life to live

  We all want life to go our way. The reality of that is; that life its self knows what will make us happy. Life is the energy of creation. The reality of what is best for us. Letting go of all of our wants to find what is the best for us is so hard. sometimes we do not even know what we want or think we do; only to find that we are unhappy once we get it. Our wants also change with our development or emotional growth.
      I want to stay home with my kids, they are the love of my life and I want to be there for them and all of the world is conspiring to push me into the world of work. I recently went back to work; only to find that I am delighted with it. Part of me feels like I let my kids down. As if I was not a good mom because I did not fallow the energy of my wants and focus on them. I have also wanted to be independent of the people in my life that want to call the shots. I see now that the stronger energy, the one full of life is the one that makes me free.
     I am happier, not having others around that want me to behave in a certain ways for them. I am happier without there disappointment and judgement; or moodiness.
  I do not like going to work; but I know that the energy of life needs me to be here now; to create time and space to maneuver my life into a different setting.  I can say this, that my life was not working the way I wanted it to; so it is a blessing that it is working the way life is directing it.
       Life we live is not always the best life we could live. Sometimes when we give in to life as it calls us to be, we find ourselves more alive than we thought we could be. Living the life we want can stifle life itself; making our every turn feel wrong. When we move in the direction that we need to; we come alive with the very life of creation.

Acquiring Energy

We are energy beings first, that means that we need energy to survive, grow and thrive. So we must acquire energy as our primary nutrients. Now I will say that this world does not teach you how to do that, it is part of growing and learning. You do it through your relationship with your inner energy. This primary relationship is the way we live, and if we neglect it we are abusive, yes that is a strong thing to say but it is true.  Abusive people keep the patterns of abuse alive and well through there way of acquiring energy. They teach this form of acquiring energy through there abuse.
     
Now let me explain, we all have to have energy, it repairer's and keeps all our cells and functions of every aspect in our lives going. As children we learn that we share energy, through energy plays with the members of our tribes (family). Now as we grow we are supposed to learn that we start to form a relationship with our inner self; this relationship will take us away from our family, if we do it right. Now most families do not want us to leave, out grow, or become smarter that them; so they do not encourage this.
       Yet you will get smarter with your inner self, and this relationship helps you grow patience and  inner peace that teaches compassion and respect for others. It is in that relationship that you gain energy to survive and feed your energy body (essential self). Little by little you will have less need to create chaos, or anger episodes that feed you energy body. You see anger in any form is what it is to get energy from a physical point, meaning you have not acquired the skills to gain it for yourself, through inner work. Anger can feed you for days, because when others think of the episode they are relinquishing there energy in the form of thought filled emotions, to you.
     
I know people that are still working in this mode, ok, a lot of people. But I see that I have grown through it and no longer feed them with my thoughts. Many of these people use the excuse that they black out or can not control there actions, and they can't. This pattern is so ingrained that it happens at such a pace they do not see the reality of there actions. Now I must say that people that know they hurt others and continue to do it are, energetically asking to be left. This is the energy the universe is calling all of us to deny, or to look elsewhere so it can transform form the abusers pain of abandonment. Pain of your actions is what the inner energy uses to heal you, and it is a conscious persons responsibility to gently and lovingly leave these people to there life until they learn new patters of relating to us. I am not saying to be angry with them, that is the same form of emotional abuse they use. I am saying that you can check on them and say I love you, then go. When they try to be angry, say I love you and walk away. they will soon see that you are not going to stand there and listen to them. You will soon become calm through these processes also.
   
The strongest point I can make is to develop your inner relationship, it will give you the patience to handle these and all situations in life. It will open your eyes to how you add to the situations and prevent you from doing the same to others. The best part is that we come to acquire our own energy the way we should acquire it; through our own self, that is real and lasting energy that can change the world.

Body

When we feel ourselves as anything other than our energy within; we are just a body heading for death. There are studies, you can read some of Depak Chopra's work, when you think of anything other that the spirit, you are accelerating you aging process. Depak Chopra writes beautifully about this in; Reinventing the Body, Resurrection the Soul, one of this latest books that describes the testing science has done on meditation and the aging process.
 
Your purposeful attention to your inner self brings the vastness of the universe into your cells through out the day, separating and giving air; or spirit to your body and aging. Thinking of your inner guide is not only great for your mind; creating openness of thought and options, but good for your body also. The access of the spirit into and through your mind helps spirit to come in to your being and keep your body healthy and rejuvenated through out the day.
     
On the other hand, thinking of the physical world is a narrow path. These thoughts only allow inner energy to enter through the work you have on your mind. If you are thinking about the latest argument you had or problem at work, you have virtually cut off access to your body health. If you are sick, or in pour health you are thinking of the pain or spreading disease. This way of thinking only accelerates the growth of you illness or problem. Sending the full power of your inner energy to a problem is a dangerous solution; it is sure to keep the problem in place or accelerate the growth of it.
     
Know you are a whole being living in this world with the other things around you. All the things, people and situations are fear to be a part of your experience and growth; spiritually. Do not consider them a choice in the thoughts you think, they are here to show you a way into you inner self. Think of all those people and things around you as energy props, the ones you want to stay around you, be grateful the others look past them.
   
The choice to think only of you inner energy self is the only path to a long, healthy and peaceful life.

Letting Go

One of the things I learned in the beginning of my book learning was that we choose other things that are against what our guide tells us. This is a core error that makes our lives miserable. I, of course, did not know how to stop this error from occurring, but wanted to only follow my inner energy. I was full of hope six years ago when I found out about this choice. What I did not know was how long it would take for my inner guide to refine my thoughts so that I could hear my inner energy. There was a process of learning all the ways in which I have blocked my intuition. Then a process of learning all the reasons that I will not listen to my guidance, or ignore it for my own choice. Now I have become conscious of all my behavior. That is the name of this game, to become conscious, or it is not choice. Choice only comes from the knowing of all the options and the knowledge of the true motives behind our actions.

Here I am at the crossroads of letting go of my agenda, wants, wishes, whatever you call it. In the end we let go in favor of the choice to follow the inner energy in all we do regardless of our own agendas. I am in a spot now that I am making a life choice and do not want to put myself in the hands of my smaller thinking self. I want to cut ties of all I know in this world and let the remainder of my life choices be guided by my inner energy. We all have our comfort zones in our lifetimes, yet I know now that I am just an energy being that is here to live out the energy that runs through me, creating a better world for the whole. All is a gift to us and I have to treat it as such, now that I know this in my heart. Every decision is meant to help the whole, not just me. I am happy about all of this. It brings joy to my heart to help the world.

I guess I am saying that my new comfort needs to come from the feeling that I get from following my inner guide, not anything that I knew or had in this lifetime. I have been here many times before and my inner guide has helped me through all my little letting-gos, but now I am at the point that I have to let go of all the things that I thought would give me comfort and peace. I do have a sense of peace and comfort from my relationship with my inner energy, I just am letting go of all the physical things that I thought would bring me joy. They do not bring me any joy anymore,so I am letting go of the thought that it will. I have a joy in knowing that I am interacting with energy that is deeper than anything I find here.

A Little Bird

A little bird came to grace our home yesterday. As all these birds that we get in the spring, I had little hope that it would make it through the night. I have a ten year old that loves animals, and every spring we have a tossed out wild bird that we care for.
     
I did not have my usual worries about theses things when I went to bed. I was thinking of all the rest we had in the past, and I said a little prayer. Something along the lines that it will be, "ok"either way and that if it was meant to be, let it live. Some how, I knew that that prayer was the power that was going to bring life to it.
       
I had forgotten about it in the morning and when I came down I heard a little peeping! There was a quiet happiness in my heart, and little thought went in to its survival, and morning feeding. As I was walking the dog, I felt strong this morning.  I realized that the background fear had left me, in some way. My mind is clear and I feel left with the gratitude I have been praying so much for the past few weeks.
     
I am in a spot of change again in my life, everything is a little unknown at this time. I knew for a few days now I needed something to fill my thoughts so my inner energy could do its magic. It seems, I have been sent my blessing; the energy, in form of a bird, to get me through this time.
       
I am so grateful and in awe of how life really works when you really start to understand it. Somehow as delicate as a hairless bird and as magical as miracles can be.

Guidance Appropriate

You will get guidance according to your level of understanding. As your levels change so does your guidance. Energy works with you, so you can follow it, but it does require the best of you. That means that what it asks you to do may be just out of the realm of what you think possible; or that it is an automatic response to help another, something that if you gave it thought, you would not ordinarily do.
     
At different levels of your understanding you will be open to different options that you could not do before you understood more. The higher you ascend in you relationship with your inner guide; the clearer your peace with your guidance will be.
     
So when you start this path, you may want to be a help to others in some way; then as you learn that path you realize you would be better at a specialty, just outside of what you thought. Now you learn more and become more personal with your inner guide; you will realize you want to help in a deeper way. All this is learning specific, it is according to your level of emotional maturity. It is also according to a clearer level of relationship with your inner energy.
     
This evolution of your needs and service to your inner energy is a path that ever refines the quality of service you can provide to the world.
     
Most of us start out wanting some form of recognition for our efforts and as we progress we realize that it is the quality of service that matters most. I always wanted to help others in my life. Recently, I realized that I do. I just help, quietly, those around me to be the best that they can be. My inner guide has taught me a lot and I know that I have not had a lot of time to help others the conventional way, in the public work place. Yet I see the continuity that has developed in what I have learned and what I want has transformed. At one time I wanted to be appreciated and well known for all that I know about spirit and psychology. Now, I want to practice quietly and heal those in spiritual crisis. I also see now that I am doing that in some form and that it is a true gift to the world, even if it is not recognized as such.
     
Hang in there and know that as you become a better energy being, you will have better things to bring to the world. You will evolve and move in a better direction. So, do not be frightened of your changes. Your guidance will always give you challenges that are appropriate for your level of gifts to the world.

Intuition as Guide

When I started this path, I wanted to know my intuition. Mostly I wanted to understand how it communicates with me, what I found out was that it was talking to me all the time, I was ignoring it. Inner energy is subtle and is drowned out by any fears. It is something you can not understand if you do not practice listening and following it.
           
In the beginning I was full of thoughts of how I was going to maneuver in this world, and the thoughts that others had put into my head about not being good, or that I would be poor if I took this path. All those fears and insecurities spoke louder than the reality that inner energy can overcome. Yet we all have these thoughts and worries, but they have to be brought to your attention before you can see them and learn differently.
         
Once we disconnect from the myths we learned to believe in, we have to deal with the myths that we create that we are entitled to a good life, or love in return. We are supposed to get them, but we are supposed to earn them also. From an energy level, we earn them and if we do not get them we can not be mad. It is either that we are putting our energy in the wrong place or we are not being patient. Either way we are not focused on giving. Giving is the key to endless return, on an energy level. The full measure of inner connection is to have the feeling of inner connect at all times. We are then open to feeling intuition all the time. All this happens at it own pace, and as soon as you are willing to follow.
         
There are many ways we can become intuitive and they are dependent on your personal skills. Each of us has unique abilities that connect us with our inner self, and theses are the ways through witch we can best help the world. We learn about our abilities through intuition itself. That is what makes us happy in an eternal way is what we have to give, like I love to help others. I brings me endless joy to know I am serving someone else. I feel this way in all circumstances, whether it be money, time or just a kind thought. Theses are energy levels in their own way, from lower energy of money to time witch is a middle energy, to thought a higher energy. When you cover all the levels it is an eternal gift, knowing that energy runs through you. This is the gift of connection to inner guide, and the true measure you are reading your intuition.
         
Intuition is a feeling that runs in our gut, or nervous system, so you have to practice sitting and feeling it so when you need it you can feel your way out of life's hard times. We are used to relying on our five senses, we get taught that in kindergarten. But to be your true self and be the most fulfilled you have to learn to be guided by your intuition.

Selfishness

There is only one form of selfishness that is not of this world, and that is the only one to have.
Selfishness is growing, since the 80s', we have become so worried about our aging, self development, and acquiring things. Yet, we have not moved on to the next step in evolution, selflessness, or selfishness for selflessness.  We have learned so much about mental health and we spend hours at the therapist and then tell our friends how life is going, always bad. This is the language, we communicate with, a mutual one up on another; who has it worse. Getting rights to sympathy for the latest trauma we have had to deal with.
     
Moving on to the next step of evolution in this growth of selfishness is that we understand we are here to serve others, regardless of our own wants. With this knowledge comes a selfish protection to ourselves in how we live out and protect our guidance. We also come to the understanding that we have to be selfish about our time and energy investments. Only devoting thought, which is creating, on our inner energy. Selfishness takes on a whole new meaning, and it does not have anything to do with what we get in return. The evolution of the mind, takes you in to understanding that thinking about inner energy is the power, creating takes to create.
       
Selfishness takes on a whole new meaning when we are selfishly protecting the inner energy, or the whole universe. Yes this is a form of protecting the whole, only guidance from the whole can be information that is best for all. So feel your inner self, live through it and have the strength to protect it selfishly.

Knowing

The truth of wholeness is that we live, feel and know we exude an energetic power. The path of wholeness is to slowly learn that you are emitting energy that changes the world around you. I have said this for a year now and it has been in my mind as a peace of knowledge, yet not as a from of living. This is two different worlds of living. We can know something as a form of knowledge we have learned, yet we have not known it as a way of life. There is an energy pattern hear that has to be lived.
     
A person can go to school for six years studying about honey, travel around the world lecturing about honey. They can call themselves a honey expert and have works published about honey, but have never tasted honey. They have never experienced honey, they do not know honey in there being, as an energy knowing.
     
Knowing the reality of what I say is to know wholeness and healing. It is to follow a path to your highest potential through living it; not studying it and acquiring more knowledge. Start your relationship with your inner energy now and start to experience your inner power now. Take the time to acquire the skills that help you feel the reality of this knowledge. Doing is the only path to knowing.

Cooperation

When you cooperate with your inner energy it cooperates with you. I was at the store today and witnessed a mom, so frustrated that her kids kept asking for more. I know that feeling, I have been thinking of this for a few weeks and it has gone from me feeling as if my kids do not cooperate, to the world not cooperating. I started to see that it is not all these people and things, but me. My kids are not supposed to cooperate, they are kids. The world is not supposed to do it either, but it will; when I cooperate with it.
 
We are not entitled to anything, but when we follow the energetic rules, we get back what we put in. It is like following the rule of gravity. We do not think of the rule, we just follow it and nothing falls on our head or toes. So if we follow the energy rule that what we think about is what we get; it works.
 
What I realized was that I was thinking that things were not working out the way I wanted, so they weren't. I came to understand it was the last of my old thinking that I just did not believe in how this energy thing works. What I know now is that I was just looking for it to work in one area, it sure has worked in a lot of my life. I have countless things to say have improved and have countless things to be grateful for. I have sat with my inner energy and come to see that I had a residual feeling of disbelief. It resonated in me like a nervous cat. I let it go with the help of my inner self and now have a peace deeper than I knew could exist. All of a sudden I feel like the world is cooperating with me. As if it wants to cooperate, and all of my interactions have gotten better, smoother.
   
I guess I have to say to cooperate with the energy of the world you have to feel it cooperating with you. Even when you think it is not helping, working things out; you have to feel it cooperating. The energy works out all things when the time is right for all the people involved, but it is still cooperating. I know this because I feel it now.

Reality is Subtle

Reality of inner energy is very subtle. It can build a momentum of power in no time. I guess what I am trying to say is that it is not the highs and lows of coffee, spicy foods, and sex. Energy is more like a flowing breeze or gentle river flowing at a good pace.
 
When you start to work with your inner energy you will miss the the harshness of life. I did. I think we all get accustomed to the highs and lows of the physical world. It is natural to look for it in the energy world, because that is what we know. We all have to have some sort of structure in our lives, and what we know puts order and structure in what we learn. The energy world works on a different structure. So, we have to start to see it and integrate the new order into our lives. This all happens as fast as you are willing to use that same energy. I remember though, I was always looking in my heart for a big, fast change, but one day I was walking outside and realized that it is not that. It is subtle and warm like the sun, delicate like a breeze and beautiful like the song of a bird. The same energy illicits a wonderful aliveness inside you, a presence that is unmistakably all-loving. This feeling can be all-consuming and is larger-than-life, but for the most part it remains a constant until you need it. Then, it turns its self up or down accordingly. When you get used to this constant companion of energy, it is a feeling of having someone with you, and knowing that they are your best friend, in all sense of the meaning. It is not as harsh as having someone next to you, you can't reach out and touch it. But it is unmistakably there. I remember that day, realizing how much of what I did want, I had missed; looking for it to be something I already knew. If it was supposed to be what I knew, I would not have been looking to fix my curent thought system.
 
I have to say that my inner energy is a better, more rewarding love, even if it does not have the same feelings that the physical world has. It is at peace, has more to offer, brings me peace, fulfillment, joy and love.

Patience

I will tell you that impatience is going to be a huge stumbling block in your ability to create. Patience is not something any of us have or get instantly. It is cultivated and courted. I know that sounds funny but life, as I have learned, is a dance of letting go of my old ways and learning new. This all happens with out knowing what is going on but when I look back, I can see that is how it has gone. I see that each time I have learned something new, I got impatient that it did not create instant change. When I fell in a pile of ordinary human despair, giving up on my desire to have the change, my inner energy would bring me peace. That's when the change would begin. I have seen this cycle all along but never to the extent that I have understood it last night. I have been working on bringing me the ability to support myself. Now I have heard this before but I was reading again last night from Depak Chopra. He was saying that, the dance of what was and what is to come has to balance. I see that now, the energetic spin of the two hold each other in place. If it were not this way, you would implode with the new knowledge, not knowing how it fits into your life. I agree now, and understand this concept. I used to want a spontaneous awaking, but how would I deal with this with all the responsibility in my life? I know that creation gives you what is needed, and I know that I need to show the world that it can be done. You and I can be ordinary people, and live ordinary lives; working toward a higher emotional intelligence, still obtain it, and have the lives we live.
     
So life is a dance of what is and what is to come. Patience is the gentle thread that allows it to happen, knowing that the energy within will do all the work.

Forgive

I have thought about this for a while. Forgiveness is a way to heal, move on, and know that you want peace more that anything else.  I have been thinking about what to write about forgiveness and my mom gave something to write about last night.
 
I went to a class last night and left my kids home with my mom. She has to take care of my three year old, but my older ones were here too. They usually come with me. I got home on a spiritual high. It was a class about inner peace. I enjoyed it a lot, but I really went for the teacher. I like her and crave being around like minded people. Anyway, when I got home, my ten year old told me that my mom had spent the night rifling through my personal things. She was looking through my drawers, reading papers I keep in them, and looking through my closet. I am so glad I came home full of inner peace! I am, well used to be, the sort of person that would have hung you out to dry for such a transgression. I had all the usual thoughts. I don't do this to her. What do I say? Then I realized that she is only doing what she knows how to do; be disrespectful. She can not respect herself, so how can she respect me? I would venture to say that she has no concept of respect, because she has not defined herself, or what her values are. What is there to respect when you are not a whole person? She sees herself as a collection of good decisions she has made about money. Others do not live up to that measure, so we do not deserve respect.

I never got mad, I just rode that spiritual high all through the night. I stayed up thinking about all this. I realized that I did not have anything to hide anyway, and that I wanted to have a better relationship with my mom. So I asked her this morning how I could help her, maybe do a little laundry. We had a nice conversation and I came up to write. I see it all as testimony that my inner power has transformed me. I also feel confident that it is all energy that is working to get me out of here. I also trust that the same inner energy is working on its own form of justice. I feel good that I did not allow her behavior to effect me and that I still treated her with love. I am sure that it is not all my doing. I have great power behind all that I do, even forgiving.

Empty Apologies

Did you ever tell someone that you were sorry for hurting their feelings and know that it would not matter in the end? I went to talk to a lady today that told me that I was the only parent who told her that she was doing something wrong, and that it hurt her feelings. This, apparently, hurt her feelings for days, she was so upset. Well, I said that I was sorry and, indeed, I genuinely felt sorry. But, I knew that it was hollow. You see, when you apologize for hurting someone, you are apologizing to their ego. The ego is a hollow entity. So, when you use your emotions to make people behave, or do what you think is right, you are left feeling empty. I was apologizing to a feeling, not even to her, as the beautiful being that I know that she is, not even this emotion. I know in my heart that she just feels fresh now in her anger. She is mulling over and over, thinking of how right she is. I know that she does not feel better about the apology because her soul is not healed from it. Her soul itself is not wounded by the exchange, it needed no apologies. So she will still feel empty.

Your inner self is stronger that the world's feelings and perceptions. It does not get hurt feelings. It is not hurt by anything that happens and that is the essential you. Your inner guide will use emotions to communicate to you and help you know when to change or do something differently. Inner selves do not think of the feelings the same way that we do either. If you feel hurt by something that someone said, it could be a clue to see how you may be taking things personally, or that you are letting old memories cloud how you are dealing in this moment. All of your emotions are there to help you grow. They are guides to look inside for inner guidance and growth. We, the people, think our emotions are for eradicating, so we can have a stable and secure life. Change is hard for the ego. It likes complete control so it does not have to change. It likes the outside power of its childish ways. When you learn that you are bigger, deeper, and far stronger with out the egoist emotions, you are not happy with them anymore . I do have to say that it is also an inner guide thing to want stability of the emotions. Your body and emotional system are not designed to have much fluctuation in emotion. This is also a call to your inner guide to mature you into learning that you are untouched by others' actions. Their actions do not effect the essential inner you. We all know in our core that we are deeper, stronger, and powerful.

People that have not learned to feel themselves as there inner selves, or to control there minds, will not feel satisfied by the exchanges they have. They are talking through, and perceiving themselves, as  hollow entities, lacking the power of spirit.  All of life will be empty, and feel emotionally unstable. So, do not settle for empty apologies, become whole. Follow your inner guide. Just be.

You Are Not Our Feelings

I have stood up to someone in my life and now she needs me to listen to her side of the story. As all people do when they feel they are right, they want an audience to listen to them and then be able to jam their perceptions down their throats. I have to say that this lady is a blessing to the world, she tries to do the best and has good intentions. But she is still in the beginner stages of learning. When you first start to learn and practice, or not, following you inner guide, you become a judgmental, which is a fundamental problem for others. You are convinced you are right and that you are doing the world a service, and you are. Yet, on another level of reality, you are still trying to mix what you used to know with what you are learning. You can not mix. You have to choose. The guide will teach you that your feelings and emotions are not who you are, but the old you will still want to be defined by the feelings. If you are defined buy the feelings, you have justification to be mad at others for hurting your feelings. This allows you to control them. You will always hurt others in this stage. You want attention and control. It is the outside world of control that you are familiar with, and what you are trying to learn is the inside control. But you will always resort to what you are familiar with, until you practice what you are not familiar with enough to make it a habit. When you start to learn inside control, you don't have the need to control others as much. Eventually, your guide will teach you that what you truly want is inside control, and not to control others on the outside. You will want to have inside control only because you realize that is is the only true power.

Now this lady requested I come over and talk to her. She told me that she was upset for days about being told she was harassing others. Well, she was. But to her, she was doing a service in the community, ridding the world of people that are not nice to her and her kids. Now this is her perception, but not the reality of the situation. I know she is right, in her mind, but, I am right too. I am very clear about this. You can not keep calling people to tell them they are mean, seven times in fifteen minutes. This is harassment by definition. It is the law. I am not mad. I know she did what she thought was right, but I will not have this behavior in my home. So, I feel fine about removing the issue from my home and thoughts. I do not think about her much. I control my mind and have moved on. When I do pass by her home and think of her, I bless her, and family. I do hope that in some way she learns that she is not her feelings. She is far stronger and deeper person than that.

Emotional Intelligence teaches that you are your inner guide, and that your emotions are a guide to learn from your inner self. They are not who you are, or a reason to be angry at others.

People are Blessings

Everyone in your life is a blessing, even if you can't see them a such. We all have people that are thorns in our side, but those are the people that we are to learn from the most. We learn to overcome adversity through these people and we have those that are so apparently blessings to give us reprieves from the pain of the others. Do not think that you can rid yourself of the people that rub you the wrong way. They are the people that make us reflect the most, and learn the most, about ourselves. Everyone that is in your life is there by divine energetic plan. You could have taken another turn and learned something along the way that made you skip the person. Energy makes no mistakes. We are with these people because we are best suited to learn from them and they are best to learn from us.
 
It all seems so impossible. Life seems chaotic when we live it, yet there is a perfect order to energy. We are energy that attracts the very circumstances that we need to grow and learn about our very selves. Learning about ourselves makes us conscious about the very energy we are and the energy that ruins the world. I do not want you to take my word for any of this. Practice it yourself. Sit quietly and feel the energy in and around you. As you become more aware of yourself as this type of being and start to live through this feeling self, you will see that you are a blessing and all around you is a blessing.

We run on energy and respond to it, as it feeds our very life. We all want to serve this energy. We are tripping over one another to do charity these days. This is a call from the energy itself, a movement to be our higher potential. It feels good and we forget our little lives when we think of serving the people in our lives. I will admit the people that are hardest to see as a blessing are the very people that we need to serve the most. We are their blessings and they bring out the best in us, they become our blessings. It is all a circle of energy to live on.

The Birds Sing to Me

Yes in the ultimate reality of emotional intelligence, the birds sing to us all, the graces of life itself.
I remember one morning about half way through my first marriage being woke by birds singing. My husband, out of the quiet of the morning said, "They sing for you." It was a corny little love thing to say at the time, but I have always held it dear to my heart. Many of times through these years I have thought of him saying this to me, not feeling like there was any reality to it. But, we all know in our hearts and souls, that they do, in fact, sing for us. It is the spiritual truth that all is one. We say this, know it to be true, but living it makes us live to a higher standard. We avoid living here, it is too much work on those days we want some extra attention because we feel slighted.

In the end we know deep within ourselves that we are part of the whole world. I woke this morning to a beautiful song in my head, and went out to walk the dog. There I found the birds singing to me. I remember the days that I used to awaken angry, groggy and sad. But, I have slowly seen an improvement in my happiness level. The "energy that is one" is always working to better your life, and as I have seen, it has worked in mine. I take no credit for the change in my mind, I know I could have not have done it on my own. All I did was be persistent in asking that inner energy for its help in healing. I read, listen to and watch all those that have been on this path before me. I have heard Echart Tolle, Emily Dickinson, Shakespeare, and many others say the same thing. The whole of the world sings for us to heal. It is a beautiful knowing that there is so much power within us, kind of like a private cheering squad.
  
Just think of those that can not move, maybe even those who are imprisoned. They can see the world this way and find peace and happiness in the power that is in them. I know that I have no excuse for not seeing the world this way all my life, other than I did not know it existed. I have lived an average life, nothing as bad as some have. But, I found my way here. I encourage you to find your way down this path too, because living with the birds makes life worth living.

Worthiness

We all need affirmations. But, did you know when you don't say them to others, that has its own energy pattern too? I am not telling you that you need to go around telling everyone that they are great, and that they do great work in this world, every time you talk. I am saying that you know people that are working hard and you decide you don't like all that they do. Or, that you don't feel like being nice at that moment, but you have the feeling you should say something nice. Those are the times your energy is sending the message that you don't think they are worthy.

I have lived the majority of my life with people that did not like what I had to say. They just did not want to be better people at the times I wanted them to be better. I still live with people that do not want to talk to me because they just do not want to hear that there is an entire reality other than their own. We say short nice things in passing, nothing in depth. I crave talking in depth. It touches my soul and no other conversation is more satisfying than one that has touched my inner being. Needless to say, they want to cut out my authentic self. That is the energy they convey unknowingly. Silence is not always a call for peace, although it can be used that way. It can also hold its own energy when you use it with emotional immaturity. You can use silence in the opposite manner also. It can be a call for peace. You have to be conscious of what your energy is conveying and do it with purpose. If you are using silence for peace you will have to occasionally say nice things to show that you value what the other person is doing. The consciousness itself will have the power to transform the energy to convey what needs to be said.

What I am talking about is the things you know you should say but don't. We all have gotten the feeling that we should say something nice and not said it, ignoring our inner energy. Those are the times that you are using energy to think "I don't want to," and that sends the other person the message they are not worthy of your respect and honor.

On an energy level though, the energy itself is talking to you in its own language. It is teaching you that you are worthy. The energy will show you that what others say is not a reflection of yourself.  They just may be too immature emotionally to be able to say nice things. This is so hard to see when you are not feeling strong and taking it all personally. The energy that you are worthy comes out when you stop and think, "I do do great work." Energy itself is trying to get you to a point that you feel worthy, so you can then follow its guidance. Following guidance is hard to do because, most of the time, you can rationalize your way out of it.

Feeling worthy is a feeling of confidence in your inner self. When you follow it, peace will prevail.

Electrical Generator

Do you realize that your thoughts have power? Thoughts create feelings and emotion. In an instant, you can be sad, mad, or full of joy. All you have to do is think. Your emotions are the electrical generator of this world. What kind of mechanical device do you want to be? Are you a used toaster that occasionally burns part of the toast? Are you a vacuum that has a short in it and sometimes shocks the others around you? I like to think of myself as a beautiful windmill. I use the flow of energy that is existing in the world to enhance the lives of many.
  
Feeling the flow of existing energy in the world takes practice. You have to be willing to feel your body and notice the energy in it. You can feel your body in any situation. Try starting to practice feeling your body when you have to wait someplace. You will start to notice the tension that waiting forms in your body. I was surprised the first time I realized this. I never knew that my thoughts produced such immediate results, directly in the body. After that though, I would scan that part of my body first, to train myself not to think negative thoughts. Even things that annoy you can be a joy if you use them to your advantage. So use that time to kindle a relationship with your inner energy.
 
The tension in your body harbors the energy that is flowing around you. So, if something is going on that is bothering you, feel the tension and let it go. This inner tension is like a clogged artery. They do major surgery on people with clogged arteries! So do your own non-invasive surgery and release the tension with practice. You need that energy to flow freely through you. It energizes you, like food for your soul. You also need it to make life smoother, kinder and let energy make your life easier. The efficiency of your generator is dependent on how you care for it. Daily care to release tension during the down time can make you an efficient machine. As I have said before, we need this energy to create with. Creating the life we need is dependent on how well we let the energies around us flow away from us.
  
True creation starts when we recognize that the energy around us is not something we need to control. It will be there with or without us. So letting it move is imperative because you want that same energy to fill the holes in your life that need to be filled. If you are holding energy with thought, as in the case of something that is bothering you, find something else to replace that thought. Think symbolically. Remember, your energy thinks in symbols and pictures. So if you need someone to love you more, or spend time with you, think of the two of you at the park picnicking, shopping together, or sitting by a fire in the evening. Even if these things can not happen in your life, think of them anyway. They are symbols, not what you want to do.  If you need money, don't think of what you don't have. Instead, think of a treasure chest, a bag of gold coins. Always use symbols to talk to you inner energy, and do your best to be happy. Be happy for the energy itself, it has provided you with a way out of your current situation.
  
Being an efficient electrical generator depends greatly on your choice to let the energy in life itself flow through you. So you can attract what you need to be whole and happy.

Using Energy For The Whole

If you lived at the level of living out of your inner guidance, you will have nothing but success. When you follow the guidance you may have to do things that upset people at first, but when the process gets underway, you will begin to see why it was the best thing for the whole universe.

On an energy level, the internet was invented by that same energy itself. Yes, if energy itself did not need it, it would not have even been a thought in someone's mind. We act out of that energy. That is what makes us successful, following our guidance. Anyway, the internet was ultimately meant to unite us globally. It has taken many turns and has been used for ulterior motives along the way, but you can now start to see how the energy of the world is uniting to do the work of the common good. In countries of unrest we are now seeing the young people unite to make major changes. They are uniting at risk to their own lives to better the whole world. This is true peace. This inner power of this is the same energy that Mahatma Gandhi used in freeing nations from the British Empire. We are now starting to witness the evolution of our intelligence in masses to save the world. It starts now in large scale, to bring consciousness to the world. It is a guiding moment that is guiding us all to evolve and be at peace through this inner energy. We are meant to see their struggle and see there is not much we can do. This is how energy works, it maneuvers into your life and backs you into a corner so all you CAN do is listen to it. We can't do much to help the young people in the countries that are struggling to free the world, yes the whole world! This is the energy that will bring in peace to all of us. But we can believe that it will be what is needed to save humanity. We can talk to our inner energy and ask it to keep them safe, to bring them peace so they can carry on fearlessly. That is a strong energy, and you can dedicate yourself to it by using your thoughts for the cause. Do not let any of the stories get you down, have faith that you can help with the dedication of your energy.

We may seem isolated by miles, but the world is not apart, we are part of it. The best use of your energy is to think wholeness through what is going on, and to feel empowered by your own effort to support the whole through your thoughts of common good.