got involved in this barn deal, the one I mentioned yesterday. Well, it was to help the guy, and maybe a little too much. So, do you see the energy agenda? Now none of us know when we have these agendas. But when it starts to bring thoughts of upset, like when I was upset that he never called me, not even to talk about the animals, I had to step back and ask what my agenda was. So for the first month or so I was a little sad, along with having no friends because I had just relocated.

I realized through dedication to my inner energy that I would help the animals even if I never talked to this man again. So, there was a day or two that it took for this to set in and then I started to enjoy the animals. It became my dedication to love them and walk with them, to bring love in that day that they may never have had before. Then it became a joy.

Ok, well about the money thing. So I don't have any now, and I need food for them. So I tell him I need food today, creating a little chaos in his life. I also said, "Can I take the animals to auction?"

He says, "No, the market is down, I AIN’T selling now."

Who says “ain’t” any more? Ok, that’s not nice...anyway... LOL. You see what I mean? The energy of money will do strange things to you. People fear it so much. It will cost him more money, stress, and hurt more people and things, just for the fear of not having it.

I asked this guy to bring food, three bags of various kinds. He brought one third of a bag of dog food. I also asked him to clean out the stall of one dog, a trouble dog. He did not do it. He said he was running late. Now the energy is such, at this time in his life, that he needs the money for other things and his time for other things. This is creation, intuition talking through disaster. Yet he is not listening. This energy wants what is best for you, and helps you narrow your life down to the few things that bring you joy. Listen to it.