Healing

Healing happens in all we do; Yet you have to have grace to open your heart in the moment and be able to see the other in a new, or whole way.
     
To day my dad came into my life for the first time in 12 years, but he wanted to see my mom. He has not seen my mom in 30 years. Yet he came with the intention of making amends. What a lot of people do not see is that you can make amends and have the other person say yes on one level, but on another still not see you as a whole person worthy of forgiveness, the healing comes when both grow and heal in the interaction and become whole.
     
I could sense that it was a moment of time that my father needed to validate that he was not as bad as he himself felt, over all that had gone by. This is an energy of calling back your soul and forgiving yourself for the pain you caused others. I am not sure if my mom could see the transformation I saw in her but I know it healed her too.
     
My mom has had a feeling of unworthiness in her life time that she has never addressed, yet it over shadowed all she does. Still to this day she talks of how she was not treated fairly by her father. I am sure that other than me, no one else has apologized to her. I also know she dismissed  that as due to her, in all my wrongness. I was so happy to see the healing in both of them, something I did not think of before.
   
Many times we change and look for confirmation in those we love, or those around us, as a barometer. Much of the time others are busy keeping us in the box of our old behavior. So we never forgive ourselves fully. This is an energy exchange that keeps people down or in the case of forgiveness, empowers us. When we know that we are forgiving, the energy can be released and we no longer carry the burden of that experience.
   
All we do has the power to heal others, and I now see that it heals us too. The law of intention, when you intend to heal, help, see the world whole; it becomes whole, and all those in it.

Eyes of Grace

You have a choice in life, the only real choice that will heal; is to see everything through grace.
Your choice to see all events as love for within you, or not. Yet the only way to heal, help, change or transform; is to take your power to see through the grace of this world and act on it guidance.
       
Yes you are the only being that can, at this moment, choose to act, see, change and maneuver this world through your choice of seeing and acting through the grace that ruins through you in the form of energy at every moment of your life.
     
We can see how hardened our lives have become, we avoid helping others for fear that we may be put out in some way. we over look things for fear that we may suffer that demise if we help too much. We x out our desire to help others in a benevolent way because it take too much effort.
     
Yet our spirit calls to every moment to help in some way, even if it is the smallest way. To see a child in a new light, gives them hope that they are a good person. To smile at a stranger helps them feel worthy, to cook a meal is to show support for your fellow man. Every thing we do can be done with an energy of support and love, and all those around us now our intentions in some way.
   
Grace, when lived through will support you and love you enough to make all of life worth while. You will no longer look for or want any approval or acceptance for others. You will see that all that matters is if you live through this and honer it with all your heart.
       
When I started on this path I wanted to know this, live it and feel it. Now I see this way and love it this way and would never live any other way. I feel like I am filling my porpoise in life to live through the eyes of grace; healing the world, one moment at a time.

Lasting Relationships

I recently met a beautiful couple that was so in love, even after years of life trauma. It is so rare to see people that have grown together in life; one is always touched by them. I have thought about them so much over the past few weeks. I also have wanted nothing more that to have such a relationship in my life; even though I will not ever have that. I am twice divorced. it got me thinking though, what makes you the kind of person that would not just live together, but thrive together.
   
Faith is the deciding factor. I am not talking about ordinary faith; but the kind that says, 'no matter what transpires; I love you, and you love me'. This life does not have a lot of room for that kind of unwavering faith. You as a person have to have you on the energy of the love above all else in this world. Through years of ups and downs, hurt feelings, death and ordinary disappointments; faith in the love that binds them.
     
You have to have the ability to empower each other at what might seem you own expense. You have to overlook a lot of what others take offence to. But in the end you come out with this perfectly nurtured love. I will tell you these too shine with this love! You can see that it has been what nurtured them through all of life together. They nurturing the love and the love nurturing them back. Amazing how the circle of love, or energy of life, works for us.
     
I know I have seen this love only two times in my life. Once as a child, and I strive to understand it and wanted to learn to live it. I know I am living it and teaching it to my kids; and that I may not have it with a partner, but I know I have it with my kids. I see that my efforts to understand have paid off in that the next generation will be better off for my faith in this love; because of my efforts in building lasting relationships with my kids.

Love is a Verb

I have a t-shirt that says this. I always understood that it is an action that we all have to choose to take. Yet, the depths that we need to take it to in order to transform our lives goes well beyond a cute t-shirt.
   
We all come in this world with energy that is meant to transform the world, and us. Love is this energy. Love is not the self centered way we feel about someone in our lives. It is that deep profound energy that runs through us and creates life itself. Love itself can come in the form of acceptance, quiet contemplation, devotion, and a great joy. The truth is that it is you. We all come here not realizing that we are that energy and that our lives contain the acting out that is supposed to reveal this to us.
   
This whole process takes quiet dedication, and is measured in every little act we preform, or every thought that causes the action. As you weave the treads of dedication of intention to love, you start to feel yourself as that love. Love being an action is the energy that creates and sustains the world. We act this out in everything we do; I mean everything! From breathing to sleeping, to our blood flowing; our bodies are replicating something in the world or universe that is modeled on our little existence.
     
When we give up the need, want and desire to control our lives, we see that we are that love, acting out the bigger world that needs love. We become that love, emanating, healing and devoted to all that passes through our lives and mind.

Loved or Trapped?

The way we talk will tell the truth about how we love. Our minds are tricksters, they like to make us think we do things for great reasons; but our language gives away our true motives. I will tell you that when you do realize the reality of the thoughts you think, your motives become pure. Energy runs through you, bringing life to all you do, and you. Yet we as humans have the free will to do what we want with that energy.
       
We all start out on a low level of understanding about love, we are taught this kids, to love our family. This small way is a physical way the tribe, or family keeps us under wraps. They teach us to love back even if love hurts, this is the physical way of keeping the tribe alive. Now understand this is energy, and we act it out with out even knowing about it. Anyway, energy comes into us and we say we are doing things out of love, yet we are really trying to get others to think we are the best, and change them so they will conform to what we want.
       
Now the truth can be found in what we say, or what we get upset about. I also want to say again that what we do is pure; but if you do not understand it, it is not pure love. This is the definition of consciousness. OR maybe you have added the weight of the physical world and made it a trap.
         
Here is the example, I have a friend, ok, ex-husband that has always wanted me to come back to him. We have remained friends and he helps me out a lot, both monetarily and companionship wise. Now, he has chosen, for four years to work on his own, not get a steady job. He has gone through four different company startups and dissolutions. All this was his choice to make a company and make it rich, so he could provide for us as a family. Now, along the way he has not been a steady provider and we have been in poverty all along. Now I left him for other reasons too, and money is only one of them. Well his choice to say that he was going to provide and then not do so. I can respect a person that knows there limits and says they can't provide, that is honest, honesty is respectable. Holding someone captive until you get it together is not admirable. Back to the subject, Language, he continues to be upset with me when I am not happy with him, or am not happy to see him. His argument is, "I have never worked so hard, why can't you be happy".  I have been trying to explain that we need a break, I see the energy as he wants to fill the energy place that provides the money for me as a family. I also know that if he is honest and says that he cant provide The energy will flow from some other place, energy flows were there is a need. If I do not rely on him to fill the need, energy itself has to find another out let. I also knowthat the time apart will heal us as individuals

Mother's Energy

Mother energy is a path you are called to live by your inner energy. We all live out energy patterns, they define our lives and they are a starting point that evolves and matures us to emotional maturity. In the beginning we have a baby and fall in love with it. But this love we find as we grow becomes unconditional over time, it changes its own parameters and the parameters of our lives. When our kids do something we think wrong, we listen and find that, that is what they need in their lives. Sometimes we find that it is not what we wanted, but it works, because it is what is needed in their lives. It opens our minds about how love is, when it needs to support others.
       
Mother energy is also very protective, now I have seen a mix of ability to live this, but I will say it. A maturation of mother energy is protective over all else. Protection is a primary need for children, they need to know that someone is in there corner. This brings an emotional safety to there world they do not have otherwise. I, and I see, many others struggle with this one because we fear abandonment. The reality of the situation is that when we protect our kids it is always the right thing to do. They see that you are trying to look out for their best interests, even if you do not succeed, they see that they are worth speaking up for and that their needs are important to you. This promotes their knowledge that they, and their needs, are worthy in this world.
     
Even within relationships I have learned the ways we emotionally abuse each other. As a mother, I have done my best to inform my kids and those around us about abuse. The one thing I have found is that I am proud of the knowledge I have gained and the ability to live it through my inner energy. When I speak up to someone I know that the energy that supported me in speaking up will make the changes. I see that even if the person does not change or stop the behavior.
     
I also know that this is the same energy that is of the universe, it in itself is a mother energy, protecting us as we walk, guided, on this path.

Love The World

You can love the world and do your best for it through your inner energy. When you feel your inner energy as something that is always with you; you are living through it. This creates the best world for the world. Each of us is a little world inside the outer world, all that we choose effects the world in the whole. We all fit together like clogs in a clock. When you access your inner world, through your inner energy field, you are cooperating with the whole universe.
       
Because we have such a limited vocabulary, in comparison to the universe, what we call the energy of the world equates to love. Love as the universe sees it is so vast, it includes all of the feelings of the world, but it is the depth that makes cooperating so worthwhile. When you cooperate with this feeling, you feel the peace and love in return, as if the energy itself is thanking you. What we call love seems so ordinary and selfish, once we feel the truth of the love we have with the energy of the world.
       
There is a quieting of the mind when we look for the feeling that connects us to the energy we have with the universe. Once we get quiet, the peace turns into love so great. After a while we see that we love all in the world, because all things and people bring the opportunity for that love in some form.
       
All you need to do is value that love more than every thing in this world. What you want will stay and the rest will fall away. So love the world as a reason to live the best life you can live.

Quality of Love

The quality of love you lavish on another is an opening for energy to bless and keep you happy. Now this may be something you have never thought of, but it is true. On one level, others say that when you give your all; time, devotion, and love to another, you spoil them. In that, they are right. From a higher level, you are acting out the abundance of the energy that feeds all of life. When you act out of this energy you are grateful to it, and for the things people and situations that the energy creates. Do not listen to them, they can live in their world and always see the downside. You look at the upside, it is more successful.

We have a quality of devotion to everything, although some peoples' devotion is not easy to see; or you may see they are devoted to themselves. What I am talking about is a quiet methodical time spent in cleaning, caring, and nurturing all of your life. It is in the time you take to do the dishes. Do you do them with joy or hope to get done so you can go on? A quality of care is found in the Joy of all that you do. You start to see it as a practice of gratitude and happiness that your thoughts are quiet during the times you are at a task. You take pride that you have created something lasting, even the dishes are a way to nurture your family, or self. There are people that rush through all of life and not much of their life looks cared for. Their surroundings are a little messy, and perhaps they do not take the time to clear the sidewalks when there is bad weather. Do you take the time to enjoy the people you are with? Is the time you spend with them good, but end at some point in a argument? Arguments are so you can be able to be right. Do you want to nurture and love them, or to be right? We are all wrong on some level of reality. Maybe it is more important to nurture the person that they can be. Does your quality of care include a kind thought, even when you are mad?

Do you know there is a quality of your speech? Are you able to talk about good things and omit the bad? Can you refrain from telling some one about the latest transgression of a loved one? A quality of speech is knowing that your words carry power. They have the ability to convey love, empower ,and improve others. They also have the ability to bring them down, rock their world, through them off course for a while. Do you need to have that kind of power? Are you that small?
  
We have the capacity to be great beings, and this comes from our willingness to have a quality of love for all of our lives. You may find that your life seems small when you live this quality of life, it takes time to devote to this. It is well worth it though, You are improving the world with your choice to give a quality of love to all.

Watering Your Seeds

Many times we get angry and forget our seeds of intention. I have a friend that wants very much to water the seeds of intention for us to get together and have a relationship. His efforts have been rooted in intention, but every time he thinks his efforts are not paying off, he gets angry. As a gardener does, you have to plant the seed in the sun, water it with affection and knowing. This knowing is a form of energy that feeds all things in life. It is the knowledge that life is energy and that if the seed you planted is meant to grow, it will. If you dig your seed up and yell at it; tell it that it is growing in the wrong direction and withhold your love it becomes a stunted plant, or byproduct of your time and effort. Eventually the very thing you are trying to nurture will die, from lack of love. We get angry and feel justified, that we are right and the other is wrong; we lose our initial seed of intention. The seed does not receive our energy or our thoughts. Now we start to water the seed of "needing to be right", rather than the person or thing we love and want to improve on.

Now, we all have things that we want to improve on in life, so don't get upset, I am not belittling this fact. What I am saying is that energy works on different rules than we do. You have to work on its terms. Whatever the problem is, you have to give the opposite to the problem. So, if your partner does not help you around the house, you have to help him, and at the same time water the seed, or thought, of love. Or, you can do the work yourself, but you have to think of it as the help and love you need. Think of the work you are doing as extra energy from the energy pool, that you are getting what you need, and then thank that same energy for your partner. Even when we don't feel loving or happy about our lives, our thoughts are working an energy magic deep in the soil of our lives. So put on your thought blinders and see your garden with rows of what you need. On the days when you can't muster the idea that your garden is growing good things, tell yourself it is anyway.

Puzzle

In a cosmic way, we all fit together as a puzzle. We all have situations in life that we wish would just go away. I call these energetic holding patterns. Some of us work through our preconceived notions of how life is supposed to be in order to let go of these holding patterns. In the end, I think we all struggle with the last question;"Why won't this go away?", or "When will this end?... I have worked through this!" This is true, but the deeper thought is that energetically, we fit together in a puzzle, and your pain fits into others lives also. I must add that it is never just one other person you affect either. There are many, and they need to learn also. There is also a collective whole that is part of your energy system, and if you are oppressed in any way, that is also an outlet for reform on a larger scale. The truth about using energy is that you have to have faith in your every fiber, that you have to use your energy seed to retrain your thoughts to know this energy is helping at all times. There have been many before us that have spent the time in contemplation of this and have lived these truths and had successful lives. Einstein said "There are two ways to look at life; as if it is all a miracle or nothing is a miracle."  He was right, there is no sitting on the fence with this one, you either use your willpower to believe or you don't, but either way it is, and that energy will teach you that perception if you let it. The average person doesn't see that perception, because they just haven't put forth the dedication and devotion to the energy itself. You cannot be without this energy, it is the very life in you and all around you. Energy is what holds all the world together and that in itself is a miracle. When feeling down think of how your puzzle piece fits in to those around you, and be grateful that you are part of the energy that is making the world a better place. Seeing the world like this also brings peace, then your energy relaxes you and then you flow with healing energy. It is so nice to be a puzzle piece that heals the world!

Things

Things are stuff we want, have, or desire to happen; but all of it has to happen in this world or the people around us don't consider us successful. The flip side of this is that we get those things through not-so-upstanding means, and no one respects us for what we have. I have been, for all intents and purposes, without a suitable home since my divorce in 2005. I have had homes, but they are not where we, as a family, want to be. They have either been controlled by others or of the wrong size. It is a constant thought in my mind that stability is what a home creates for me and my family. I remind myself that stability is a seed I had to learn to grow in myself. I sometimes think stability is a lost virtue in this society. We all want it and it speaks to, and of, our spiritual, energetic lives, but valuing it is not something we seek. I have created a stable home life. At one point I realized it had to come from me, that I had to give this to myself and my kids. I became calmer, kinder, and solidified my inner world so I was not so inconstant in my outer world. I have not gotten a home in the outer world yet. I keep reminding myself that it is a representation of stability and comfort to the soul, planting my seeds of physical stability.

I do have a family member at this time that has created a home, but I would not call it stable because if it were not for me, there would not be much love in it. She has obtained this home by choosing to live in poverty all her life. She is very proud of this, and expects all around her to respect that, and live this way too. This is what I mean about when you obtain things through not-so-stellar means, no one respects it. It does not speak to you as an energy being, to live this way, just to have things. Energy is abundant, there is nothing that is without it, so why go without to get what you need? You can use your energy for all sorts of things, but not all means are worth you efforts. The things of life, that are stable, come because you have used your energy in the right place.

Guided Way

We all are born with energy to bring into this world and have our lifetimes to learn it and understand it. What I mean by this is an energy pattern that is an outlet for the common good. Everything is an energy pattern, this has been proved by quantum physicists. One of my energy patterns is unconditional love, I did not understand this until I was going through my divorce from my husband. Then I understood why I was so unrelenting on the subject of love. We all have these energy patterns, and they work together to form the quality of the energy we are supposed to give to this earth. So unconditional love is the strongest guide in my life, it clouds all of my relationships and guides the quality of responses that I have.

The highest, form of this love is to love itself back, and through that you become a pure vessel of love for all energy of the world. Loving love itself completes the circle. You can find your energy patterns by looking at your behaviors. In the beginning I got in a lot of trouble with love, I loved for the wrong reasons and loved the to the wrong extent. Love fills a need in the moment and moves on. Your energy patterns will have this in common too. They are the places that you have made a mess of life, but the core reason you got involved was from a pure standpoint.

Rescuer energy is the same, in that you burn out fast. All of your energy is focused on helping the cause that you are attracted to. Yet, as you go along helping, you get caught up in the fact that the perpetrator is a problem. Then you start to use your energy for anger toward the perpetrator. Now your energy is moved away from the initial cause, leaving you drained. When you use your energy for anything but the energy pool you lose it, because you are no longer completing the circle. The energy you use for this world disconnects you from the guide and cuts off vital life energy.

Friendship

I look back at my life and see that I only have one true friend. We have not always been friends and it has been an on and off friendship. Friendship is not what I thought it was as a child. I grew up thinking it was what you did for others and what they did for you, because that was the example given to me.  It is so much deeper, and I was not always the best of friends. When this is what you think of it, you start to expect too much in return. True friendship is the energy of the love you put behind what you do, not what you do.

I will admit I married this friend, but never lost site of the friendship. When I divorced him, in 2005, I told our friends that I just wanted my friend back. It was one of the best seeds I planted in my life. Even though we have been through custody issues, I always kept sight of the fact that it was better to treat him with loving friendship than to argue. Even In the times I did not feel very loving, I always signed our letters, texts, and emails with "Love, M." I wanted to honor the underling intention of my care even in adversity. It has been many years now and our lives have mellowed out.  There has developed a wonderful energy behind all our dealings, kind of a mutual admiration society. I am so grateful that my seeds of intention grew and blossomed in this area. I see how it has taught me to be a better person in all ares of my life.

Excellent Parenting

There is no one thing in parenting that makes you the best, but a few things can make you excellent. The first is not to be preoccupied, you need all your thought energy on the kid you are with. They will then feel that you are with them and know you think they are special. This is the first step in healthy self esteem. Also, when your thought energy is clear, you can make better and calmer decisions. Being present is one of the best gifts you can give to your child, and to the world for that matter. It also allows you to be happier, and joy around a child is another important thing. When kids see you happy they think you are happy to be with them, and this is an esteem building block. Happiness is a learned skill, not all of us had it in our childhoods, so we did not learn to value having it. One of the best skills you can teach is happiness and the primary way we teach is through living it.

Those are the two things I feel are that are deeply important. There are others too, but the others seem to come when you are present as a parent. Devotion, I say, is third in line. Not many kids get this anymore. I didn't get it when I was young and I learned by example to be a very selfish parent in the beginning. When I started watering my seed energy of excellent parenting, I saw a lot of the things I was doing as counterproductive to my true values.

Using the skills of watering the seed energy within you, helps water the seed energy of that kind in all aspects of your life. So when you decide to become devoted to being an excellent parent, that excellent seed grows you into an excellent person in all parts of  your life. You become a better parent, lover, friend, child, and citizen of the world.

Mom

Being a mom is something I thought would be a given. When I grew up my mom was home, yet she was not there. As I became a mom and soon enough went through a divorce, I started to realize I was impatient, unhappy around the kids. A few years later, my ex and I went back to court for custody. I was filled with pain, and every time I was with my kids I felt the pain and bewilderment of the situation. I only got to see my kids three days a week and it felt like I was going to die. I could not even breathe through those days. Something in me knew I wanted to heal this whole situation, but I wanted to heal it with love. My mind raced day and night, yet I knew I needed to get it under control to focus my thoughts on a plan. My relationship with the kids was not going well. Once, they looked at me and said,"We just want you to be happy." I knew I had to find a place in my self to get happy when I was with them or our relationship would suffer. The one thing I wanted most, since childhood was to be a great mom. I realized I was not living up to that in myself. So I went out and bought beads, and when my kids were home I spent at least an hour a night beading with them. I knew if my intention was to create a good mother, I had to rise above my pain and be one. We had some great times. It did start to ease my pain, and I would even do it when they were not home, saying over and over their names, with the intention to reunite us as a family. Needless to say things did change, and I have no doubt it was because of my intention, to do this through love and not anger.