Letting go

        There is no way to describe letting go. We all think we let go, yet we hang on so your world is not in total chaos. Even when we let go of what we think is a major thing, a week later we realize that we need to let go of a lot more, in order to make change.
         Letting go happens in all levels of the body and mind, we go through layers of it until we feel like we want to lay on the floor wither and retch. In the end we can't let go of all of your lives. The ground beneath our feet would rock so much we would not be able to get out of bed.
         I am not sure their is an end to letting go, it is all an evolution. A choice of free will that every second we have to let go. I used to think that I would come across that one thing and let go of a perception an then my life would work out. Now I see no matter how far along we get, we are always letting go. 
         I have come to see that the letting go of it all becomes reduced to perception. All would say that it has been perception all along but in the beginning it came with people, places, and things. There and it has been most of this time i was hoping that when I let go I would be given a reprieve or something in return. maybe an easer path, someone that wanted to help.
        Designed in what we look for is your own fears. Our wants are designed to ketch you in a way that helps you become congruent, to live with your head and heart matching. When it is all said and done, we learn that what we want is not the letting go we wanted. Letting go is the constant thought, that an energy, a Grace bigger that ourselves is choosing; and it all comes down to one thought and choice. Is this letting Grace or me, guide me?

Defy Gravity

    It is incredibly hard to change your reality; as we know it. Yet many say it can be done. I can assure you that you can and will. Time teaches you all you need to know and perseverance will get you there. With everything you learn you are letting go of all you used to know. In the end you are left with the present moment; I agree there is some times that you think of the past but it holds no weight. The weight in your thoughts is what stops your thoughts from transforming our future. It has the tendency to make you tired all the time because you are thinking of things that make you upset; that emotion is sitting in your psyche. Weighing you down with negative emotion, this cycle your mind becomes addicted to; the constant negative state. It brings a sense of power; because we are perceived as better than the situation that we are thinking about.
   I will tell you that this is were forgiveness sets in, as the miracle. Forgiveness is not letting go of the issue; it is letting go of the weight of the emotion in the memory. The lifting of the weight, or emotion, creates the opening that allows Grace to move in and create the movement needed to change life.
    We are all accustom to life as we know it, but we all want different than what we have. That is were the miracle comes in; we retrain our minds to have faith in the ability of Grace to change our lives. This is an agonizing process; but once you are on the road there is not turning back. That very same Grace starts to recruit you as much as you look for it.
     I have begun to see that it is a great power to create and it is a great responsibility to create with consciousness. That there is a sense of aliveness in the Grace that transforms our lives and it sure does fallow our lead. I also know that we are sure to have to let go of all the emotion in the past events of our lives before we are clear enough to defy gravity in the time it takes to transform our lives.

Dark days

       Some of the days that we think we can't survive are the openings for transformation. I have been asking my Divine guidance for assistance for a few days now and my life has gotten chaotic and awful.
In my pain I have come to know the Grace that guides me. In the past i would have gotten caught up in the  mess that life brings to us in times like this.
   I have had many blessing along the way, and in the past I would have over looked these for the other reality of the bad that I see happening around me.
   This brings me to the reality that there is no bad just a movement that helps your lives transform, I want very much to teach this understanding to others, and I know that I need to live it and understand this to teach it.
     There is a peace that prevails when you see Grace in all that happens. We stop labeling good and bad. Knowing that it is all part if life that is in our best interest.
    The dark things that pass in our lives are the excuses to know Grace, commune and love; become whole in the knowing of our inner selves. Others say that they stop, I haven't seen those days yet, but I can see that they may. By virtue of perception, darkness becomes pure Grace flowing through the quality of life. Purifying all we do not want; maneuvering us into happiness.

life to live

  We all want life to go our way. The reality of that is; that life its self knows what will make us happy. Life is the energy of creation. The reality of what is best for us. Letting go of all of our wants to find what is the best for us is so hard. sometimes we do not even know what we want or think we do; only to find that we are unhappy once we get it. Our wants also change with our development or emotional growth.
      I want to stay home with my kids, they are the love of my life and I want to be there for them and all of the world is conspiring to push me into the world of work. I recently went back to work; only to find that I am delighted with it. Part of me feels like I let my kids down. As if I was not a good mom because I did not fallow the energy of my wants and focus on them. I have also wanted to be independent of the people in my life that want to call the shots. I see now that the stronger energy, the one full of life is the one that makes me free.
     I am happier, not having others around that want me to behave in a certain ways for them. I am happier without there disappointment and judgement; or moodiness.
  I do not like going to work; but I know that the energy of life needs me to be here now; to create time and space to maneuver my life into a different setting.  I can say this, that my life was not working the way I wanted it to; so it is a blessing that it is working the way life is directing it.
       Life we live is not always the best life we could live. Sometimes when we give in to life as it calls us to be, we find ourselves more alive than we thought we could be. Living the life we want can stifle life itself; making our every turn feel wrong. When we move in the direction that we need to; we come alive with the very life of creation.

energy flows

       Energy flows like a river, when it meets no Resistance it feels free and life is peaceful and safe. It has taken me so long to understand how unbiased all this is, there is no place in any of life for taking anything personal.
        It still, to this day amazes me how people treat each other and how they justify anger and taking there own feelings out on others. I have gotten so good at understanding my intuition that it feels so bad when people are angry around me. Sometimes I feel like a little kid again, raw to all that passes through me and sad about how others hold so much in anger. I have felt it so acutely, I feel overwhelmed by it all; now understanding how my kids feel. I realized that is the point in my path; to be guided to understand, feel, and learn to see it as patterns that have nothing to do with me as an energy being. I am so grateful to have places that my energy flows and I can move in a direction, creating with life and working for the bigger common good.
        I have never wavered in that, I want to teach and heal others with this knowledge. I know I have had to endure all that I have gone through to know and help others. All I have wanted all my life is to help, heal others and I see now it has been a path that has been guided all the way and I was born with this knowledge and fire to heal. Energy is a pattern that has nothing to do with us as people it uses us to heal the whole, it is us, we do not chose it. Energy is the essence of who we are, and when we understand it; or become conscious, we know we have to fallow that flow. Nothing else will help us be at peace, or help heal the world of all ailments.
        Do not feel bad about fallowing your peace, know with all your heart that it is healing the world.
Mast of the things we have to do to fallow that peace create pain for others; hold firm and chug on, peace will prevail.

New Friends

I have moved back to the place I belong, and instantly made a new friend. Cosmic; that I was in one place for a year and could not make one friend, then move and make one in two weeks. There is the energy of belonging in that.  
     
My thoughts are about rooting; or feeling of being and doing the right thing. My friend moves a lot, they travel in a camper and go were there is work. Kinda like a modern day Gypsy, but that is sweet; that she chooses to support her spouse and travel with him. The energy of true love, and it is returned in his actions too, he genuinely likes her company and is devoted to her.
     
Well the story is about rooting; she is some times restless to settle down and have a community to be involved in and family around. They connected at a church in their home town before they left and miss it very much. The reality of this is that what you do in a home town is what you will do on the road. Most people do not see this because they are looking for it to look a certain way; but they are living the love they learned at church. That very energy sends them people to commune with and care for in the same manor that they would at home.
       
They both are very generous people and give to others. She has offered to help me and that offer is the energy of love you learn about in a church and want to practice. Just her quiet manor of affection and devotion to those around her is the truth that you learn and read about.
       
Understanding how and were God works in your life is part of intention that makes your life filled with the meaning that we all crave. We do not have to go some place or do what others do to be a great citizens and show our devotion to God thought those choices.  I say they are great people and that the energy of there life is that it is a unique opportunity to show others the love of God through there personal relationship and how they interact with the new people that they meet. That is the great gift they have been given to witness there devotion to God. The energy that runs through us is the gift that God wants us to live out; being a witness to Himself; or the energy of creation itself.
       
So thank you for being my friend, acting out the affection that God has for me. Thank you for choosing to be that energy for this world, you are a great person. I am blessed for the time you have and will be in my life and that is all that God wants for us all.

No Mistakes

In the energy world there are no mistakes. We live lives that fit into the levels of energy that we are at and the levels of energy that others are at and the pain we inflict is the pain needed to heal ourselves and those around us. Even the collective pain is the pain of healing needed to transform and heal the world until some day we live in harmony and peace with all those around us.
     
You do not have to believe me in all this but is is true and has been taught by all great masters in all of time. Energy is the very thing that makes us and the very thing that inspires us in all that we do. We have free will and in the split second we take to decide to act differently, we grow.
     
Let me explain. I will use a child abuser as an example. We come into this world with energy that we need to act out, this energy is the energy that is here to heal ourselves and those around us. So the person that is an abuser grows up abused, learns to abuse, then continues to abuse on their kids. But evolution has a point of time that says we, the people, need to learn from this.
     
If the abuser can not stop in the split second that it takes to choose differently, they will keep on abusing until some one stops them in some life transforming way, or they will die; in an angry way, like heart attack, etc.
     
All the energy around them is no mistake. They are here to teach the abused not to act that way, yet many of us never learn from the pain and continue to abuse; because we like the power it gives us. There are so many layers of this pain that it is hard for a person to see it all or over come it on there own. You need one of two things, and ultimately one thing. The first and most important is you need the energy within you to heal you, teach you to stop. If you can not allow the energy with in you to help; or do not see the value in that . You will be stopped with a person in a tragedy exchange that makes you slow down enough to stop; or seek help, admitting you need help. When you admit you need help the energy with in you has the opening that it needs to help you.
     
What I am saying is that all is the energy within you, either the energy that abuses or the energy to empower others. There are no mistakes, the energy works through us in some way no matter. Your free will comes in the fact that we have the ability to see that we hurt others and can choose to let the energy work in a loving way instead of hurting. No mistakes, just bad choices. Either way you are a child of the creative energy within you, a product of energy that can live up to greatest hights in love, or pain; but no mistakes.

Healing

Healing happens in all we do; Yet you have to have grace to open your heart in the moment and be able to see the other in a new, or whole way.
     
To day my dad came into my life for the first time in 12 years, but he wanted to see my mom. He has not seen my mom in 30 years. Yet he came with the intention of making amends. What a lot of people do not see is that you can make amends and have the other person say yes on one level, but on another still not see you as a whole person worthy of forgiveness, the healing comes when both grow and heal in the interaction and become whole.
     
I could sense that it was a moment of time that my father needed to validate that he was not as bad as he himself felt, over all that had gone by. This is an energy of calling back your soul and forgiving yourself for the pain you caused others. I am not sure if my mom could see the transformation I saw in her but I know it healed her too.
     
My mom has had a feeling of unworthiness in her life time that she has never addressed, yet it over shadowed all she does. Still to this day she talks of how she was not treated fairly by her father. I am sure that other than me, no one else has apologized to her. I also know she dismissed  that as due to her, in all my wrongness. I was so happy to see the healing in both of them, something I did not think of before.
   
Many times we change and look for confirmation in those we love, or those around us, as a barometer. Much of the time others are busy keeping us in the box of our old behavior. So we never forgive ourselves fully. This is an energy exchange that keeps people down or in the case of forgiveness, empowers us. When we know that we are forgiving, the energy can be released and we no longer carry the burden of that experience.
   
All we do has the power to heal others, and I now see that it heals us too. The law of intention, when you intend to heal, help, see the world whole; it becomes whole, and all those in it.

Sparse Living

I am moving, but I will not be able to afford to move my belongings. Part of me is looking forward to the idea of sparse living. Yeah it will be really sparse, but I will be free. The thoughts of living under my own energy is such a thrill and brings me so much happiness! I am sure I will be able to manifest the bare necessities that I need to get by. There are really great people in the world, and I know I am doing what is right. This will be the energy that brings the best in the end.
     
Some say why not stay if you can't afford to move. I say the energy that I live under is too toxic for the world and that it need to be released. I am the only one that can do the job of letting go and moving on. So, I am happy to do so. When you have to leave things behind, know they are not you. There is power in letting go of the world that others feel is something to cling to.
     
I have a vision board and I was looking at it the past few nights, what I noticed was that not much of the things on it were things that I have. I started to think that this was a perfect time in life to allow my inner energy to remake me, in its own image. The prospects are daunting on one hand, but on another this is what I have always wanted. I have sought to be remade in the light of my inner self all this time. I decided to fall into this thought and allow it to do its own work. Whatever that may be.
     
So, I say, bring it on. I want less to worry about, less to clean, and a life of quiet contemplation and devotion to what really matters; my inner self and family. Others read magazines and wish for simple living, I am going to embrace living that way.

Eyes of Grace

You have a choice in life, the only real choice that will heal; is to see everything through grace.
Your choice to see all events as love for within you, or not. Yet the only way to heal, help, change or transform; is to take your power to see through the grace of this world and act on it guidance.
       
Yes you are the only being that can, at this moment, choose to act, see, change and maneuver this world through your choice of seeing and acting through the grace that ruins through you in the form of energy at every moment of your life.
     
We can see how hardened our lives have become, we avoid helping others for fear that we may be put out in some way. we over look things for fear that we may suffer that demise if we help too much. We x out our desire to help others in a benevolent way because it take too much effort.
     
Yet our spirit calls to every moment to help in some way, even if it is the smallest way. To see a child in a new light, gives them hope that they are a good person. To smile at a stranger helps them feel worthy, to cook a meal is to show support for your fellow man. Every thing we do can be done with an energy of support and love, and all those around us now our intentions in some way.
   
Grace, when lived through will support you and love you enough to make all of life worth while. You will no longer look for or want any approval or acceptance for others. You will see that all that matters is if you live through this and honer it with all your heart.
       
When I started on this path I wanted to know this, live it and feel it. Now I see this way and love it this way and would never live any other way. I feel like I am filling my porpoise in life to live through the eyes of grace; healing the world, one moment at a time.

Waking Up

If you want to start to wake up to energy, to dissipate your old thoughts; fast, go volunteer. I am talking to help others that are dying, in nursing homes. I will have to add, do not talk to the people around you. If you do, you will get caught up in the physical part of life, believing that it is the reality of what is happening in the world.
     
Go someplace and do the worst of jobs, clean bed pans and take out trash. Be kind to all that pass you, and when they do not appreciate you, go home and cry. Know that this is the fastest way to a dialogue with your inner self, oh wait, you do not have to volunteer; you already live this life.
     
Yes the fastest way to waking up to your inner self is to force yourself to do all this with love, reserve and all judgment. Use you thoughts to understand you are doing all this to transform your world, forget how it all looks. Pretend that everything that is happening is not staying, it is changing; because it is.
       
Cry a lot, crying loosens you old thought patterns. When you are tired and give up on how things are going; that is when your inner energy can make change. Waking to your inner self shows you how much of life you were missing. You start to see that all your judgment and wants got in the way of seeing how life really was. How much you really wanted others to appreciate you, waking up teaches you that you appreciate yourself; then you see how much you did not appreciate those around you. Now you can though, being wake is to understand our own selves in this energy world. To see all the ways we did not engage; and blamed others for the short coming.
       
The awake state, is to understand that it does not matter what anyone else does; it only matters how much grace, or energy you, yourself, can bring to the moment you are in. As the song goes, "Wake up, Wake up! Everybody up! Everybody Up!".

Full Measure

Life is a full measure, you need to feel it and live through the feeling. This feeling engages you, it takes your thoughts in a direct way. This means you think about life, not just react to what you see.
   
The feeling that I am talking about is the feeling that you get when you are someplace and start to feel someone looking at you; if that person is looking at you, you feel good. If that person is looking at you with anger you feel bad; or fearful. Either way this is the feeling of heightened energy. Most of the time it we notice it when we are feeling attracted to someone, the problem with this is that we reduce it to a sexual feeling. That means that we engage with another based on out true being; seeing their inner spirit, feeling it and then reduce them and ourselves to a sexual being. We as humans experience our inner self first in this way, as sexual beings; this is the first step in feeling our inner energy. The problem is that his world does not have a true understanding that the first feeling is a sensual feeling. Sensual is the essence of our true being. Falling in love is the first days of relating through our true inner being; that is why it is so powerful. The problem is that we have assigned this feeling to sexuality and then we start to see the other person through the physical; because sexuality is physical.
     
We do not have a language in this world yet for this feeling, or a true understand of how to live through this process of our inner energy. There are many of us that have started to live it and want to help others to live a full life, the only path is to experience this feeling, on a more that half bases.
   
As you start to practice this feeling and bring it into you life, it teaches you all the ways you used to see are wrong. The way you used to relate to it are hurtful and destructive.
     
When you live through it you become it, and willingly let it live through you. Life then becomes the full measure of the experience of feeling, being the true you.

Seeing

In all we do, we can see energy at work. Even when we do not see the direct results of our work; we can see the the world is connected through a mutual energy that runs through us all. Living through this energy is the spiritual law that, "all is one" and we are effect everything in or lives.
     
Seeing this energy is not about seeing with your eyes it is about a combination of feeling and knowing. It is the development of you inner self that guides you in a most wondrous life. To know in your heart that you have the ability to life someones life in even the smallest way is so powerful. That in its self can make all of life a glorious place to be.
       
No matter how down and out we are there is always someone, something to make better. Even if it is a prayer, a smile, or a silent devotion of love. Life can become a miracle in motion.
     
I love this thought, even the thought brings my heart in to a joyous state of being. When we are in a sad place we can go to the store and smile at another. We can pray for one another. We can open our hearts and feel the energy of all those around us and see them with the eyes of our inner spirit.
     
This same energy 'sees' us, and so provides the very thing we need to make our lives a better place. It is in our choice to help another, making there life a better place, that the energy makes our lives a better place too. Seeing is a intimate part of our lives, we can not avoid it. My thought is to use it to make this world the best place it can be.

The Path

The worst things in your life are meant to send you on a path of higher living. Each of us has things that happen and we say, "Why me?".  The truth is that they are the things that are supposed to set us on a course to living a life on the inside. We will never be able to understand the events of our lives according to  our logic in this world, but tragedy is set up to make us vulnerable enough we remember how it feels to feel bad. Then from an inner energy perspective we need to use that knowledge to relate to others.
     
This world is about learning to serve others, in some way that helps the world be a better place. Even when we can't get out of a lower kind of giving we can hone our inner self to giving on this level with kindness and respect. All of us have something we are good at, to learn to give with a blessing in our hearts is to change the world.
   
At some point this leads to understand in that what ever we give has the power to transform the world no matter what it looks like on the outside. Even if the other person can not say thank you or does not even understand how there life has changed; you know that it has made a difference. This is the true path if living through your inner energy. It is the ability to know that in all we do there is the power to help others.
     
The reality is that all we do either helps another or hurts them; in the end we all have the ability to learn from the pain, or love, others inflict. Yet it is in your path that the transformation needs to take place; so it should be you that is in the knowing that all is transformed through you. Our highest potential in life is living through this knowledge, and your own path is the only one that can change the world you live in.

So as my daughter loves to say, and Nike; just do it!

Lasting Relationships

I recently met a beautiful couple that was so in love, even after years of life trauma. It is so rare to see people that have grown together in life; one is always touched by them. I have thought about them so much over the past few weeks. I also have wanted nothing more that to have such a relationship in my life; even though I will not ever have that. I am twice divorced. it got me thinking though, what makes you the kind of person that would not just live together, but thrive together.
   
Faith is the deciding factor. I am not talking about ordinary faith; but the kind that says, 'no matter what transpires; I love you, and you love me'. This life does not have a lot of room for that kind of unwavering faith. You as a person have to have you on the energy of the love above all else in this world. Through years of ups and downs, hurt feelings, death and ordinary disappointments; faith in the love that binds them.
     
You have to have the ability to empower each other at what might seem you own expense. You have to overlook a lot of what others take offence to. But in the end you come out with this perfectly nurtured love. I will tell you these too shine with this love! You can see that it has been what nurtured them through all of life together. They nurturing the love and the love nurturing them back. Amazing how the circle of love, or energy of life, works for us.
     
I know I have seen this love only two times in my life. Once as a child, and I strive to understand it and wanted to learn to live it. I know I am living it and teaching it to my kids; and that I may not have it with a partner, but I know I have it with my kids. I see that my efforts to understand have paid off in that the next generation will be better off for my faith in this love; because of my efforts in building lasting relationships with my kids.

Endings

We all come to endings in our lives. Some of us do not like to end because it is change, we resist this and then the end has to come in a cloud of pain over some tragedy we created because we resisted the change in the first place. I guess if you learn to follow your intuition and see how it directs you to change, change is still a time of uncomfortableness, but you look at the good in it. This knowledge is the comfort you are doing the right thing, and it allows you to look at the possibilities that are open to you in the ending of something.
     
As you know I am moving and have had to tell my mom that I need to go. It is a time of uncomfortableness. I know she does not approve, because she does not think things have changed for me. On one level they haven't. yet if they haven't changed I would not be going. I would still be here frightened and scared for my survival and the needs of my kids. This announcement has helped my mom be kinder to me, strangely enough. but there is now a deeper, energy of resentment.
   
This past year I have rapidly gone through my spiritual evolution. My mom has not approved of me from the time I got here and after I got over the hurt I started to notice that she behaves this way with all people, It was never me she was disappointed of, it is her way of relating. Yet I have to say that has been an emotional, spiritual, guide that I do not belong were I am not supported.
     
I know that in my heart it is the right thing to move on, for everyone that I live with and around. I see that my decision effects all those that touch my lives too, even all those that touch my children's lives. I have also seen how we, all those people have grown too.
 
So my ending is filled with beginnings, and I know that I will never again be the person I was when I came here. I do not mind that one bit, for I have become, in the process the person I had wanted to be all my life. I am grateful for this ending. If I had faced all my endings with the larger view that all is right in the world, my life would had transformed sooner. I am grateful to be here now!

Generosity / Charity

I am glad the world is getting back to generosity. It is in generosity that we touch the true spirit of others and transform our spiritual lives in the process. I see that for a while we have been doing charity, and charity is nice but at the end of the day, you do not grow. Charity is the stuff that makes you feel good because you have helped another and you look and feel good for the exchange. It is something that you go to bed at night, saying I am glad I did a good deed, and now I can get on with my life.
       
Generosity is the act of extending your self in a way that you transform another, not at the expense of yourself, but at the sacrifice of part of you. This part of you can be your thoughts, it can be giving something you have, or time. Yet it requires an emotional investment and the possibility of a risk of some kind. The risk I refer to is that we may have to endure it lasting longer, or being harder than we think. Most of these opportunities of generosity are ways we grow the most, in learning our boundaries and the depth that we can touch an others lives, they are the transformational choices we make the help others see there own value.
       
We are in awe of those that do great generous acts, yet we some who think we cant preform them ourselves. We do not have the money or time. That is, we have the underlying belief that if we help others we will loose something we need; time or money. The truth is that people that serve others in this way know that they get back all invested, yet they are humble enough to know the true message of servitude is in emanating to the person you are helping a sense of equality. It this underlying intention we all stay humble, and honer that energy that all is one. That same energy is what brings back, or replaces what you gave, in abundance of what we gave in the first place. Your intention is the energy of magnetic attraction. To use it and practice it through generosity is what helps our spirits grow so rapidly.
       
Generosity is, or can be preformed in all you do. You can be generous in pouring a cup of tea, coffee, or making a meal. It comes in the morning routine with your family, the choice to overlook and show the people you live with that the small things don't make them bad people. Your choice for generosity is something you can do without money, time or any resources. It is in the choice to transform your thinking, to focusing on your ability, to make a difference in every moment of your day.
       
You can be as big at heart as any you see on TV, all you have to do is start with one thought at a time. You inner energy will do the rest, soon your life will be as big and as important as the lives of the people you see on TV..

Resurrection

Resurrection is an energy pattern that we all go through during our lives. We do not feel it on most levels though. It happens every time we learn something new and this reality replaces our old thinking. This reality can be felt acutely when you disconnect from a collective belief pattern, like getting mad at someone and moving away from them. Seeing another perception and understanding them for what they are and then understanding that reality is not who you are; changes you thoughts on who you were. This lets in a new reality of yourself and then you are resurrected as a new person. Energy then comes in and grows your cells and spiritual body so that you become the new perception.
   
I have been learning and studying all my life about the world spiritual masters, this energy has shaped and overrode all the decisions that I have made in my life. It has been the primary way I related with all people and how I have raised my family. I was given the gift in my life to be rejected by almost all the people in my life, family and friends. This was a painful process as I lived through it, yet it has repeatedly left me with the need to look to my inner energy for a self sustaining relationship.
     
Resurrection energy in the end brings all that back, it transforms your perception to leave you with the truth that you are that energy and then all those people can return. They just return free of any feelings of resistance. I have had that prevailing feeling in the past few days. An open feeling of grace, and love. Despite the friction in my current home I know that in the end all this will fade. My mom will melt into the love I have for her. The reality that my inner self has created, is the one I have been training for and striving for all my life, an so I feel reborn.
      
I feel as though I've been reborn, as I no longer see the events in my life as I used to. My reaction to those events have also changed. I welcome the light of my inner energy as it guides me down the path of conciousness.

Reality

When you think of something it starts the seed of reality. Talking about it and then having someone else believe in it makes it grow. This is how the world starts and finishes anything. If you talk about it and then it fades away, others, and your self have 'turned the other cheek,' as they say, and it dies. The reality of it fades. 

   
My daughter texted me in the night last night, she was in a panic and angry that some of her old friends were bulling her. When this happens, and any other thing that is in just, remember were you are. People do theses kinds of things to get attention and if you are feeling like it is true, but it was in just they others talk about you; it becomes real. You are the second person that makes what was said a reality, or you can drop it and it dies. These girls said she was a charity case, and this may have weighed on my daughter because of our recent hardship. Yet the reality is that she is not from a poor family, we have experienced a poor life this year, but over all we have had a great life. All parents say no to there kids, I have said yes a lot more that some parents; with a lot less to give. She has not and is not a child of a poor family. This is a reality that she can easily over look and know that she is a strong person inside and does have a great group of friends beyond these other girls. I reminded her of this. She is with her friends and is safely away from theses other girls and there reality; she saw the truth in this and moved on. That reality then died the death it deserved.

     
There is also another reality here, these girls were shunned on a level and did not like my daughter moving on. She had unfriended them on Face book. I will say that there are people in this world that test the reality of our decisions, or our dedication to them. When you energetically move on there will be others that challenge that. Others do not like it when we move on, moving on is a threat to there ego. They will energetically find ways to undermined our decisions, this is were our persecution and resolve set in. We have a choice at this point to follow our inner self direction or believe in the reality that others create for us. Energy itself does not care what you choose, if you are strong in your inner energy you will believe in your own direction and then live in the happiness of that. If you are not sure of that inner relationship you will create, again with the people that are persecuting you. You will go back to there reality and have to learn the lesson until you can disconnect from that reality setting.

   
All these energy patterns are here to help you develop your inner self. They are nothing but patterns, that the other people are acting out. The patterns test us and teach us to grow spiritually. Sitting with you inner self and felling that relationship will grow the patience you need to see these patterns and learn from them, instead of being offended by them. So create your reality with your inner self and know with all your heart that as it develops in this world others will see it and know it as truth. Leave the others behind, they are here to test your relationship with reality. What you think is your only reality.

Family

I moved to this part of the world to be with family, one assumes that family is the connection that you learn from and grow, and that helps you out of love. What I did not for see is that love is defined by others and many other ways. Let me expound on that. Family is what we grow with and they have the same value systems; now I will admit my mom has a different value system. Yet over the years I have talked to her and she has agreed with my thoughts and been supportive and loving, so I assumed that would continue when I move to her home. What I did not bargain for was that her value system would prevent her from being the loving person that she was the other 22 years that I was learning a new value system.
     
In the end I can say, that I would shout it from the mountain tops, I love you mom! I am grateful for her love, the way she can show it, has been limiting and painful, yet I have grown so much from that small love. You see energy gives you what you need not what you want, I needed to see that love, as limiting and as painful as it was on some levels as love from the energy world. I had to see and feel that as enough to open my heart to loving all, excepting all as it is in the bigger plan. With out this lesson I could not love to this capacity, or see the world as the loving place it truly is, a gift from the energy that keeps us all breathing and alive.
   
So sit with the pain that family dishes out, it is the miracle that heals us all. I am happy to report that I am moving on and I feel that same energy is me; that I have come to par with my calling in life. My life will now be the vision that I have strived for and wished it to be. I will have the same ups and downs, yet I will act different, and even appreciate the world for the true miracle it is.