Energy Magic

I think it is magical how energy works, when you release the worry about if it works. I am always amazed at how energy rearranges my life. When I am in a situation that requires me to just sit and wait, it always creates some thing that tells me the answers.
     
We all have had those times when we need change and do not know how it will happen, our brains search for the many ways we can do what we want. Always the change is something that takes time to happen and we are in a hurry to make it happen.
     
I have for a while wanted to have an equal relationship with a friend yet I know that equality comes after I become whole. Wholeness changes perception to include the whole of the world, as close as you can get to it in this world. I want to be responsible for the things I say and do, and not create more karma, or negative patterns in this life. Essentially Being whole will give me a closer reality of how energy is running and how I am taking it personally on a earthly basis. Every time there is an opportunity to meet, see or interact on a closer level I pray that the energy within will show me the way. Each time something comes up, creating some chaos. I pray that we either have a smooth time or that that same energy give me a sign. Always, and I mean always, this person gets upset in some capacity, about how I act toward him. The majority of the complaints are about me not liking him enough. I just want him to be happy, yet he does not feel happy with me. If he does, it is only as a friend and I have encouraged him to leave it that way for now. We do get along in a friendship way, I enjoy his companionship.
     
Something about the energy in the 'us' part is not right now and I can not get him to see this reality. Yet he feels it and acts it out every time there is a opportunity to meet. I am not worried about this anymore, I know that the energy within me, and us will work it out. I used to try to tell him that he does not want to be with me, and that was a total failure! Yet I feel it and know that I need the energy in me to make me whole before we can have a relationship that works.
     
Energy has been magical for me, even though it has taken me time to understand how to use it, what to do with the information and how to talk about it. I still love it and find it totally magical how it works.

Home Again

Home is a energetic place of Grace, it is the space in time that you feel safe, at peace and loved. At times in life it may be in your mind and other times it is in a physical space. Yet at all times it is the place that you are not judged, condemned or kept down. This is an energy pattern, that we all evolve to learn, as the place of peace within no matter the circumstance of the outer world.
       
I have learned that we do not feel this grace until we learn worthiness. It comes through the constant criticism of others; it is the necessity of coming to the knowledge that we are great beings because we choose a higher form of thought in times of adversity. Others do not see our worthiness it is a silent path of kindness and love, in times that we are persecuted over our choices.
       
Our choices are not necessarily wrong in and of themselves, they are choices that do not allow others to control us. Our choice to think of kindness toward other when they are condemning us is a form or protection. It is the choice for power and not victimization. It keeps the energy of the ability to be strong, in choice, within our power. You see when others condemn you they are making you wrong, and they are energetically taking your energy power because they are right. All this is done unconsciously, yet it is the energy exchange that takes place in this world. this is the pattern that keeps people up or down, or up and down.
       
In the end we learn this pattern through the pain of life and come to love those that try to persecute us. Once you have learned; the persecution is over, you can move on with a love. This love allows you to say, they can have there thoughts and I can still be at home in my skin. Powerful to have made the choices that you have made.
     
When all is said, what I have learned is that home is within. It is the place that I am embraced with love despite my differences. Once we find this place we remove ourselves from those that keep trying to gain power through our choices. We also see that we have been this strong in the past and that it will never be any different in the future. We are home again, eternally at home.