Full Measure

Life is a full measure, you need to feel it and live through the feeling. This feeling engages you, it takes your thoughts in a direct way. This means you think about life, not just react to what you see.
   
The feeling that I am talking about is the feeling that you get when you are someplace and start to feel someone looking at you; if that person is looking at you, you feel good. If that person is looking at you with anger you feel bad; or fearful. Either way this is the feeling of heightened energy. Most of the time it we notice it when we are feeling attracted to someone, the problem with this is that we reduce it to a sexual feeling. That means that we engage with another based on out true being; seeing their inner spirit, feeling it and then reduce them and ourselves to a sexual being. We as humans experience our inner self first in this way, as sexual beings; this is the first step in feeling our inner energy. The problem is that his world does not have a true understanding that the first feeling is a sensual feeling. Sensual is the essence of our true being. Falling in love is the first days of relating through our true inner being; that is why it is so powerful. The problem is that we have assigned this feeling to sexuality and then we start to see the other person through the physical; because sexuality is physical.
     
We do not have a language in this world yet for this feeling, or a true understand of how to live through this process of our inner energy. There are many of us that have started to live it and want to help others to live a full life, the only path is to experience this feeling, on a more that half bases.
   
As you start to practice this feeling and bring it into you life, it teaches you all the ways you used to see are wrong. The way you used to relate to it are hurtful and destructive.
     
When you live through it you become it, and willingly let it live through you. Life then becomes the full measure of the experience of feeling, being the true you.

Family

I moved to this part of the world to be with family, one assumes that family is the connection that you learn from and grow, and that helps you out of love. What I did not for see is that love is defined by others and many other ways. Let me expound on that. Family is what we grow with and they have the same value systems; now I will admit my mom has a different value system. Yet over the years I have talked to her and she has agreed with my thoughts and been supportive and loving, so I assumed that would continue when I move to her home. What I did not bargain for was that her value system would prevent her from being the loving person that she was the other 22 years that I was learning a new value system.
     
In the end I can say, that I would shout it from the mountain tops, I love you mom! I am grateful for her love, the way she can show it, has been limiting and painful, yet I have grown so much from that small love. You see energy gives you what you need not what you want, I needed to see that love, as limiting and as painful as it was on some levels as love from the energy world. I had to see and feel that as enough to open my heart to loving all, excepting all as it is in the bigger plan. With out this lesson I could not love to this capacity, or see the world as the loving place it truly is, a gift from the energy that keeps us all breathing and alive.
   
So sit with the pain that family dishes out, it is the miracle that heals us all. I am happy to report that I am moving on and I feel that same energy is me; that I have come to par with my calling in life. My life will now be the vision that I have strived for and wished it to be. I will have the same ups and downs, yet I will act different, and even appreciate the world for the true miracle it is.

Letting Go

One of the things I learned in the beginning of my book learning was that we choose other things that are against what our guide tells us. This is a core error that makes our lives miserable. I, of course, did not know how to stop this error from occurring, but wanted to only follow my inner energy. I was full of hope six years ago when I found out about this choice. What I did not know was how long it would take for my inner guide to refine my thoughts so that I could hear my inner energy. There was a process of learning all the ways in which I have blocked my intuition. Then a process of learning all the reasons that I will not listen to my guidance, or ignore it for my own choice. Now I have become conscious of all my behavior. That is the name of this game, to become conscious, or it is not choice. Choice only comes from the knowing of all the options and the knowledge of the true motives behind our actions.

Here I am at the crossroads of letting go of my agenda, wants, wishes, whatever you call it. In the end we let go in favor of the choice to follow the inner energy in all we do regardless of our own agendas. I am in a spot now that I am making a life choice and do not want to put myself in the hands of my smaller thinking self. I want to cut ties of all I know in this world and let the remainder of my life choices be guided by my inner energy. We all have our comfort zones in our lifetimes, yet I know now that I am just an energy being that is here to live out the energy that runs through me, creating a better world for the whole. All is a gift to us and I have to treat it as such, now that I know this in my heart. Every decision is meant to help the whole, not just me. I am happy about all of this. It brings joy to my heart to help the world.

I guess I am saying that my new comfort needs to come from the feeling that I get from following my inner guide, not anything that I knew or had in this lifetime. I have been here many times before and my inner guide has helped me through all my little letting-gos, but now I am at the point that I have to let go of all the things that I thought would give me comfort and peace. I do have a sense of peace and comfort from my relationship with my inner energy, I just am letting go of all the physical things that I thought would bring me joy. They do not bring me any joy anymore,so I am letting go of the thought that it will. I have a joy in knowing that I am interacting with energy that is deeper than anything I find here.

Two Meanings

Everything in this world can be taken from two different perspectives. Well it could have more, but generally two; the worst or the best. Other people will read what you are doing from the perspective that they would live by. You can not be responsible for how they feel, or perceive.
   
I have been in a friendship with someone for four years now, this relationship does not progress very far because when it starts to pick up; the other person gets mad that it is not progressing. I find myself always hopeful that things will go along smoothly, then they do not. Sometimes it amazes me how innocently I see the world, I am sure others think this same way; at least I have been told this. Yet I do not think of my life this way, as I am chugging along. I also want everyone to feel loved, so I haven't tainted myself with thinking the worst; for the most part.
   
I realized tonight that I am being seen in a way that is not in my ability to behave. I could not take advantage of another, I would feel so bad that I had hypocritically gone against what I have been learning and practicing. Yet this person has been telling me I have been taking advantage of him, for years. In the past I had defended myself and told my side of the story, to show that I did not think this way. Yet tonight I felt this intuition and moved in a different way, not relying on him. My heart goes out to him; that he thinks this of me. I had no such thoughts or feelings. I have always seen him as a friend and ally. With not many alternatives to turn to, I have been excited that he was such a friend.
   
My intuition guided me tonight to stay clear of this situation, because of the double meaning of the situation. Knowing this, I realized that I just wanted to be grateful and find someone else to help me. Finishing a relationship out of love is new to me, but I am so grateful that I am. I will admit that I have not handled any other relationship in such a gentle way.
     
I realize that the way I see my actions may never be seen or understood by others. What matters to me is that I deal with the world out of the Grace within me, guided by my inner spirit.

Loved or Trapped?

The way we talk will tell the truth about how we love. Our minds are tricksters, they like to make us think we do things for great reasons; but our language gives away our true motives. I will tell you that when you do realize the reality of the thoughts you think, your motives become pure. Energy runs through you, bringing life to all you do, and you. Yet we as humans have the free will to do what we want with that energy.
       
We all start out on a low level of understanding about love, we are taught this kids, to love our family. This small way is a physical way the tribe, or family keeps us under wraps. They teach us to love back even if love hurts, this is the physical way of keeping the tribe alive. Now understand this is energy, and we act it out with out even knowing about it. Anyway, energy comes into us and we say we are doing things out of love, yet we are really trying to get others to think we are the best, and change them so they will conform to what we want.
       
Now the truth can be found in what we say, or what we get upset about. I also want to say again that what we do is pure; but if you do not understand it, it is not pure love. This is the definition of consciousness. OR maybe you have added the weight of the physical world and made it a trap.
         
Here is the example, I have a friend, ok, ex-husband that has always wanted me to come back to him. We have remained friends and he helps me out a lot, both monetarily and companionship wise. Now, he has chosen, for four years to work on his own, not get a steady job. He has gone through four different company startups and dissolutions. All this was his choice to make a company and make it rich, so he could provide for us as a family. Now, along the way he has not been a steady provider and we have been in poverty all along. Now I left him for other reasons too, and money is only one of them. Well his choice to say that he was going to provide and then not do so. I can respect a person that knows there limits and says they can't provide, that is honest, honesty is respectable. Holding someone captive until you get it together is not admirable. Back to the subject, Language, he continues to be upset with me when I am not happy with him, or am not happy to see him. His argument is, "I have never worked so hard, why can't you be happy".  I have been trying to explain that we need a break, I see the energy as he wants to fill the energy place that provides the money for me as a family. I also know that if he is honest and says that he cant provide The energy will flow from some other place, energy flows were there is a need. If I do not rely on him to fill the need, energy itself has to find another out let. I also knowthat the time apart will heal us as individuals

Knowing

The truth of wholeness is that we live, feel and know we exude an energetic power. The path of wholeness is to slowly learn that you are emitting energy that changes the world around you. I have said this for a year now and it has been in my mind as a peace of knowledge, yet not as a from of living. This is two different worlds of living. We can know something as a form of knowledge we have learned, yet we have not known it as a way of life. There is an energy pattern hear that has to be lived.
     
A person can go to school for six years studying about honey, travel around the world lecturing about honey. They can call themselves a honey expert and have works published about honey, but have never tasted honey. They have never experienced honey, they do not know honey in there being, as an energy knowing.
     
Knowing the reality of what I say is to know wholeness and healing. It is to follow a path to your highest potential through living it; not studying it and acquiring more knowledge. Start your relationship with your inner energy now and start to experience your inner power now. Take the time to acquire the skills that help you feel the reality of this knowledge. Doing is the only path to knowing.

Cooperation

When you cooperate with your inner energy it cooperates with you. I was at the store today and witnessed a mom, so frustrated that her kids kept asking for more. I know that feeling, I have been thinking of this for a few weeks and it has gone from me feeling as if my kids do not cooperate, to the world not cooperating. I started to see that it is not all these people and things, but me. My kids are not supposed to cooperate, they are kids. The world is not supposed to do it either, but it will; when I cooperate with it.
 
We are not entitled to anything, but when we follow the energetic rules, we get back what we put in. It is like following the rule of gravity. We do not think of the rule, we just follow it and nothing falls on our head or toes. So if we follow the energy rule that what we think about is what we get; it works.
 
What I realized was that I was thinking that things were not working out the way I wanted, so they weren't. I came to understand it was the last of my old thinking that I just did not believe in how this energy thing works. What I know now is that I was just looking for it to work in one area, it sure has worked in a lot of my life. I have countless things to say have improved and have countless things to be grateful for. I have sat with my inner energy and come to see that I had a residual feeling of disbelief. It resonated in me like a nervous cat. I let it go with the help of my inner self and now have a peace deeper than I knew could exist. All of a sudden I feel like the world is cooperating with me. As if it wants to cooperate, and all of my interactions have gotten better, smoother.
   
I guess I have to say to cooperate with the energy of the world you have to feel it cooperating with you. Even when you think it is not helping, working things out; you have to feel it cooperating. The energy works out all things when the time is right for all the people involved, but it is still cooperating. I know this because I feel it now.

Repeats

When you repeat behavior it is an opening to look at how you feel. Many times we think situations in our lives are different, but if you look close you will see that they are related. If you have your feelings hurt repeatedly, think about why. Ask yourself how you need to feel and what you really want the other person to be like. Ask many "why" questions. Keep asking why, until you have an answer that is deep in your soul. Use this information to understand reality of expectations.
     
I have an acquaintance that feels left out a lot. When others have an activity planed, if she finds out, she will say they left her out. She also projects this on her kids, saying others have left out her kids. I have another that repeatedly feels unloved. This person needs to hear "I love you" many times a day, and judges the barometer of the relationship on it. A whole world is built around how many or little "I love you's", they get in a given period of time. This same person needs to hear that I want to see them, verbally. It is not enough to feel safe with how well we get along. If "I cant wait to see you", or "I can't wait to hold you", is not muttered, he thinks I do not like him enough. The real energy is that of insecurity, and it is a demanding energy. I have broached the subject, knowing full well that I have no control over admitting the issue. These fears stick deep in our psyches. We disguise our fearful  behaviors in good motives, projecting on to another's our own lack of respect.
 
When I would find myself in these situations of pain, I would sit and think how I may have added to the situations. Many times we, ourselves, can not see the situations clearly because of the cloud of pain we emit. When you sit and ask the inner energy to help, the true reasons are revealed. Somehow that energy  helps us understand our true fears, and our fears reveal our true motives.
 
True motives, our minds cannot handle, they are so painful that we have to hide them from ourselves. But, true motives cause repeats in pain we experience. The way out of the repeated pain is through the inner energy.

Indebtedness

You are never indebted to another. People are inspired to help you. It is a calling from their inner guide. When the thing they are inspired to help you with is done, they can move on, or help more. If they choose to ignore their guidance, they will have to suffer the consequences. All actions of benevolence are of that same inner guidance. It is what we do with it after that may make it sinister.
 
Did you ever have someone that said,"All I have done for you, and you don't act grateful?" You can be grateful, and not agree with the bad behavior that they are trying to indebt you with. Gratitude is something you express in the moment. If you have to keep expressing it, you are catering to someone's need to feel great.
 
One of the things that I learned this summer is that each time I help another it is independent of my own agenda. Sometimes that same energy asks you to help someone you do not like, it is to help you grow. Working with others is a way to emotionally mature, this has to be done with a non-judgmental heart. If you find fault, or have a motive that serves you, it will be a problem of some kind in the end. Your inner energy is pure, and has its own form of protection for you, but you cannot doubt. It is in the very faith that you are following your inner energy that you have the protection.
 
When people try to indebt you to them they are only using the energy of guilt by trying to manipulate you to do what they want. We are all free and have the right to move on at any time. Now, I must say that like all things this also stems from a true sense of spirit. When you follow your inner energy, it does respond to your need's but it does not do so out of debt. It does this to make life, or itself, whole. We, the people, attribute all thoughts to how we see and think of things, so when we need something, we try to make those around us do them.
 
Here is an example. I moved this summer and befriended someone, well they pretended to be my friend. This person did not call me unless they wanted something from me. I was helping them and thought they would reciprocate, but did not reciprocate in a friendship that I needed or wanted at the time. This made me so sad in the beginning. You see, I had an agenda, but I also was talking to my inner energy. I started to see that what I was doing was independent of the friendship I needed. So, I began to help for the sake of helping, then I realized that I was helping that universal energy. I was creating a sense of peace in the world by bearing the burden of what needed to be done. It made the work light and a pure joy. It also brought me the peace I need in my life at that time. The situation started to change in my mind. Another inspiration came in, and I no longer had to help. That is when I moved on to this.
   
You see, your inner energy flows from one thing that is needed to another. You are never tied to your current people, places or things out of guilt. I do recommend to you to talk, and to feel your inner energy. Do this to see if you need to serve the people in your life more deeply. When you serve people you do not like so much you grow to know the inner energy that you are serving. If you are meant to move on you will with no animosity because you are serving the energetic whole, not the person.

Forgive

I have thought about this for a while. Forgiveness is a way to heal, move on, and know that you want peace more that anything else.  I have been thinking about what to write about forgiveness and my mom gave something to write about last night.
 
I went to a class last night and left my kids home with my mom. She has to take care of my three year old, but my older ones were here too. They usually come with me. I got home on a spiritual high. It was a class about inner peace. I enjoyed it a lot, but I really went for the teacher. I like her and crave being around like minded people. Anyway, when I got home, my ten year old told me that my mom had spent the night rifling through my personal things. She was looking through my drawers, reading papers I keep in them, and looking through my closet. I am so glad I came home full of inner peace! I am, well used to be, the sort of person that would have hung you out to dry for such a transgression. I had all the usual thoughts. I don't do this to her. What do I say? Then I realized that she is only doing what she knows how to do; be disrespectful. She can not respect herself, so how can she respect me? I would venture to say that she has no concept of respect, because she has not defined herself, or what her values are. What is there to respect when you are not a whole person? She sees herself as a collection of good decisions she has made about money. Others do not live up to that measure, so we do not deserve respect.

I never got mad, I just rode that spiritual high all through the night. I stayed up thinking about all this. I realized that I did not have anything to hide anyway, and that I wanted to have a better relationship with my mom. So I asked her this morning how I could help her, maybe do a little laundry. We had a nice conversation and I came up to write. I see it all as testimony that my inner power has transformed me. I also feel confident that it is all energy that is working to get me out of here. I also trust that the same inner energy is working on its own form of justice. I feel good that I did not allow her behavior to effect me and that I still treated her with love. I am sure that it is not all my doing. I have great power behind all that I do, even forgiving.

Beautify The World

I am so happy for the neighbors! They are doing so much outside work and making their and our world nice. I know it is strange to be happy for others' prosperity, but it is mine and yours too. In the world of energy the higher truth is that all is one. So, always be happy for any beauty prosperity brings. It brings up the collective energy of prosperity its self.
 
As I was growing I saw others unhappy about others' gain, or find some fault in it. Now I understand they just did not, or do not, have the same knowledge that I do about it being good for the world. Still, I see others complaining about the progress and finding problem with the construction. Yet I keep peeking out the window to see how well it all looks. I love the idea that people get what they want and need and when it is over it will look so pretty. I also love the idea that when you take the time and money to invest in something it has energetic love and devotion in it. It glows and shines with your attention.
 
There are some homes you drive by that have a lackluster air about them. I always think, "wouldn't it be nice if they would just buy one gallon of paint a paycheck?" Invest a little at a time, and over time, their home will have that loved look. Beauty is part of our souls, it is a reflection of the infinite depth of what we are. Beauty is a calling, just look in nature. It is the result of our blossoming in mature growth. You can see the evidence of what I say all around you this Spring. We all feel a true connection to nature. It is because we are truly connected to it. We are it. When I had a home, I used to sit on the couch in the front room, in the quiet of the night, and think of how beautiful it all was I also felt so prosperous. I would sit there and feel the beauty peace and contentment of myself and the world.
 
So surround your self with the beauty you love, and know you are that beauty. Feel the beauty in yourself and love the vast infinite being you are.

I Know I Am a Problem

Yes, I know I am a problem. I can name many of the things I need in life that I cannot supply for myself right now, and remember when I say me, I include my three kids. So, the list is like this; food, clothes, electricity, water, gas, $250.00 a month for my car, a home and all the things that come up in between there when you have kids. These are all things that we all need in life, but, like many in this world now, I am at the mercy of others to fill those needs. I also know I can give a lot too, I have an eternity of unconditional love to give. That is something you cannot pay for; but I know it is what we all need just as much as the money it takes for all of those other things.

We all need something at some time in our lives. You cannot avoid needing something on some level in a life time. Even if you had a wealth of money for your lifetime, there would be times that you needed help of some kind. "I know," you say, "I will pay for it." But there are some things that money cannot buy. True unconditional love, devotion, time, compassion, and companionship. I know these have a wealth of value and that they are belittled in this world. I also know that even if the people that are supplying my monetary backbone find me a problem they could choose to love me anyway. I know I choose to love them even though they see and feel me as a problem. When they see me this way, they are saying what I give does not count. That's what I am really giving. My essential me is unworthy, because it does not buy something, or produce a physical result. These same people could see what I do and see me as a blessing, knowing that the world needs love at this time in history, but you cannot see two worlds at the same time, when you chose the physical world as your value.
 
I am well aware that some people in this life see, and express their feelings, that I am a problem. I also know that I am not a problem in the world that counts. I am a true blessing. My needs have the ability to bring out the best in someone or the worst. But either way, I have chosen to be a blessing to all, and to the world of eternal energy.

Thank You

I have to say thank you to my inner guide. I have come so far, and am so grateful for all the help and love bestowed upon me.
   
I am currently living with family and we are not of like mind. I also have a special needs child that is very hard to take most days. This morning she got up, and was crying. The person downstairs could hear her. He made a huff, said "Jesus Christ !", and left. Well, I know it is hard for all of us. I was very disappointed to realize that she was, or could very well be, a problem for the rest of her life. Either way, I had to accept it and learn to care for her with love. Acceptance is not easy to understand. It is the decision to deal with the issue as it is, not keep looking for it to change. Now this is hard to think of because many of us need change to make life bearable. Change will come. Life is forever changing. You have to accept what is to allow the new to move in. The acceptance is the lack of resistance. When you resist, the stress of the problem fills the energetic place of what is trying to come in and replace the problem issue.
 
Now, what I understood today was that your resistance is a form of that energy too. The resistance is a feeling of need for change. It forces you to look in to your inner energy for help. I can not control that I live here or that my child is hard to live with, but I can control my reactions. That is power in a huge way! I have been dealing with the resistance of us living here since we moved in. I have gone through phases of pain over it and today, I thought about it, and realized that it was my inner energy that was creating the pain to propel me into a new location. I felt undying gratitude! You see we are energy and that energy repels and attracts. So, what ruffles my energy system will send me away. Likewise, what makes me calm is what the energy gives me more of, it attracts. I walk every day, two to three times, to a house I want to live in. I always take the time to pray there and know that somehow my energy is working on me getting there. We need a home so badly. It is the worst thing in the world to live in a home were you are not welcome. You never really feel safe and you never really feel like you can be.
 
Having a place to be the essential you is so important to being the best Being you can be. I know that it is all being worked out and that maybe I needed to live through this to appreciate, teach and love what I will have when it is all over. I sureonow I have a true sense of understanding that I never had, a sense of peace, and love for those that are unconsciously fallowing the energy of life. So thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Empty Apologies

Did you ever tell someone that you were sorry for hurting their feelings and know that it would not matter in the end? I went to talk to a lady today that told me that I was the only parent who told her that she was doing something wrong, and that it hurt her feelings. This, apparently, hurt her feelings for days, she was so upset. Well, I said that I was sorry and, indeed, I genuinely felt sorry. But, I knew that it was hollow. You see, when you apologize for hurting someone, you are apologizing to their ego. The ego is a hollow entity. So, when you use your emotions to make people behave, or do what you think is right, you are left feeling empty. I was apologizing to a feeling, not even to her, as the beautiful being that I know that she is, not even this emotion. I know in my heart that she just feels fresh now in her anger. She is mulling over and over, thinking of how right she is. I know that she does not feel better about the apology because her soul is not healed from it. Her soul itself is not wounded by the exchange, it needed no apologies. So she will still feel empty.

Your inner self is stronger that the world's feelings and perceptions. It does not get hurt feelings. It is not hurt by anything that happens and that is the essential you. Your inner guide will use emotions to communicate to you and help you know when to change or do something differently. Inner selves do not think of the feelings the same way that we do either. If you feel hurt by something that someone said, it could be a clue to see how you may be taking things personally, or that you are letting old memories cloud how you are dealing in this moment. All of your emotions are there to help you grow. They are guides to look inside for inner guidance and growth. We, the people, think our emotions are for eradicating, so we can have a stable and secure life. Change is hard for the ego. It likes complete control so it does not have to change. It likes the outside power of its childish ways. When you learn that you are bigger, deeper, and far stronger with out the egoist emotions, you are not happy with them anymore . I do have to say that it is also an inner guide thing to want stability of the emotions. Your body and emotional system are not designed to have much fluctuation in emotion. This is also a call to your inner guide to mature you into learning that you are untouched by others' actions. Their actions do not effect the essential inner you. We all know in our core that we are deeper, stronger, and powerful.

People that have not learned to feel themselves as there inner selves, or to control there minds, will not feel satisfied by the exchanges they have. They are talking through, and perceiving themselves, as  hollow entities, lacking the power of spirit.  All of life will be empty, and feel emotionally unstable. So, do not settle for empty apologies, become whole. Follow your inner guide. Just be.

You Are Not Our Feelings

I have stood up to someone in my life and now she needs me to listen to her side of the story. As all people do when they feel they are right, they want an audience to listen to them and then be able to jam their perceptions down their throats. I have to say that this lady is a blessing to the world, she tries to do the best and has good intentions. But she is still in the beginner stages of learning. When you first start to learn and practice, or not, following you inner guide, you become a judgmental, which is a fundamental problem for others. You are convinced you are right and that you are doing the world a service, and you are. Yet, on another level of reality, you are still trying to mix what you used to know with what you are learning. You can not mix. You have to choose. The guide will teach you that your feelings and emotions are not who you are, but the old you will still want to be defined by the feelings. If you are defined buy the feelings, you have justification to be mad at others for hurting your feelings. This allows you to control them. You will always hurt others in this stage. You want attention and control. It is the outside world of control that you are familiar with, and what you are trying to learn is the inside control. But you will always resort to what you are familiar with, until you practice what you are not familiar with enough to make it a habit. When you start to learn inside control, you don't have the need to control others as much. Eventually, your guide will teach you that what you truly want is inside control, and not to control others on the outside. You will want to have inside control only because you realize that is is the only true power.

Now this lady requested I come over and talk to her. She told me that she was upset for days about being told she was harassing others. Well, she was. But to her, she was doing a service in the community, ridding the world of people that are not nice to her and her kids. Now this is her perception, but not the reality of the situation. I know she is right, in her mind, but, I am right too. I am very clear about this. You can not keep calling people to tell them they are mean, seven times in fifteen minutes. This is harassment by definition. It is the law. I am not mad. I know she did what she thought was right, but I will not have this behavior in my home. So, I feel fine about removing the issue from my home and thoughts. I do not think about her much. I control my mind and have moved on. When I do pass by her home and think of her, I bless her, and family. I do hope that in some way she learns that she is not her feelings. She is far stronger and deeper person than that.

Emotional Intelligence teaches that you are your inner guide, and that your emotions are a guide to learn from your inner self. They are not who you are, or a reason to be angry at others.

People are Blessings

Everyone in your life is a blessing, even if you can't see them a such. We all have people that are thorns in our side, but those are the people that we are to learn from the most. We learn to overcome adversity through these people and we have those that are so apparently blessings to give us reprieves from the pain of the others. Do not think that you can rid yourself of the people that rub you the wrong way. They are the people that make us reflect the most, and learn the most, about ourselves. Everyone that is in your life is there by divine energetic plan. You could have taken another turn and learned something along the way that made you skip the person. Energy makes no mistakes. We are with these people because we are best suited to learn from them and they are best to learn from us.
 
It all seems so impossible. Life seems chaotic when we live it, yet there is a perfect order to energy. We are energy that attracts the very circumstances that we need to grow and learn about our very selves. Learning about ourselves makes us conscious about the very energy we are and the energy that ruins the world. I do not want you to take my word for any of this. Practice it yourself. Sit quietly and feel the energy in and around you. As you become more aware of yourself as this type of being and start to live through this feeling self, you will see that you are a blessing and all around you is a blessing.

We run on energy and respond to it, as it feeds our very life. We all want to serve this energy. We are tripping over one another to do charity these days. This is a call from the energy itself, a movement to be our higher potential. It feels good and we forget our little lives when we think of serving the people in our lives. I will admit the people that are hardest to see as a blessing are the very people that we need to serve the most. We are their blessings and they bring out the best in us, they become our blessings. It is all a circle of energy to live on.

Consciousness

Consciousness is living every moment with the knowledge that we are energy beings before we are human beings. This means that we are to look and feel that energy in all that we do. It is a slower and more humble life. It takes time to see all as a whole and not just from one's own point of view. It also brings out the best in all of the people we deal with. We all want to be seen as beings with the potential of the best the world has to offer.
 
I can tell you a story about how energy keeps us stuck, or frees us for the best. I have a family member that has the money in the family. This person doles it out when we get into a need for it. But, this person's background thought is that we do not learn from our mistakes. Now I can tell you I know my mistakes, but there is an irresistible urge to not give the money back when I have it to give. I know because I am conscious enough to feel this pull and let it play on my thoughts for a day or so when I get money. My thoughts are that I should pay it back, but that I need so much else and that this person will not think better of me if I did pay it back. She would not, you know. People with this mentality need to think ill of others to feel better about themselves. So the energy universe, of which we all are made, gives us the energy to play out this drama every time we have the chance. Others do not see us as whole when they have background thoughts of our not deserving of their charity. They are seeing us as a problem and this energy keeps us as a problem in their lives. Their very thoughts come into our energy field every time they think or talk about us. It is the very energy that they are emitting that keep us acting badly in there eyes. If I was to win the lottery I would pay this person off in behalf of all the family and friends that she is always mentioning that owe her money. I want them to be free of the energy pull that it creates in their lives. I want them to heal, to be whole.

I can not stress this enough. It is this kind of consciousness that we need to free ourselves of the problems in our lives. I also feel so much better to have seen someone for the energy that they are. I am so happy to treat them as a whole being and know that I have added to the healing of the world. Consciousness heals us and that is what heals the world.

Rules and Regulations

We, the people, are stuck on the rules. We are afraid to do what is right for fear of getting into trouble. We seem to have lost sight of the fact that we don't all fit into a mold of humanity What makes us different is what brings new and wonderful solutions into the world. The true problem is that by being forced to follow the rules and regulations we leave out the possibility of following our guidance, and our guidance is what is going to make us successful people. Call it guidance, a hunch, or intuition, it is what keeps us safe and brings us solutions. Some of us know that the value in following this guidance and that our society, by and large, does not allow it.

Now, I have to say, there is a widening division of people in the world at this time. The ones that do believe and those that live in the "rules" world. They make the rules and they are based on someone else's misbehavior, or repeated behavior. The rule makers are tired of dealing with the misbehaved people. They are people that do not follow their guidance either. What I am saying is that when they finally decide to make the rules, it is because they are so tired of the problem. They forget that there is a being under all this and that at some point, another being is not going to be able to conform and stay true to their inner self.
  
This may be abstract, so let me give you an example. Now my kids are in school and they are getting more and more rules and regulations and they refuse to bend them in any way. Even if you are going to comply, they will not help you. I have a daughter that is 10 years old, in fourth grade. She came home in tears because they put a no talking ban in her school. Now I am intelligent enough to understand that they are trying to cut down on the bullying, which is a national epidemic. But, this leaves out childhood friendships and socialization.  It is a natural instinct to help others and talking is part of this good behavior, and now they can't talk in school. The teachers have gone as far as threatening the kids with the police and telling them they will be expelled. It is spiritual guidance to talk and communicate with the world around you and this hampers the development of the whole person.

The time is here of persecution for following you inner self, and more and more are going to be feeling the push to not conform because of their inner guidance demanding that we see each other as beings. We are not a collective that needs conformity to rules and regulations. We are spiritual energy.

The Birds Sing to Me

Yes in the ultimate reality of emotional intelligence, the birds sing to us all, the graces of life itself.
I remember one morning about half way through my first marriage being woke by birds singing. My husband, out of the quiet of the morning said, "They sing for you." It was a corny little love thing to say at the time, but I have always held it dear to my heart. Many of times through these years I have thought of him saying this to me, not feeling like there was any reality to it. But, we all know in our hearts and souls, that they do, in fact, sing for us. It is the spiritual truth that all is one. We say this, know it to be true, but living it makes us live to a higher standard. We avoid living here, it is too much work on those days we want some extra attention because we feel slighted.

In the end we know deep within ourselves that we are part of the whole world. I woke this morning to a beautiful song in my head, and went out to walk the dog. There I found the birds singing to me. I remember the days that I used to awaken angry, groggy and sad. But, I have slowly seen an improvement in my happiness level. The "energy that is one" is always working to better your life, and as I have seen, it has worked in mine. I take no credit for the change in my mind, I know I could have not have done it on my own. All I did was be persistent in asking that inner energy for its help in healing. I read, listen to and watch all those that have been on this path before me. I have heard Echart Tolle, Emily Dickinson, Shakespeare, and many others say the same thing. The whole of the world sings for us to heal. It is a beautiful knowing that there is so much power within us, kind of like a private cheering squad.
  
Just think of those that can not move, maybe even those who are imprisoned. They can see the world this way and find peace and happiness in the power that is in them. I know that I have no excuse for not seeing the world this way all my life, other than I did not know it existed. I have lived an average life, nothing as bad as some have. But, I found my way here. I encourage you to find your way down this path too, because living with the birds makes life worth living.

Emotional Charity

Charity that you can walk away from and not care about the outcome is the highest form of blessing your inner energy can give. When you realize that you are guided and have a task to do, walking away and being grateful you helped is the best gift to yourself and the world. Most of us are not equipped to do this though. We watch what the other people do. We judge them and say they should have taken our help and done something else with it, or made some other decision. We get mad half way through the process and judge that they are not grateful, don't return our help in the way we want their affection to be returned to us.

The reality is that we may need to help, and all help is a guidance from inner energy. We may need to help someone that is sick, that is the energy that they need to feel whole, but they do not see it that way. All they do is complain about is what they don't have now. All my life I have had an attraction to helping people directly, Sick, elderly, displaced, you name it, I try to rescue them. What I understand now is not that I was helping them in this world. I was, but he important thing is that I was in the spot to help them feel whole again. Of course I was not whole myself, so I did not understand this view point. I just got tired of it all and mad that they did not feel better that I was helping.
  
I recently had to move in with family, they did not have the emotional strength to see it this was either.
I know they have the money to support us, but they do not want to spend it this way. So they wanted me to pay them back buy going to get free food every other week. Well I like good food and I don't like the free stuff, food banks give out, I also know they can afford food along with all the rest.  They also knew I had no way to get other resources, I got mad and felt as if they were abusing the system through me, I did not feel right about taking food we did not need. Most of all I knew it did not make me feel whole when I was sitting in line for food. I did speak up, and I did realize I wanted them to see me as whole. I understood for the first time that giving to someone had to be unconditional, other wise you emotionally wound them.

When someone has the capacity to see you as an essentially whole being even if you are in need, they are working the highest form of emotional charity. This has the capacity to heal you of any lack. We all are whole, it is our pain about life that makes us become less. So, see yourself as whole and understand that all the people in your life are here to fill some need, allowing you to BE whole. Most of all remember you are here to fill spots of lack in there lives also. Give with emotional maturity.